I take in so much information through my senses. I am currently wearing my headphones on full blast and it is like a soothing massage of the brain. Helping me focus. Reducing my hypervigilance. Lifting my mood. Keeping me moving. Keeiping ideas flowing. Keeping me level, light. I haven’t really done this before!!!! I use headphones out the house. I used to resent having to wear headphones in the house to drown out my neighbours. So havent had this enlightening experience will all encompasing sound in the house. Its joy. It will solve a lot of issues that still can stagnate. Energies that get stuck. Also just had a good body adjustment. Moving my left hip in and my torso over the hip. And feel more at ease. feel like I can actually relax my upper body and it be in the right posture, not collapsing. Read More ""
the degnereation of ideas
All good ideas fail once filtered through the low IQ masses. Read More "the degnereation of ideas"
As I comb through my archives, I want to talk about things that arise that I have never put into words. Especially around my physical body. Moving right now and seeing what used to terrify me. Seeing the past me with the kinder eyes of now and with the wisdom from the deeper understanding of my body and my experience of being a human. Read More ""
I am constantly trying to create more than I destroy. It is so easy to be distainful. Its so much more pleasurable to support. Contribute good ideas instead of critique, no matter how good you think that critique is. Read More ""
A man saying “good for you” to a woman who just got fake tits is peak dystopian for me today. Fuck her. Fuck him. How long will it take for women to stop hating their bodies?! Read More ""
Women Are Still Fucked
I have got a lot to sort out and put in order in relation to my realisation that we clearly do still need feminism or some kind of womens rights, cause of everything from Andrew Tate, to Dana White hitting his wife, to shaming women in the gym for feeling threatened, or all the other litany of examples. Feminism shit. Feminism is shit. Everyone hates it. It has done more harm than good. Well, not entirely. It got women equal rights, in law, and protection as a sex class, due to our capacity to reproduce and the risk that puts us in from the other sex class. But feminism demanded to make the body political, to make culture political, to be seen as equal, to have the right to medical procedures. It went too far. The mainstream lags behind the artists, comedians, writers, philosophers, film makers…creatives, by 20 – 100 years, the alternative scene a few years between. By the time the creative vision is filtered through the alternative scene and their slightly less nuanced, slightly misinterpreted, slightly twisted to fit their personal style, translation of the original ideas it has clearly lost some of the genius. Then these ideas, styles, knowledge, music, lifestyle, get passed out to the masses once the corporations have decided how to monetize the “next big thing” they seen in the alternative scenes. That is how we end up with “feminist” t-shirts in Target and 50% of men expressing their hatred of women even more publicly than before the third wave feminism went mainstream. Its how everyone is vomiting rainbows. Its how good ideas fail. And how the rejection of the idea proves even more, the need for the original creative vision. There is no current specific “wave” of feminism. More now has it just… Read More "Women Are Still Fucked"
Subsistance Sex Workers.
As career sex worker I have a lot of info on this. The majority of sex workers are subsistance workers. They earn as much as any other average job. They earn more than Starbucks workers and less than lawyers. They are stay at home moms. They are women will mental or physical disability. They are nomads. They are artists, writers, students. They have 2,3 or 4 jobs. They are EXACTLY like every other subsitance worker in this country and I guarantee everyone knows at least one. As MOST sex workers NEVER come out. Ive been subsistance sex working for 12 years. Every single day I wake up and do EXACTLY what I want. I have travelled the world. I have had non judgemental relationships around the world. I am a artist. I have lived in the wilderness alone for years. I have had community in the subsistance sex work space, now I choose to be independant. I have life long friends. It is just a job for most people. Cause there are actually MANY women out there who are much happier being comfortable in their body and sharing their sexuality, than work some other shitty subsistance job, where you work for a shitty boss, with shitty hours, for no thanks or freedom. Many women use sex work to save up for new buisnesses, or to pursue a dream. I’ve changed thousands of lives with my online sex education and physical consulting. I get emails from past clients and even recreational partners telling me how I have helped them and the women in their lives. How could I have improved the lives of thousands of men and women in any other job? How would I have changed the landscape of sex work if I wasn’t putting my beliefs into action? Subsistance… Read More "Subsistance Sex Workers."
Happy Childless, If Not For The Others…Mothers.
This is just more proof for me as to why I don’t get on with most people. Most women. I am so different from the majority in all major factors, so add them all up and I really am rare in my perspective and experience on this planet. In terms of women who think the same as me re children, I am the same as the 10% of women who don;t want children who havent had them. Most women who haven’t had them, want them. I cannot comprehend. Out of the happy childless women, how many are age appropriate as a friend, how many are sex workers, how many are artists aswell, how many are loners, how many live in the wilderness? I would imagine HC women will have similar interests or ways of life cause of all the reasons they are HC will affect what interest we have. But finding each other in the same place, at the same time, who are able to interact and WANT to know anyone, I don;t. So when women don’t get me, don;t like me, think I’m hard or mean, they need to realize they are basically a different species. I am not the same as you. I cannot imagine wanting to care full time for other people. I am too important to be the last thing on my priority list. I would not want to believe that what I do bringing up a child wont have a impact on them and the world in a negative way for the rest of their lives. I can’t imagine not being able to say no ever again. I cannot imagine the heartbreak of your baby becoming a teenager and suddenly hating you. The pain and the trauma and the drama and the immersion in the… Read More "Happy Childless, If Not For The Others…Mothers."
Im trying to adjust my pace to reality. Slow down. No immediate news, updates, other people. Just me. My thoughts. Me enjoying reality as it is, not just feeling good cause I’m isolating and controlling. Always remembering the bigger picture. The chance of being alive for this moment in infinity. 90s pace. Cause I fucking love tv. But books. And music. Stay in my body. Write what I know deeply. No need to be responding to the stuff that is intentionally spread to diss tract and control. Read More "Pace"
The majority of people hate their bodies. They hate their sexed animal body. They hate their innate drives. They hate how little control they have over their bodies. They hate the difference between their minds and their bodies. They hate how they are judged for their bodies. They hate carrying a meat sack around. Enlightenment so far has been thought of as mental, spiritual, out of body, higher, escaping physical reality, male. That is why no one has achieved a state of being akin to enlightenment or godliness. We are physical forms. The enlightenment is inward. It is physical, it is mastery of the mind to let the body be free. It is the mind that we must escape. The real enlightenment is bodily, female, real, present, grounded, euphoric in physical reality. The biggest block and the foundational stone of the badly domesticated human is their denial of sex. The most fundamental element of existence, from microbes to monkeys, trees to humans, is reproduction. Sex. The only reason we exist, that anything exists is because of sex. Reproducing. It is the only reason to survive. Sex is why we eat, explore, move, think, problem solve, bond, form relationships and community. Sex is the essence of our survival. The uneven, unstable floor that the domestication of humans has been built on, is the denial of our sexed animal bodies. The denial of the priority of sex in the human experience and its importance in the very existence of everything. The biggest natural urges our bodies have evolved to experience and act on have to be suppressed. People argue about what kind of sex should be ok and who partakes and consumes and the morals surrounding it all. But no one is checking to see if the basis of our assumptions, of… Read More "The Root"
Don’t be left or right. Be human. No right or wrong. Just what is best. It’s best to have discipline but also fun. Dialectic to elevate. Use plant medicine to expand your brain, not run from it. Know thy body. Be intimate with who you want. But having a family matters. Celebrate being a family. Community should be a positive. A group of people we know and are able to navigate. But privacy is obviously respected. Police should be military. Why aren’t they? What do the military do all day? Why can’t the police be the military? They get loads of training. Better than the police. Could have a wider range of skills based on how they serve. Mental health, education, admin, docs, proper weapon training, patriotic from a range of backgrounds. Less bias. Fair. Live in bases like they do!small towns get however many they need and get posted places. Community events. Dance. Celebrate. Worship. Real Food. Community farms. Ease in the body so movement and touch and the whole body isn’t taboo. But consent matters. Neither a heightening or denial of sexual feeling. Where appropriate. Birth control, but know your body. Firm but gentle. Freedom in optimising reality. Not sure if it’s fair to expect people in gross places and horrible jobs to feel free in their mind and body. Butttttttt. If they were. They would tidy. Clean. Organize, decorate. Change the room. Then improve my wardrobe Make things smell nice. Be the best at whatever shitty job they do that they can be. Take pride. Have a sense of humour. Laugh. Don’t take yourself too seriously. But don’t think you’re a joke either. Do whatever you want but consider the consequences, even if just for a second longer. Grown adults can do and say what they… Read More "NoLeftNoRight"
The Abortion Fallacy
Oh noooooo. Roe V Wade has fallen. Women aren’t whole people. Women will die. Women will be forced gestators. Abortion is banned. Ectopic pregnancy or miscarriage will get you arrested. Abortion rights are human rights. My body My choice. Women can never be equal without access to abortion. Men are legislating our bodies. Women will die. This is awful, lets all just stand in the streets, scream and cry. Hopefully a riot will get our rights back. Oh Shut the front door. This is ALL lies. It is now a week after the decision came down that it is not the federal governments right to legislate our bodies. What? You mean the supreme court said….your body your choice? Yeah. So why is everyone so mad? This is what is driving me crazy. The amount of drama, hyperbole, lies and fear mongering are causing women all over the world to be freaking out about all the above statements. I heard 3 different men on Friday, who had read the whole judgement and are pro choice, explain it all, read all the opinions and summarized it with glee. And even from their perspective, I knew it wasn’t a bad ruling. A week later and I’ve only seen one article from the left, covering what is in the judgement and not just screaming about things that it didn’t say. It was written by a lawyer, and it was still mostly their opinion. The article stated it was a 200 page legal document so is very confusing and obviously no one will have read it yet…..what?! I heard from 3 MEN who had read it and interpreted it for an audience, the morning of its release. Why wasn’t the left/pro abortionists doing the same. If they really cared about women, like they claim to,… Read More "The Abortion Fallacy"