Touching your arm against mine Isn’t a small gesture. It isn’t just flesh rubbing flesh. It’s not skin on skin. It’s our inner maps melting together. It’s you letting me in. It’s a portal to a reality That only exists between you and me. It is a landscape, where only we can be. Every part of the body Is experiencing the smallest sensation. While the mind is blank and free. In a universe that can only be ours It is all of you. It is all of me. Read More "Maps"
Without language, is there consciousness? To me there only seems to be awareness and memory. Memory, which is the back catalogue of moments of awareness. I had so much space and silence inside me on the drive home. My body feels so still and aligned. When I move I have constant ideas or complete awareness. When I come to communicate either experience, it seems so insignificant, ephemeral, small, compared to the sensation inside me. It is hard writing about language. But when the concepts flow through me it seems so obvious and simple. Can language capture the experience of awareness? How can “nothing” be so full of everything. Everything is nothing. In nothing is everything. To feel everything without language is nothing. It is vast space. Silence. Comfort. Euphoria. Contentment. Awareness. It is that what is right now, is enough. It is more than enough. It is over flowing. It… Read More "Language Consciousness"
There is a reason I speak about things. I know. From experience. First hand. Many more truths than you can comprehend. Unless you too have the same quantity and quality of first hand experiences, you have absolutely nothing to say, or offer me. I’ll add your data to my information pool, but it won’t change anything I have to say, or disprove anything I have done and know. You are nothing. You are a point in an expansive data set that is my brain. So if you want to scream your differeing opinion or attack me about how I’m wrong, link me to your 15 years of writing, research and relevant experience, or set up your own platform and articulate your points, create, cause you cannot effect what I make or do, your experience of the world is up to you. I see your projection and low IQ takes. You… Read More "If you Haven’t…then Don’t Fucking Speak To Me"
If you are disconnected from, or deny your body, you will never get to experience, understand or even comprehend the true human experience. It does not matter how much you master your mind, understand language and comprehend complex ideas, you can never know what it is to be human until you master your body. You master your mind, to free your inner child, the witness. But unless you fix the muscle, sinews, tendons, facia and skin in-between the inner child and outer self, you cannot know what it is like for that inner child to truly run free in reality. The body, is no mind. It is no language. It is no narrative. It is no words. It is the cat, lying in the sun, reveling in the experience of existing in its physical body. There is no future. There is no past. There is only the body. The only… Read More "The Mind Alone Cannot Produce Effective Solutions"
The “evil woman” narrative is proliferated so good men never find out how the other men really treat women. I have been getting bombarded with the “evil woman” narrative for a long time from the left and the right sides of the ideological aisle. Due to many unfortunate relationships since moving to America, I gained a new insight into the existence of an “evil woman”, the narccisist mother, and her impact on their children and society. So I was primed to fall for this relatively new assault on the female character. Obviously an assyakt on the female character is nothing new. But this violent, machieovelian, hard bitch “evil woman” seems a new developement. Left Right Where it has come from – what is it a reaction to? Both sides. What I have seen in rl? Evil Women: Gender Critical women, white women, middle class women, radical feminists, 2nd wave feminists,… Read More "The Evil Woman Narrative"
I am getting sick of seeing people online advocating for shit. Basic as fuck shit. Like today I saw some woman, like my age, “proving” that clothes stores don’t have uniform sizing. Holy. Fucking. 1995. What the fuck has she been doing the last 30 years?! How does she think this is worth bringing up?! Griping over everyday reality. The call for more gay rights?More rights for what?! Women, what is it that you can’t do in 2023? What is it that black, asian, Irish, Jewish or any other victim race can’t do? Women without kids, if you are so happy, why do you need to make videos to tell everyone you are happy and it’s not like others think. Erm. Someone who is happy doesn’t need others to agree with them. Someone who is living a certain way does not need to advocate that people need to be allowed/encouraged/represented,… Read More "Being A Human Is Easy"
Words are nothing. They do not represent reality. They are noises that have been ascribed meaning. And then over the years, judgment and value have been placed on words. The idea that some words are unspeakable or some ideas are hate, chills me to the bone. i can, and will, always say what I want, what I think, what I see. Any laws around speech in America are related to intent, not words said. You cannot prove intent. We do not live in the minority report. It is a violation of our human born freedoms to criminalize the interpretations of someones pre emptive actions. Until the crime is commited, there is no way to be sure the perpetrator would have gone through with it. If you can arrest someonbe for intent, then arrest every single human. Intent isnt action. Words are intent, or action. Words are sounds. Action is action.… Read More "Free Speech Absolutism"
I have got a lot to sort out and put in order in relation to my realisation that we clearly do still need feminism or some kind of womens rights, cause of everything from Andrew Tate, to Dana White hitting his wife, to shaming women in the gym for feeling threatened, or all the other litany of examples. Feminism shit. Feminism is shit. Everyone hates it. It has done more harm than good. Well, not entirely. It got women equal rights, in law, and protection as a sex class, due to our capacity to reproduce and the risk that puts us in from the other sex class. But feminism demanded to make the body political, to make culture political, to be seen as equal, to have the right to medical procedures. It went too far. The mainstream lags behind the artists, comedians, writers, philosophers, film makers…creatives, by 20 – 100… Read More "Women Are Still Fucked"
As career sex worker I have a lot of info on this. The majority of sex workers are subsistance workers. They earn as much as any other average job. They earn more than Starbucks workers and less than lawyers. They are stay at home moms. They are women will mental or physical disability. They are nomads. They are artists, writers, students. They have 2,3 or 4 jobs. They are EXACTLY like every other subsitance worker in this country and I guarantee everyone knows at least one. As MOST sex workers NEVER come out. Ive been subsistance sex working for 12 years. Every single day I wake up and do EXACTLY what I want. I have travelled the world. I have had non judgemental relationships around the world. I am a artist. I have lived in the wilderness alone for years. I have had community in the subsistance sex work space,… Read More "Subsistance Sex Workers."
Sex on a Cycle? | Psychology Today So where does this leave us? Studies of the relationship between sexual desire, coitus and menstrual cycles in women have yielded variable results. This is only to be expected, as multiple confounding factors are involved, including initiation of sexual activity by one or other partner, a rebound effect following abstinence during menstruation, and use of oral contraceptives. Some studies have reported a peak in sexual motivation and/or actual coitus approximately coinciding with mid-cycle and hence with the likelihood of ovulation. But most studies have failed to identify a clear mid-cycle peak. The underlying assumption has been that hormonal changes over the cycle may influence sexual motivation. However, most studies did not include hormonal monitoring, so ovulation time has often been only approximately inferred. Overall, it is possible to recognize a general trend across many studies in which female sexual motivation shows a peak… Read More "Re:Wilding:Sex"
We live in a time of informational super abundance. But the throttle is in the “ego”, your perspective, yourself, getting in the way. You think the structure of information you have consumed from birth is reality. You only hold shape as a person in relation to it. But that is not true. You exist as a conscious entity outside of programming. You can unlearn your perspective. You can realize someone who has been given the exact opposite information to you, is a good, kind, happy, whole person who is valid in their perspective. Once you get it, then all of a sudden, it floods in. You realize, everyone is valid in their own perspective. That means there are billions of perspectives on reality all operating at once. No one perspective is right, no other is wrong, they just all are. In that space of acceptance, outside of perspective, is reality.… Read More "Rising Above The Dialectic"
Today was amazing. I’m still buzzing about it. The Ye Alex Jones show was the best thing I’ve seen in years. Not cause of what was discussed, but cause it was the most radical punk rock art I’ve seen for….decades?🤷♀️ They just grabbed the world and shook it by its balls. Shaking people by the collar, desperately trying to get people to see what we have got ourselves into and how far we have already given up our freedom, rights, artistic license and sense of fun and play. This used to be a normal sight in the mainstream. An outrageous counter culture was vital to the mainstream and for keeping power in check. Now there is no counter culture. It can’t exist on the internet. You can’t be too messy, push boundaries or act out of the norm in the corporate mall that is the internet today. You can loose… Read More "Ye"
Don’t be left or right. Be human. No right or wrong. Just what is best. It’s best to have discipline but also fun. Dialectic to elevate. Use plant medicine to expand your brain, not run from it. Know thy body. Be intimate with who you want. But having a family matters. Celebrate being a family. Community should be a positive. A group of people we know and are able to navigate. But privacy is obviously respected. Police should be military. Why aren’t they? What do the military do all day? Why can’t the police be the military? They get loads of training. Better than the police. Could have a wider range of skills based on how they serve. Mental health, education, admin, docs, proper weapon training, patriotic from a range of backgrounds. Less bias. Fair. Live in bases like they do!small towns get however many they need and get posted… Read More "NoLeftNoRight"
Being human is really fucking hard. Modern “comforts” have caused the body to soften and the mind has suffered. Our ability to cope with hardships and literally just being human is being lost. Life will always be hard for the mind. We need to keep it hard for the body to enable access to the strength to cope. Doing hard things feels good. Lifting heavy things feels good. Having a body supple and strong enough to handle anything you want to do, gives your the mental strength and plasticity to do what you want to do. The human condition has been medicalized and pathologized because we are no longer learning how to cope with life. As life for human children get easier, they learn less about how to cope with hardships. And when the inevitable hardships arise, trauma is created if they fail in those hard times. Trauma leads to… Read More "Being Human Is Hard"
Oh noooooo. Roe V Wade has fallen. Women aren’t whole people. Women will die. Women will be forced gestators. Abortion is banned. Ectopic pregnancy or miscarriage will get you arrested. Abortion rights are human rights. My body My choice. Women can never be equal without access to abortion. Men are legislating our bodies. Women will die. This is awful, lets all just stand in the streets, scream and cry. Hopefully a riot will get our rights back. Oh Shut the front door. This is ALL lies. It is now a week after the decision came down that it is not the federal governments right to legislate our bodies. What? You mean the supreme court said….your body your choice? Yeah. So why is everyone so mad? This is what is driving me crazy. The amount of drama, hyperbole, lies and fear mongering are causing women all over the world to be… Read More "The Abortion Fallacy"
No More Feminism The Failure Of Sex Work is Work and Third Wave Feminism The Middle: The Human Sexual Reality Between Religion and Sex Passivity Why I Dont Need The SJWs or RadFems To Save Me Instead of wanting to tear down sex work and destroy and deny reality I am actively looking at a way to make it work based on reality and I try and do this every time I work, from what I share, how I do it and my boundaries within my work. Its hard work and life would be easier if I didnt, but I wouldnt be able to live with myself. And might as well do any other job that makes me hate myself, break down and get fired. White Pill Sex Work What Do I do? I always emphasise that I am here for my pleasure as much as theirs, and that they… Read More "The Failure Of Sex Work is Work and Third Wave Feminism"
This is a big one! A 3 part-er! Blair White and Buck Angel Inspiring Me To Talk! Part One Part Two Part Three Read More "The Body Is The Answer. Sex Needs To Change."