
I am no longer satisfied by having sex, sexuality and sex work discussed, researched and written about by men, or women with no experience doing sex work, with only limited sexual experience of their own, with bias, with limits, operating within the constraints of what currently exists, or highlighting problems that never get solved or truly addressed. I think its time for people with the relevant experience, knowledge and insight into anything to do with sex to speak up. We won’t ever get anywhere if we keep relying on inexperienced people sharing their thoughts on things of which they have only limited personal experience.

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Without language, is there consciousness? To me there only seems to be awareness and memory. Memory, which is the back catalogue of moments of awareness. I had so much space and silence inside me on the drive home. My body feels so still and aligned. When I move I have constant ideas or complete awareness. When I come to communicate either experience, it seems so insignificant, ephemeral, small, compared to the sensation inside me. It is hard writing about language. But when the concepts flow through me it seems so obvious and simple. Can language capture the experience of awareness? How can "nothing" be so full of everything. Everything is nothing. In nothing is everything. To feel everything without language is nothing. It is vast space. Silence. Comfort. Euphoria. Contentment. Awareness. It is that what is right now, is enough. It is more than enough. It is over flowing. It…
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I've been going down a track on YouTube, my new special interest, of reaction and red pill videos. People who were liberal, progressive or woke and have seen the light. The light, they are finding, is called being red pilled. Moving towards a conservative, right wing, world view. I have been going through this process myself for a couple of years. My panic and fear at the direction the world was going, the reality of its current awfulness, the immense problems in all people, systems, experiences, everything ever that has been, is wrong, and it debilitated me. I wound up in bed for days and even weeks, for years. I felt like I was the only person in the world that could see the amount of reality in the world, that felt the pain and awfulness of every moment for every person. Even if people seeeem to be happy, if…
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There is a reason I speak about things. I know. From experience. First hand. Many more truths than you can comprehend. Unless you too have the same quantity and quality of first hand experiences, you have absolutely nothing to say, or offer me. I'll add your data to my information pool, but it won't change anything I have to say, or disprove anything I have done and know. You are nothing. You are a point in an expansive data set that is my brain. So if you want to scream your differeing opinion or attack me about how I'm wrong, link me to your 15 years of writing, research and relevant experience, or set up your own platform and articulate your points, create, cause you cannot effect what I make or do, your experience of the world is up to you. I see your projection and low IQ takes. You…
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Testing using this off line. When I’m done ovulating I am in the perfect brain to get shit done. Do website. Write. Ovulation is free to be a sexy rebel. connect to body. Enjoy being horny. Generate balance and grace. Period is whatever I want. No socials. Post period, direct. Percolate. Look but don’t talk. Pre period. Delete social media. Walk. Move. Travel. Drive. Brain storm ideas.
Watch on Archive / BitChute / LBRY / Minds / YouTube or Download the mp4 What was World War One about? How did it start? Who won? And what did they win? Now, 100 years after those final shots rang out, these questions still puzzle historians and laymen alike. But as we shall see, this — Read on www.corbettreport.com/wwi/
Out with Kitty and Bussy for a reset after my trip to England. A bit lost in life. But finding myself in the spaces. A lot of my struggles can be relieved by soothing my body. Letting it relax, expand, dropping fight or flight responses. Only then can I find the freedom in my humanity.
How come you’re allowed to blaspheme but you can’t say anything antisemitism?! How come “they” get their own rules and get mad at everyone for way less blasphemy than committed against other religions all the time. Just talking about “them” is called antisemitism.
Experiencing without knowing? Empirical evidence for phenomenal consciousness without accessCan one have a phenomenal experience to which one does not have access? That is, can you experience something without knowing? The dissociation betwee…
A New Bodily Approach to Treat Depression and AnxietySwift, upward movements instead of slow and downward.
Fear Of Life Quotes by Alexander Lowen25 quotes from Fear Of Life: ’The cases described in this section (The Fear of Being) may seem extreme, but I have become convinced that they are not as… “There are many roles that people play and many images that they project. There is, for example, the "nice" man who is always smiling and agreeable. "Such a nice man," people say. "He never gets angry." The facade always covers its opposite expression. Inside, such a person is full of rage that he dares not acknowledge or show. Some men put up a tough exterior to hide a very sensitive, childlike quality. Even failure can be a role. Many masochistic characters engage in the game of failure to cover an inner feeling of superiority. An outward show of superiority could bring down on them the jealous wrath of the father and the threat of castration.…
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If you are disconnected from, or deny your body, you will never get to experience, understand or even comprehend the true human experience. It does not matter how much you master your mind, understand language and comprehend complex ideas, you can never know what it is to be human until you master your body. You master your mind, to free your inner child, the witness. But unless you fix the muscle, sinews, tendons, facia and skin in-between the inner child and outer self, you cannot know what it is like for that inner child to truly run free in reality. The body, is no mind. It is no language. It is no narrative. It is no words. It is the cat, lying in the sun, reveling in the experience of existing in its physical body. There is no future. There is no past. There is only the body. The only…
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I take in so much information through my senses. I am currently wearing my headphones on full blast and it is like a soothing massage of the brain. Helping me focus. Reducing my hypervigilance. Lifting my mood. Keeping me moving. Keeiping ideas flowing. Keeping me level, light. I haven't really done this before!!!! I use headphones out the house. I used to resent having to wear headphones in the house to drown out my neighbours. So havent had this enlightening experience will all encompasing sound in the house. Its joy. It will solve a lot of issues that still can stagnate. Energies that get stuck. Also just had a good body adjustment. Moving my left hip in and my torso over the hip. And feel more at ease. feel like I can actually relax my upper body and it be in the right posture, not collapsing.
As I comb through my archives, I want to talk about things that arise that I have never put into words. Especially around my physical body. Moving right now and seeing what used to terrify me. Seeing the past me with the kinder eyes of now and with the wisdom from the deeper understanding of my body and my experience of being a human.
I am constantly trying to create more than I destroy. It is so easy to be distainful. Its so much more pleasurable to support. Contribute good ideas instead of critique, no matter how good you think that critique is.
I am getting sick of seeing people online advocating for shit. Basic as fuck shit. Like today I saw some woman, like my age, “proving” that clothes stores don’t have uniform sizing. Holy. Fucking. 1995. What the fuck has she been doing the last 30 years?! How does she think this is worth bringing up?! Griping over everyday reality. The call for more gay rights?More rights for what?! Women, what is it that you can't do in 2023? What is it that black, asian, Irish, Jewish or any other victim race can’t do? Women without kids, if you are so happy, why do you need to make videos to tell everyone you are happy and it's not like others think. Erm. Someone who is happy doesn’t need others to agree with them. Someone who is living a certain way does not need to advocate that people need to be allowed/encouraged/represented,…
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Words are nothing. They do not represent reality. They are noises that have been ascribed meaning. And then over the years, judgment and value have been placed on words. The idea that some words are unspeakable or some ideas are hate, chills me to the bone. i can, and will, always say what I want, what I think, what I see. Any laws around speech in America are related to intent, not words said. You cannot prove intent. We do not live in the minority report. It is a violation of our human born freedoms to criminalize the interpretations of someones pre emptive actions. Until the crime is commited, there is no way to be sure the perpetrator would have gone through with it. If you can arrest someonbe for intent, then arrest every single human. Intent isnt action. Words are intent, or action. Words are sounds. Action is action.…
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A man saying "good for you" to a woman who just got fake tits is peak dystopian for me today. Fuck her. Fuck him. How long will it take for women to stop hating their bodies?!
I have got a lot to sort out and put in order in relation to my realisation that we clearly do still need feminism or some kind of womens rights, cause of everything from Andrew Tate, to Dana White hitting his wife, to shaming women in the gym for feeling threatened, or all the other litany of examples. Feminism shit. Feminism is shit. Everyone hates it. It has done more harm than good. Well, not entirely. It got women equal rights, in law, and protection as a sex class, due to our capacity to reproduce and the risk that puts us in from the other sex class. But feminism demanded to make the body political, to make culture political, to be seen as equal, to have the right to medical procedures. It went too far. The mainstream lags behind the artists, comedians, writers, philosophers, film makers…creatives, by 20 - 100…
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As career sex worker I have a lot of info on this. The majority of sex workers are subsistance workers. They earn as much as any other average job. They earn more than Starbucks workers and less than lawyers. They are stay at home moms. They are women will mental or physical disability. They are nomads. They are artists, writers, students. They have 2,3 or 4 jobs. They are EXACTLY like every other subsitance worker in this country and I guarantee everyone knows at least one. As MOST sex workers NEVER come out. Ive been subsistance sex working for 12 years. Every single day I wake up and do EXACTLY what I want. I have travelled the world. I have had non judgemental relationships around the world. I am a artist. I have lived in the wilderness alone for years. I have had community in the subsistance sex work space,…
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