So what if I was to write some blogs while I was on cam and it is super slow. hmmm. Lets try a random number generator 102 – Dave Babeshadow 220 – Liverpool Threesome I guess I’ll start with the threesome. I am not 100% sure where the night started. I was back in England for a final trip before going back to Australia for a couple of years. I think i;d been out with my gay friend in my home town. I might have even been out with my stepsister. Either way, I ended up at a Holiday Inn with 2 dudes from Liverpool. I was excited to start writing this one but now I cant remeber anythung that happened. Just that we were on the bed next to the bathroom and a threesome was had. I dunno if I DPed them. At the……. Read More "Random Number Generator"
…told you about my list.
I have written about my list before, but here we are again. I remember sitting in class, age 15, with my girlfriends and we were trying to figure out how many people we had kissed. This was before I started going out, before I started partying. But not before I lost my virginity. In order to remember all the people I had kissed, I started a list. I don’t have my original list to hand, so I don’t know what number I was at when I started, but pretty soon after I started the list, I started going out. And the numbers grew exponentially. I got really into kissing as many boys as I could in a night. 10 was normal. One night I remember only kissing three boys and I was heartbroken. Age 16 I thought I had peaked. That one night with only 3 boys made me panic my glory days were over, I wouldn’t be able to kiss 10 in a night ever again, I was too old, past it. Alas it was not to be. I had barely even started. I dunno why I always wanted to kiss as many people as possible. But I did. I would just walk up to people and snog them. No chat, no knowing who they were or if they were single. Just walk up and kiss. One time I walked up to a group of boys, closed my eyes, span in a circle with my finger pointing in front of me and whichever I ended up pointing to was the lucky winner….who got a snog! After I started adding sex into these nights out, I would get very annoyed if a boy kissed me and then couldn’t hook up with me. We were all very young and often didnt… Read More "…told you about my list."
…had to guess who 242 was.
Right. I am using a random number generator to pick numbers off my list to get me writing some of these up. As of today I am at 398. I have written about 60 of them. So that leaves around 338 to go! Plenty of writing to be done then! So first number drawn is 242 : D 21st Bday Trip Its a good start that I dont remeber the first one I have to do. I have tried to do some digging, looking at pictures from that day and seeing who else I fucked around that time. 2 days later I had another 21st Bday Trip. I am not entirely sure, they might have been from the same group, or it was just a coincidence. It was in a town where lots of groups of lads would come for vacations, so there were always lots of boys on trips! It was also peak footy trip season, where all the local AFL and NFL teams come to party for the end of season. Sometimes the town would be full of them, all the hostels and hotels. It was a dream time with many more stories to write, I remember the name of the 242 and I know there were a few boys around that time I felt very fondly towards! Not for more than the night. But still, i have good memories of memories of them! At the time I was working in the strip club in town and would work Thursday night, to get them all on their first night in town, make some fall in love with a stripper, find some cute ones and tell them I’d be free the next night. Then I would have Friday night to go out and party and find any of the… Read More "…had to guess who 242 was."
…picked a dud.
It picked 1. But that is a massive story that I’m not ready to share yet. It involves a trip to America, shitty “friends”, a wild party, a hospital stay, the front pages on all the national newpapers in the UK and some in the US as well as features on the 6 O’clock news, school suspensions, nervous breakdowns, teachers quitting and a family fleeing the US for ten years. No big deal…No wonder I have a wild sex life that I dont mind sharing! Read More "…picked a dud."
…fucked a fan
The number generator today picked 224. And that means I also have to talk about 223….cause it was a threesome. I dont know how we started hanging out, but we were at the big backpackers club/hostel in town, and I was sat on a pool table with both of them. Making out with both of them, one at a time. People were certainly interested as we weren’t hiding anything. One was the standard hot aussie, nice body, just hot. The other was a bit more alternative, 224, with dark hair and tattoos. I dont think at that point I had anything to hide from anyone. There wasnt someone I was trying to see or convince I was better behaved than I am. So I didnt care that people were watching me with both of them. We went back to theirs at some point. Not sure if it was a hotel or apartment as half the hotels in aus are mini apartments. But we were on the sofa and somehow they saw my booty shorts I had on under my dress. Now I remember why I had them on. It had been one of those nights where I just wanted to dance. And it was a Sunday, so anything goes. I was frequently getting in dance circles in this club and there was a dude there who was an amazing dancer and we would get lowww for Kanyes Mercy. Like, full splits humping the floor low. So I had popped on my MyFreeCams booty shorts under my dress to preserve some modesty. When 224 saw them, presumably when we were getting naked and messing around in the living room, he pointed them out and said he used to watch MyFreeCams. I told him I had been on there for a few… Read More "…fucked a fan"
…I decided I still just need sex for the sake of it
i guess i know if it was good sex, when i wake up horny and masturbate without porn to the memory of the sex. this isnt something that happens often. any of it. the sex good enough or the masturbating to a memory. that is how today started. after previously deciding i was done with using people solely for sex and wanted to spend time with people in their territory, doing activities, valuing them as a human, swearing off “hangout” dates and looking for hot men for sex on dating apps, I endered the horny phase of my monthly cycle and threw all my new resolve out the window. I decided I still just need sex for the sake of it, even if its just once more to convince me not to again. I cant be bothered to write about how i found the one i did and the ups and downs in between. but safe to say it was as annoying, time consuming, overwhelming, underwhelming and frustrating as always. Im skipping to the starting a conversation with him part. Cause I think we only started talking like a hour before he came over. I had actually messaged him first. Days later he replied. We started messaging back instantly. But it was already 9:30 and he actually wasnt someone I had been planning on using for sex. he was my age and kinda interesting. So i didnt think the coversation was going to lead to meeting up. By 10 we had decided he was coming over. By 10:20 he was here. I had said I was going to bed a midnight so there was only time for a quick chat really. But he was hot. And it was exciting. And I knew pretty quickly that no sex was no longer… Read More "…I decided I still just need sex for the sake of it"
…Said No To Sex
Saying no to sex doesnt seem like a radical concept. But to me it is. Men will, pretty much, fuck anything. I, intentionally, am very particular with who I meet up with off dating apps and who I even spend too much time talking to in public because I know, ultimately, or even initially, that those men will want to fuck me. Being an attractive, white, middle class, intelligent, sexual woman will do for all but the most picky of penises. It is not my ego saying this. It is the understanding of my physical privelidged, place in the world and how men react to it. Im not saying they all wanna fuck me and not other women. They just want a vagina. And mine is good enough for pretty much anyone who wants a fuck. I, however, am not like that. Yes I like as much dick and boys as I can get. But my standards stop me being ok with just fucking anyone. Ive had more than enough sex for the sake of sex. Im not that desperate. I dont like my orgasms tinged with the regret of knowing Im batting below my average. I have higher standards for the men I sleep with. So, I make sure I only meet up with men who I have already decided I want to fuck. They have to look they way I want them to, and we have to interact in a way I like, then we also have to be on the same page sexually, before I consider meeting them. That way I dont have to reject them at some point. I dont have to worry about figuring out if I am going to want to sleep with them. I dont have to worry about how the nights gonna… Read More "…Said No To Sex"
Connecting
I just spent the last week catching up on sex i didnt get to have over the winter and I find myself experiencing a lack of satisfaction and a lingering feeling of discomfort, and unfortunately not the physical kind of discomfort i can get after some serious dicking. At first glance I seem to have gotten exactly what I was after. Friday night I met up with a boy in this town Ive seen a few times now. We have good interesting experimental sex and conversations. The sex was a little less exploritory this time as weed and conversations kept getting in the way. And after 4 months with only one dick, one time, there was a disctinct lack of cock inside me for what I was craving. But it was ok, I had more plans and I was meeting him and his girlfriend the next night for a threesome, so I took this as a warm up. I had lots of orgasms, i think. I dont really remeber as we got wild high. But I get orgasms, so i assume i had lots. In the morning before he went to work I got him to give me a proper dicking, so that was a nice few minutes before he rushed off to work. I knew the threesome thing wasnt 100% even though we had extended the hotel another night for them, as, well, people are people. Ideas are great till it comes time to do it. So I thought it was worth getting some back up dick in that day, while I had the hotel to myself, to make sure I got the dicking I wanted to in that hotel, after looking forward to it for the last sex starved month. I found a boy on tinder who I… Read More "Connecting"
…thought sex might not matter as much any more.
I have been out of the bus for just over 2 weeks now while I renovate it and I can safely say it is affecting who i am as a person. I had some of the “best” sex ive had in a while/forever last week and I dont care. I think its cause i dont fancy him. Read More "…thought sex might not matter as much any more."
Stream Of Consciousness
Devolving into dating app memoir. I wonder if i can manage to write stuff while i wait for shows on streamate. There is a constant stream of thoughts going through my head while i sit here. I say too many of them outloud on cam. Maybe this is a way to stop me talking as much shit to these idiots. Im sure when i talk to someone i dont get any shows. Most of the shows i get are from people who dont even talk to me first or hover around the room. Just boom. In and done. Some of the best shows i get are from that. People who know what they are doing. Have read my bio. Know they want me doing my thing of whatever mutual interest we have. They can be really long shows too. Then i never see them again. Gone. forgotten. I have always had sex amnesia. I forget what happened after its finished. And then i forget what their penises were like. On cam i forget what show we did. They all just blur into one. I wonder if i should write about how i find the sex i do. How im the hunter.how i choose. The high failure rate. Potential bio to fix it. Ultimately a new kind of dating app to be made. I have been using dating apps and websites to find sex for about 12 years now. I never really used them for dates. Sometimes id go through phases thinking i wanted dates, but really i just wanted a certain level of respect to be gained/felt or earnt from my future partner before we had sex. Now i can comand that just with the sex act alone and never need the pretence of a date. I have also never… Read More "Stream Of Consciousness"
…first has sex in the Bus.
Bus gets a capital B because she is my best friend. She is getting her drive shaft fixed right now and I’m in the office of the mechanics, reading and writing erotic stories. So I have a lot of time to kill as I think we are gonna be here another night or 5, I might as well write about my first sex in the bus! When I first got the Bus I was going through a bit of no sex phase. The previous few years had been really hard and I was still going through phases of recovery and growth. I had been intentionally celibate on and off. But eventually I started tentatively swiping on Bumble again. I found a guy who said he wanted to practice massage for his certification exam in a few days, and was willing to give a free massage. I was a little wary, but it seemed nice and innocent enough, even though we had matched based off looks! I definitely harbor some massage fantasies, where the masseuses slowly and tentatively starts crossing that professional line, but as I was off sex at the time, I wasn’t really hoping it would go anywhere. When he told me it would be happening at the massage place he was training at I was happy it would just be what he said, him practicing his massage skills. We met outside the shop and I was pretty nervous. He was cute with big eyes and curly hair. I didn’t know if this was meant to be a date vibe or professional or what was going on with the attraction. But he explained the set up in the shop and how he had been training while he lead me into the room. He left me to get undressed and… Read More "…first has sex in the Bus."
…had a threesome in the Bus.
The little bus is currently broken down in the middle of nowhere Texas. The mechanic said we are officially 50 miles from anywhere. But luckily this place seems good and nice so I thought, while Bussy is sick, I could reflect on some of the bus sex I have had so far. I might as well start with a good one! The time I had a threesome in the bus! Like most my stories it seems this is a part of a larger story that I will have to cover at another point. I had gone to Northern California to my first motocross race. The start of the adventure was with 3 guys who work in the industry and can be that story for another time. Being in a field for 3 nights with loads of men who like the same shit as I do meant that there was plenty of swiping to be done on Tinder. I find it hilarious that I keep seeing the same moto guys from the different events I go to, pop up in my swiping. Some I talk to. Some I’ve met. I actually met up with a mechanic on race day after my night with the 3 guys. But this is about my last night at the races and the two boys I spent it with. I matched with 366 and got chatting pretty quickly. I was in the bus and wanted to enjoy my last night. I had gone for a little walk around the campsite but not much was up. However it turned out he was parked up and hanging out only a couple of RVs away from the bus. So he came over to meet me and take me back to where he was hanging out with some random people… Read More "…had a threesome in the Bus."
…finally got to have the sex I’ve been talking about!
The last few posts about amazing sex i have had, have been about sex ive gotten to try out that I have wanted to do. Things Ive wanted to try and ways to do it, that until now I have not been able to do. Not been able to do due to several factors, from the suffocating patriarchy of normal sex, to womens inability to successfully express their own sexual desires, which ultimately comes from the fragile male ego that scares women off from honesty with a potential angry or aggressive reaction and a lack of knowledge of how to enjoy the female and male bodies in ways that isn’t penis or orgasm centric. It started slowly. The changes were barely perceivable. It started with me taking more control of what happens, how and when, during the sex. I started doing more things with the male body that I was interested in. It was an exploration of my interests and new experiences so I needed men who were willing to not have their pleasure put first, and be open to experience what new pleasure was possible and what ideas I had in store. As my experience grew, my questioning of normal sex standards kept changing and evolving, until I got to the ideas I wrote about in my piece “We Know Nothing of the Possibilities of Sex”. Since then I have had a ever growing fascination with the ideas around the power the pussy can have once the penis stops thrusting. Ive had a few instances in my life where I have gotten to have a penis inside me without the constant punishment of pounding, had some men listen and slow down and some who are great and deep grinding sex. I figured out how to make myself cum easier… Read More "…finally got to have the sex I’ve been talking about!"
…nearly missed a 10!
13th November 2107 The last day or so has been eventful. I was in bed on Saturday night, about 10.30, gettin high, relaxing and tindering when i found this amazingly hot dude who had too many pics with his kids. normally that is a automatic swipe left but this dude was just too hot….and he also looked a little too much like a older version of a evil ex, so i swiped right. we matched. and pretty much straight away he messaged saying he thought we were meant to hang out. then i realized it was a guy id matched with like a month ago and spoke to a little on snap but i wasnt sure, he only had one pic and looked a bit rough. but it turns out i was wrong. he was stunning. so almost immediately i took the bus from my cosy spot in the walmart parking lot, over to his house. it was decked out in kids stuff, but he had his shirt off and nothing else mattered. we talked a bit and smoked a little outside. he was the whole “fucked up childhood, bad parent relationships, jail, babies by two moms” kinda boy i used to love. and he was so so so beautiful. but we didnt have much to talk about. after being with the guy in Eureka for 5 days i was just glad to speak to someone i wanted to be talking to! so i said loads of words at him and all my ideas, he smiled a lot and said “that’s sick” or something similar about 100 times. he definitely seemed interesting but as im never gonna be here again i was more interested in getting naked. it was really sexy. he is a amazing kisser and his hands and… Read More "…nearly missed a 10!"
…took an anal virginty
im a girl who likes boy booty. i like a peachy round ass. i like grabbing and squeezing muscular, meaty cheeks, as well as spreading them and burying my face in them and tongue fucking their holes. i like using fingers inside them while i suck a nice big cock. and ive been lucky enough on a few occasions to see their rosey ass hole get stretched out and used by my strap on or a dildo. ive also fisted a couple of asses…but thats a bit too much for me. i like a bit more of a innocent asshole. and it hurts my hand. i actually dont remember the first ass i fucked. it might have been for someone who paid me to do it. in fact i might only have gotten balls deep in a fuck buddys ass for the first time last year. i had a spell of meeting people off a swingers site for kinky fun and i bought a new strap on especially for one of those guys. who i think also gave me his anal virginity. but i dont want to talk about him. that was too long and elaborate to write right now. this is about the anal virginity i took a couple of weeks ago with a guy who doesnt seem to have had anyone to play with his ass at all before me. he lives in a small town in central florida which is very conservative and not many new and interesting sexual people visit. the first time i fucked him it was just normal sex. mind blowingly good normal sex. i came as soon as his cock slid in my pussy. he was the first person to fuck me in four months and i really needed it. his body is… Read More "…took an anal virginty"
…used a glory hole
i have attempted to write this story about four or five times now and i still dont know what tone i want to give it. maybe that is the point. it has to be both. it was fun, crazy, sexy, exciting but it was also boring, gross, unnerving and unsatisfying. as was my host. id met him on tinder two or so days before and had immediately got onto the idea of having a night of crazy sex. he was in a open relationship and likes playing with men and women. i had been searching for some bi MMF time and had been struggling to find what i wanted. the day before i had even swore off tinder as a waste of time at finding me good sex with good people. we clicked instantly and were planning how we could live out some of my fantasies. we decided we would use craigslist to advertise and get our selves extra people to come over and play with us. we swapped ideas of the combinations of dynamics we wanted to try out. me controlling him and another man, getting fucked by him while he got fucked in the ass, letting random guys come over and use me in a sleep rape role play, me just getting to watch him with a guy like i wasnt there, him controlling me while another guy fucks me, etc, etc, etc! i was so excited and so turned on, but had to wait till the next night to see him. i filled in that night with another guy i found on tinder. but that is a different story. 346 lived in down town san fransisco, and it was saturday morning, and i could not find a parking space at all. i drove around for like 30… Read More "…used a glory hole"
…fucked Ron Jeremy
id gone to vegas for the adult entertainment expo four years ago while i was still working in australa, making bank and feeling on top of the world. id been having a great time at the expo and a few nights before id partied on stage with diplo and went to a strip club to meet pauly d and diplo afterwards. i was fully in vegas mode. the first few nights id racked up a couple of additions to my list, and by that saturday i was at a total of 299. i knew i needed to make my 300 a good one. i wasnt sure i was gonna have another hundred so this might be my last big number to make the most of. numbers have always mattered to me. my list is my collection. ive already written about choosing someone for my 100. so, i was at the convention and i heard ron jeremy was at a booth signing autographs and squeezing tittes. i was wearing a pink satin and lace neglege and 7 inch white heels for the expo. i went over and there was a large crowd around him. lots of people taking photographs and taking their turn going up to him. a man was taking photos for peoeple with ron so i went up to get my photo taken! well he was quite taken..with me. he was reading my name tag, asking if i was in the business. we chatted a little and when we started posing for photos he started playing with my boobs, sucking on my nipple and making out with me. all the other people watching were snapping pictures. i had my boobs out and ron jeremys tongue in my mouth for everyone to see. when we were done he got his… Read More "…fucked Ron Jeremy"
…did a glory hole.
since deciding dating apps were no use for me I have seen a different man each night. all of them interesting, intelligent and attractive and one of them, insanely kinky. San Francisco is definitely interesting and there seems to be lots of opportunity for exploration and fun. i might end up getting stuck here! but i need a night off tonight for sure. my jaw and throat hurt from all the dick and my pussy is swollen and sore. my mind is alive though and right now i couldnt be happier. i am parked up right on the water, overlooking the bay, alcatraz and the golden gate bridge. drinking tea with some biscuits a very sexy, successful man gave me last night after a very mentally stimulating evening. i am living my dream exactly as i planned right now. the sex fest started friday. i went for a walk in a park north of san fran that turned out to have an amazing view of the city. i was already texting with 348 and was getting super horny about the prospect of the sex fest we were planning for saturday night. i was very horny and enjoying the view so thought id try using my fingers and no porn to get myself off. i basically masturbate one way only and i think i need to be more versatile, it will help with sex orgasms im sure. i fantasized about being caught and watched by some perv in the park. it was hard work but i got there and really enjoyed it, it was a good, deep orgasm. i carried on my walk for a couple of hours longer and went back to the bus for another thanksgiving sandwich. i had decided to go to the sex club and was talking… Read More "…did a glory hole."
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