I am getting sick of seeing people online advocating for shit. Basic as fuck shit. Like today I saw some woman, like my age, “proving” that clothes stores don’t have uniform sizing. Holy. Fucking. 1995. What the fuck has she been doing the last 30 years?! How does she think this is worth bringing up?! Griping over everyday reality. The call for more gay rights?More rights for what?! Women, what is it that you can’t do in 2023? What is it that black, asian, Irish, Jewish or any other victim race can’t do? Women without kids, if you are so happy, why do you need to make videos to tell everyone you are happy and it’s not like others think. Erm. Someone who is happy doesn’t need others to agree with them. Someone who is living a certain way does not need to advocate that people need to be allowed/encouraged/represented, cause they are proof it is possible. The thing that started me on this was seeing Scottee on some youtube clip, “sjw gets owned”. He didn’t really get owned. But he was trying to complain about something being unfair for lgbqwerty people and women. He also advocates for fat people and working class people having more access to things previously off limits to them, such as modelling, and lowering the bar so anyone can get good jobs without having to get a degree. Cause, fairness or something? Well this is a man, who is gay, who is married to his life partner, who doesn’t have a degree, and is a successful artist, performer and is now getting to go on TV shows to talk about some rights or something. Oh and all the people surrounding him who helped make him successful were women, all classes, all sizes. Soooooo what is… Read More "Being A Human Is Easy"
Free Speech Absolutism
Words are nothing. They do not represent reality. They are noises that have been ascribed meaning. And then over the years, judgment and value have been placed on words. The idea that some words are unspeakable or some ideas are hate, chills me to the bone. i can, and will, always say what I want, what I think, what I see. Any laws around speech in America are related to intent, not words said. You cannot prove intent. We do not live in the minority report. It is a violation of our human born freedoms to criminalize the interpretations of someones pre emptive actions. Until the crime is commited, there is no way to be sure the perpetrator would have gone through with it. If you can arrest someonbe for intent, then arrest every single human. Intent isnt action. Words are intent, or action. Words are sounds. Action is action. And no law should be in the business of mind reading. I have never let anyones words inside me. When I was first bullied at age 9, my Mom told me to just ignore it. Don’t let it affect me. They are just jealous, intimidated, feel bad about them selves. Just cause someone says something, does not mean it is true. So I never internalised anything anyone ever said to me after that. Not even what my parents thought. I hate to be influenced by any one elses words. Why should someones words affect the action I want to take? I think things through and know what feels right for me. If I let someones words change my perspective on reality then I am further from experiencing reality as myself. This is how most people end up regreting things. Do not regret the things you have done but those you… Read More "Free Speech Absolutism"
Women Are Still Fucked
I have got a lot to sort out and put in order in relation to my realisation that we clearly do still need feminism or some kind of womens rights, cause of everything from Andrew Tate, to Dana White hitting his wife, to shaming women in the gym for feeling threatened, or all the other litany of examples. Feminism shit. Feminism is shit. Everyone hates it. It has done more harm than good. Well, not entirely. It got women equal rights, in law, and protection as a sex class, due to our capacity to reproduce and the risk that puts us in from the other sex class. But feminism demanded to make the body political, to make culture political, to be seen as equal, to have the right to medical procedures. It went too far. The mainstream lags behind the artists, comedians, writers, philosophers, film makers…creatives, by 20 – 100 years, the alternative scene a few years between. By the time the creative vision is filtered through the alternative scene and their slightly less nuanced, slightly misinterpreted, slightly twisted to fit their personal style, translation of the original ideas it has clearly lost some of the genius. Then these ideas, styles, knowledge, music, lifestyle, get passed out to the masses once the corporations have decided how to monetize the “next big thing” they seen in the alternative scenes. That is how we end up with “feminist” t-shirts in Target and 50% of men expressing their hatred of women even more publicly than before the third wave feminism went mainstream. Its how everyone is vomiting rainbows. Its how good ideas fail. And how the rejection of the idea proves even more, the need for the original creative vision. There is no current specific “wave” of feminism. More now has it just… Read More "Women Are Still Fucked"
Subsistance Sex Workers.
As career sex worker I have a lot of info on this. The majority of sex workers are subsistance workers. They earn as much as any other average job. They earn more than Starbucks workers and less than lawyers. They are stay at home moms. They are women will mental or physical disability. They are nomads. They are artists, writers, students. They have 2,3 or 4 jobs. They are EXACTLY like every other subsitance worker in this country and I guarantee everyone knows at least one. As MOST sex workers NEVER come out. Ive been subsistance sex working for 12 years. Every single day I wake up and do EXACTLY what I want. I have travelled the world. I have had non judgemental relationships around the world. I am a artist. I have lived in the wilderness alone for years. I have had community in the subsistance sex work space, now I choose to be independant. I have life long friends. It is just a job for most people. Cause there are actually MANY women out there who are much happier being comfortable in their body and sharing their sexuality, than work some other shitty subsistance job, where you work for a shitty boss, with shitty hours, for no thanks or freedom. Many women use sex work to save up for new buisnesses, or to pursue a dream. I’ve changed thousands of lives with my online sex education and physical consulting. I get emails from past clients and even recreational partners telling me how I have helped them and the women in their lives. How could I have improved the lives of thousands of men and women in any other job? How would I have changed the landscape of sex work if I wasn’t putting my beliefs into action? Subsistance… Read More "Subsistance Sex Workers."
Sex on a Cycle? | Psychology Today So where does this leave us? Studies of the relationship between sexual desire, coitus and menstrual cycles in women have yielded variable results. This is only to be expected, as multiple confounding factors are involved, including initiation of sexual activity by one or other partner, a rebound effect following abstinence during menstruation, and use of oral contraceptives. Some studies have reported a peak in sexual motivation and/or actual coitus approximately coinciding with mid-cycle and hence with the likelihood of ovulation. But most studies have failed to identify a clear mid-cycle peak. The underlying assumption has been that hormonal changes over the cycle may influence sexual motivation. However, most studies did not include hormonal monitoring, so ovulation time has often been only approximately inferred. Overall, it is possible to recognize a general trend across many studies in which female sexual motivation shows a peak in the week following cessation of menstruation (days 8-14). In addition, a secondary peak often occurs during the week preceding the next menstruation (days 22-28 in a four-week cycle). https://www.apa.org/monitor/2011/03/hormones “In humans, signs of sexual interest aren’t nearly so obvious…. But according to a steady stream of new studies by evolutionary and biological psychologists, that may not be the case. This research indicates that the hormonal changes of a woman’s monthly cycle may be more powerful than we’ve ever conceived — compelling women to advertise when they’re ovulating, and men to notice. Although women aren’t showing off swellings, yowling or spraying, studies suggest they may dress more provocatively, flirt more, and possibly become more sexually excitable, for roughly six days mid-cycle, before and after ovulation. They even show minuscule shifts in voice pitch, scent and skin tone, some studies suggest. These changes are not lost on men, whose own hormones… Read More "Re:Wilding:Sex"
Rising Above The Dialectic
We live in a time of informational super abundance. But the throttle is in the “ego”, your perspective, yourself, getting in the way. You think the structure of information you have consumed from birth is reality. You only hold shape as a person in relation to it. But that is not true. You exist as a conscious entity outside of programming. You can unlearn your perspective. You can realize someone who has been given the exact opposite information to you, is a good, kind, happy, whole person who is valid in their perspective. Once you get it, then all of a sudden, it floods in. You realize, everyone is valid in their own perspective. That means there are billions of perspectives on reality all operating at once. No one perspective is right, no other is wrong, they just all are. In that space of acceptance, outside of perspective, is reality. Let the wall of knowledge blast your perspective right out your head. Open yourself up to the infinite stream of information. Let it flow over you, overwhelm you, drown you, until you are no more. Let yourself hear every dialectic so you can elevate above it. Once you stop trying to see the world from your perspective, you edge closer to reality. The internet provides access to pretty much every bit of information and knowledge we have as a species, that hasn’t been lost to time or agenda. It’s all there. And no one is stopping anyone from finding out whatever they want. You can learn, see, hear or understand anything. You can get a degree and change your life. You can become enlightened. You can become an expert in any field. You can find someone who feels like you but also someone who thinks the total opposite. You can… Read More "Rising Above The Dialectic"
Today was amazing. I’m still buzzing about it. The Ye Alex Jones show was the best thing I’ve seen in years. Not cause of what was discussed, but cause it was the most radical punk rock art I’ve seen for….decades?🤷♀️ They just grabbed the world and shook it by its balls. Shaking people by the collar, desperately trying to get people to see what we have got ourselves into and how far we have already given up our freedom, rights, artistic license and sense of fun and play. This used to be a normal sight in the mainstream. An outrageous counter culture was vital to the mainstream and for keeping power in check. Now there is no counter culture. It can’t exist on the internet. You can’t be too messy, push boundaries or act out of the norm in the corporate mall that is the internet today. You can loose your right to access the space and also loose your right to work, money, education and relationships in the real world, if you piss off someone who doesn’t agree or is too ignorant to see, online. And when counter culture ideas go viral, it destroys society. You only need to look at 3rd wave feminism and the LGBTQWERTY crowd to see that what works for a few is not right for the many. The lack of a counter cultural space, means the President of the United States reacts and makes a public statement about an internet TV show bit. Ye wins. He pulls the strings. The structure of power, or lack of, was revealed. There is no non political space in our communal culture. But we aren’t politicians. And neither is Ye. Why should the world react to shut someone down and condemn them, for something they said? Why does… Read More "Ye"
Don’t be left or right. Be human. No right or wrong. Just what is best. It’s best to have discipline but also fun. Dialectic to elevate. Use plant medicine to expand your brain, not run from it. Know thy body. Be intimate with who you want. But having a family matters. Celebrate being a family. Community should be a positive. A group of people we know and are able to navigate. But privacy is obviously respected. Police should be military. Why aren’t they? What do the military do all day? Why can’t the police be the military? They get loads of training. Better than the police. Could have a wider range of skills based on how they serve. Mental health, education, admin, docs, proper weapon training, patriotic from a range of backgrounds. Less bias. Fair. Live in bases like they do!small towns get however many they need and get posted places. Community events. Dance. Celebrate. Worship. Real Food. Community farms. Ease in the body so movement and touch and the whole body isn’t taboo. But consent matters. Neither a heightening or denial of sexual feeling. Where appropriate. Birth control, but know your body. Firm but gentle. Freedom in optimising reality. Not sure if it’s fair to expect people in gross places and horrible jobs to feel free in their mind and body. Butttttttt. If they were. They would tidy. Clean. Organize, decorate. Change the room. Then improve my wardrobe Make things smell nice. Be the best at whatever shitty job they do that they can be. Take pride. Have a sense of humour. Laugh. Don’t take yourself too seriously. But don’t think you’re a joke either. Do whatever you want but consider the consequences, even if just for a second longer. Grown adults can do and say what they… Read More "NoLeftNoRight"
Being Human Is Hard
Being human is really fucking hard. Modern “comforts” have caused the body to soften and the mind has suffered. Our ability to cope with hardships and literally just being human is being lost. Life will always be hard for the mind. We need to keep it hard for the body to enable access to the strength to cope. Doing hard things feels good. Lifting heavy things feels good. Having a body supple and strong enough to handle anything you want to do, gives your the mental strength and plasticity to do what you want to do. The human condition has been medicalized and pathologized because we are no longer learning how to cope with life. As life for human children get easier, they learn less about how to cope with hardships. And when the inevitable hardships arise, trauma is created if they fail in those hard times. Trauma leads to PTSD which leads to increased risk for more trauma. It gets to the point where someone standing wrong at the store or offering to help me with my bag, sends me/all of us/those of us with an unhealthy connection to a dysfunctional body/thus mental health issues, into a total melt down. Think the much maligned “Karen’s”, the videos of the people robbing shit from fast food places, me crying at Starbucks, or screaming at the check out man to get away from me over and over. We are seeing more and more people overreact to what used to be very normal situations: see me with the gas station I’ve recently been banned from by a very prone to rage old man, and my reactions to him. Covid was the first or biggest trauma a lot of people have suffered and we are now seeing the trauma response on a wide… Read More "Being Human Is Hard"
The Abortion Fallacy
Oh noooooo. Roe V Wade has fallen. Women aren’t whole people. Women will die. Women will be forced gestators. Abortion is banned. Ectopic pregnancy or miscarriage will get you arrested. Abortion rights are human rights. My body My choice. Women can never be equal without access to abortion. Men are legislating our bodies. Women will die. This is awful, lets all just stand in the streets, scream and cry. Hopefully a riot will get our rights back. Oh Shut the front door. This is ALL lies. It is now a week after the decision came down that it is not the federal governments right to legislate our bodies. What? You mean the supreme court said….your body your choice? Yeah. So why is everyone so mad? This is what is driving me crazy. The amount of drama, hyperbole, lies and fear mongering are causing women all over the world to be freaking out about all the above statements. I heard 3 different men on Friday, who had read the whole judgement and are pro choice, explain it all, read all the opinions and summarized it with glee. And even from their perspective, I knew it wasn’t a bad ruling. A week later and I’ve only seen one article from the left, covering what is in the judgement and not just screaming about things that it didn’t say. It was written by a lawyer, and it was still mostly their opinion. The article stated it was a 200 page legal document so is very confusing and obviously no one will have read it yet…..what?! I heard from 3 MEN who had read it and interpreted it for an audience, the morning of its release. Why wasn’t the left/pro abortionists doing the same. If they really cared about women, like they claim to,… Read More "The Abortion Fallacy"
The Failure Of Sex Work is Work and Third Wave Feminism
No More Feminism The Failure Of Sex Work is Work and Third Wave Feminism The Middle: The Human Sexual Reality Between Religion and Sex Passivity Why I Dont Need The SJWs or RadFems To Save Me Instead of wanting to tear down sex work and destroy and deny reality I am actively looking at a way to make it work based on reality and I try and do this every time I work, from what I share, how I do it and my boundaries within my work. Its hard work and life would be easier if I didnt, but I wouldnt be able to live with myself. And might as well do any other job that makes me hate myself, break down and get fired. White Pill Sex Work What Do I do? I always emphasise that I am here for my pleasure as much as theirs, and that they are paying for the privilege of sharing that experience with me, an experienced, professional with the relevant knowledge to give them a quality experience they dont get every day. One of the number one reasons I see people oppose sex work is that men are paying to cross womens boundaries. I, and other healthy, happy, sex workers dont have a boundary about letting “ugly” men fuck us, and the cash breaks that boundary. What is in fact going on is that we are quite comfortable fucking anyone, we enjoy it, in all their shapes and sizes, cause they are real people. But in this society where one needs to make money to live, and looks and sexuality are highly valued, it makes sense to monetize that reality of your boundaries. I love sex. I love that getting paid for sex means I get to interacrt with bodies I would never… Read More "The Failure Of Sex Work is Work and Third Wave Feminism"
The Body Is The Answer. Sex Needs To Change.
This is a big one! A 3 part-er! Blair White and Buck Angel Inspiring Me To Talk! Part One Part Two Part Three Read More "The Body Is The Answer. Sex Needs To Change."
The Reason Its Yes All Men, To Me.
The reason it is “yes all men” to me is that the numbers I’ve personally experienced don’t match with any other claim. I don’t know a single woman who hasn’t been sexually harassed (unwanted touching and above), raped or suffered partner abuse, were abused as children, and some or all of the above. Now, I have been raped 5 times. I have been in 1 extremely abusive relationship that broke my entire self for 6 years after, and another that got me addicted to cocaine. I have been inappropriately touched by literally countless men in bars and nightclubs (even though I expect it in that scenario, should I think its normal and ok?). I used to write down the “compliments” men would shout out their car or van windows to me as I walked to university and wear them with pride, I tried to take ownership of the constant onslaught of unwanted sexual attention. At a absolute minimum, I have had 20 men lay hands on my body and alter my brain, without my consent. Of these 20 men, only one would think of himself as someone who has harmed a woman. The first rapist was arrested for statutory rape. The 4 other men who used my body when I was passed out, thought they were just fucking a easy chick they got lucky with. The man who destroyed my sense of self and ability to function, didn’t think there was anything wrong with him. The boy who got me addicted to coke so I would buy it for him while I paid him to work for me and live with me, all while his other woman was in another city, was “just having a good time”. And the faceless hands in the nightclubs were attached to men too drunk… Read More "The Reason Its Yes All Men, To Me."
Finding Sexual Supremacy Through Celibacy
Well it has been a long time since Ive written and a lot has developed for me. I think its worth pointing out that I have spent the last 3 years working with multiple therapist for my mental health and working on fixing postural issues and trauma encoded in my body. During this process I have been diagnosed as being on the Autism Spectrum. I relate heavily to the diagnosis of Asperger’s even though we arent supposed to call it that anymore. But it matters to me. Asperger’s is a very certain type of Autism that is mostly associated with men, and male genius, and male behavior that is actually normalized by society, where as a woman with Asperger’s is the opposite of what society says a woman should be. So in terms of people understanding me clearly, I think it important to identify with something that is typically considered male. This has also been my journey with sexual devolopment. Taking on the role, attitude, performance or male sexuality in order to highlight how contradictory our male and female sexual narratives are. Where I was at when I last wrote about this, was a place of burden. I knew sex was wrong. I knew the sex I had been having wasnt what I wanted. I had thought of how it might be different and with this knowledge I tried to have the sex I wanted by doing all the work. I would make them lay back while I indulged in their bodies for hours, and got a 5 min of standard foreplay in return. Ive helped men explore their interest in strap on and anal play, and got nothing in return. My pleasure was received by doing things I wanted to, even if it wasnt directly pleasurable for me. Pleasuring… Read More "Finding Sexual Supremacy Through Celibacy"
A study on the domesticated human and a exercise in uncovering the wild human animal.
My Philosophy A study on the domesticated human and a exercise in uncovering the wild human animal. In a hopes of defining the natural human species real basic needs and ideal state, that haven’t been shaped by the exploitation the race has been subject to for milenia, and instead find what would be the ideal environment for the healthiest version of the natural wild human, given all the extra knowledge we have gained and the tools we have for implementing complex ideas, and come to some kind of goal or point for which humans can all aim. As one species. The domesticated human is currently floundering in the environment made by few for the detriment and enslavement of many. I hope my analysis can shed some light on a system that would make the comfort of the human body and mind, of the many, the priority. The way in is through sex. Sex is the most fundamental human experience that has been twisted and used the most to control and domesticate humans and disconnect them from their bodies and each other. Im my philosophy the wild human is a social sexual species. The connection between all humans is the thing the system has twisted into “Love”. The different types of intimacy that would have been a constant within the society, defining what we have come to see as “different types of love”. Our physical reality and its comfort was our primary goal. Touch types, caring in the sense of for the young and elderly, body work on physical dysfunctions that would signal a need that body has to the other humans, maintenance of comfortable reality, ie stretch, massage, facia work; grooming; sensual; sexual pleasure; reproductive; comfort; protective; aggressive; touch that helps define the roles of each human in the society,… Read More "A study on the domesticated human and a exercise in uncovering the wild human animal."