My body, my skin, reaches out for you, for all of you, for every part of you.I want to envelop the soft flesh that holds your inner landscape,the map that is you.I can feel it through your skin.I can see everything your body has been. I want to hold and soothe and see all the pain and trauma, joy and freedom in your sinews. My inner map is open to you.There is enough space in here for all of you.Nothing here scares me. Use it as a way into you.Find where our maps overlap and walk into yours with the curious spirit of fearless adventure I have within me. I can see the map in you, in every muscle, in your skin, in what is seen as the body containing the soul within. Your body isn’t just a vessel. It has been shaped and holds barely beneath a thin surface… Read More "I Broke My Celibacy. This Is What I See."
So what if I was to write some blogs while I was on cam and it is super slow. hmmm. Lets try a random number generator 102 – Dave Babeshadow 220 – Liverpool Threesome I guess I’ll start with the threesome. I am not 100% sure where the night started. I was back in England for a final trip before going back to Australia for a couple of years. I think i;d been out with my gay friend in my home town. I might have even been out with my stepsister. Either way, I ended up at a Holiday Inn with 2 dudes from Liverpool. I was excited to start writing this one but now I cant remeber anythung that happened. Just that we were on the bed next to the bathroom and a threesome was had. I dunno if I DPed them. At the……. Read More "Random Number Generator"
I have written about my list before, but here we are again. I remember sitting in class, age 15, with my girlfriends and we were trying to figure out how many people we had kissed. This was before I started going out, before I started partying. But not before I lost my virginity. In order to remember all the people I had kissed, I started a list. I don’t have my original list to hand, so I don’t know what number I was at when I started, but pretty soon after I started the list, I started going out. And the numbers grew exponentially. I got really into kissing as many boys as I could in a night. 10 was normal. One night I remember only kissing three boys and I was heartbroken. Age 16 I thought I had peaked. That one night with only 3 boys made me panic… Read More "…told you about my list."
Right. I am using a random number generator to pick numbers off my list to get me writing some of these up. As of today I am at 398. I have written about 60 of them. So that leaves around 338 to go! Plenty of writing to be done then! So first number drawn is 242 : D 21st Bday Trip Its a good start that I dont remeber the first one I have to do. I have tried to do some digging, looking at pictures from that day and seeing who else I fucked around that time. 2 days later I had another 21st Bday Trip. I am not entirely sure, they might have been from the same group, or it was just a coincidence. It was in a town where lots of groups of lads would come for vacations, so there were always lots of boys on trips!… Read More "…had to guess who 242 was."
It picked 1. But that is a massive story that I’m not ready to share yet. It involves a trip to America, shitty “friends”, a wild party, a hospital stay, the front pages on all the national newpapers in the UK and some in the US as well as features on the 6 O’clock news, school suspensions, nervous breakdowns, teachers quitting and a family fleeing the US for ten years. No big deal…No wonder I have a wild sex life that I dont mind sharing! Read More "…picked a dud."
The number generator today picked 224. And that means I also have to talk about 223….cause it was a threesome. I dont know how we started hanging out, but we were at the big backpackers club/hostel in town, and I was sat on a pool table with both of them. Making out with both of them, one at a time. People were certainly interested as we weren’t hiding anything. One was the standard hot aussie, nice body, just hot. The other was a bit more alternative, 224, with dark hair and tattoos. I dont think at that point I had anything to hide from anyone. There wasnt someone I was trying to see or convince I was better behaved than I am. So I didnt care that people were watching me with both of them. We went back to theirs at some point. Not sure if it was a hotel… Read More "…fucked a fan"
i guess i know if it was good sex, when i wake up horny and masturbate without porn to the memory of the sex. this isnt something that happens often. any of it. the sex good enough or the masturbating to a memory. that is how today started. after previously deciding i was done with using people solely for sex and wanted to spend time with people in their territory, doing activities, valuing them as a human, swearing off “hangout” dates and looking for hot men for sex on dating apps, I endered the horny phase of my monthly cycle and threw all my new resolve out the window. I decided I still just need sex for the sake of it, even if its just once more to convince me not to again. I cant be bothered to write about how i found the one i did and the ups… Read More "…I decided I still just need sex for the sake of it"
Saying no to sex doesnt seem like a radical concept. But to me it is. Men will, pretty much, fuck anything. I, intentionally, am very particular with who I meet up with off dating apps and who I even spend too much time talking to in public because I know, ultimately, or even initially, that those men will want to fuck me. Being an attractive, white, middle class, intelligent, sexual woman will do for all but the most picky of penises. It is not my ego saying this. It is the understanding of my physical privelidged, place in the world and how men react to it. Im not saying they all wanna fuck me and not other women. They just want a vagina. And mine is good enough for pretty much anyone who wants a fuck. I, however, am not like that. Yes I like as much dick and boys… Read More "…Said No To Sex"
I just spent the last week catching up on sex i didnt get to have over the winter and I find myself experiencing a lack of satisfaction and a lingering feeling of discomfort, and unfortunately not the physical kind of discomfort i can get after some serious dicking. At first glance I seem to have gotten exactly what I was after. Friday night I met up with a boy in this town Ive seen a few times now. We have good interesting experimental sex and conversations. The sex was a little less exploritory this time as weed and conversations kept getting in the way. And after 4 months with only one dick, one time, there was a disctinct lack of cock inside me for what I was craving. But it was ok, I had more plans and I was meeting him and his girlfriend the next night for a threesome,… Read More "Connecting"
I have been out of the bus for just over 2 weeks now while I renovate it and I can safely say it is affecting who i am as a person. I had some of the “best” sex ive had in a while/forever last week and I dont care. I think its cause i dont fancy him. Read More "…thought sex might not matter as much any more."
Devolving into dating app memoir. I wonder if i can manage to write stuff while i wait for shows on streamate. There is a constant stream of thoughts going through my head while i sit here. I say too many of them outloud on cam. Maybe this is a way to stop me talking as much shit to these idiots. Im sure when i talk to someone i dont get any shows. Most of the shows i get are from people who dont even talk to me first or hover around the room. Just boom. In and done. Some of the best shows i get are from that. People who know what they are doing. Have read my bio. Know they want me doing my thing of whatever mutual interest we have. They can be really long shows too. Then i never see them again. Gone. forgotten. I have always… Read More "Stream Of Consciousness"
Bus gets a capital B because she is my best friend. She is getting her drive shaft fixed right now and I’m in the office of the mechanics, reading and writing erotic stories. So I have a lot of time to kill as I think we are gonna be here another night or 5, I might as well write about my first sex in the bus! When I first got the Bus I was going through a bit of no sex phase. The previous few years had been really hard and I was still going through phases of recovery and growth. I had been intentionally celibate on and off. But eventually I started tentatively swiping on Bumble again. I found a guy who said he wanted to practice massage for his certification exam in a few days, and was willing to give a free massage. I was a little wary,… Read More "…first has sex in the Bus."
The little bus is currently broken down in the middle of nowhere Texas. The mechanic said we are officially 50 miles from anywhere. But luckily this place seems good and nice so I thought, while Bussy is sick, I could reflect on some of the bus sex I have had so far. I might as well start with a good one! The time I had a threesome in the bus! Like most my stories it seems this is a part of a larger story that I will have to cover at another point. I had gone to Northern California to my first motocross race. The start of the adventure was with 3 guys who work in the industry and can be that story for another time. Being in a field for 3 nights with loads of men who like the same shit as I do meant that there was plenty… Read More "…had a threesome in the Bus."
The last few posts about amazing sex i have had, have been about sex ive gotten to try out that I have wanted to do. Things Ive wanted to try and ways to do it, that until now I have not been able to do. Not been able to do due to several factors, from the suffocating patriarchy of normal sex, to womens inability to successfully express their own sexual desires, which ultimately comes from the fragile male ego that scares women off from honesty with a potential angry or aggressive reaction and a lack of knowledge of how to enjoy the female and male bodies in ways that isn’t penis or orgasm centric. It started slowly. The changes were barely perceivable. It started with me taking more control of what happens, how and when, during the sex. I started doing more things with the male body that I was… Read More "…finally got to have the sex I’ve been talking about!"
13th November 2107 The last day or so has been eventful. I was in bed on Saturday night, about 10.30, gettin high, relaxing and tindering when i found this amazingly hot dude who had too many pics with his kids. normally that is a automatic swipe left but this dude was just too hot….and he also looked a little too much like a older version of a evil ex, so i swiped right. we matched. and pretty much straight away he messaged saying he thought we were meant to hang out. then i realized it was a guy id matched with like a month ago and spoke to a little on snap but i wasnt sure, he only had one pic and looked a bit rough. but it turns out i was wrong. he was stunning. so almost immediately i took the bus from my cosy spot in the walmart… Read More "…nearly missed a 10!"
im a girl who likes boy booty. i like a peachy round ass. i like grabbing and squeezing muscular, meaty cheeks, as well as spreading them and burying my face in them and tongue fucking their holes. i like using fingers inside them while i suck a nice big cock. and ive been lucky enough on a few occasions to see their rosey ass hole get stretched out and used by my strap on or a dildo. ive also fisted a couple of asses…but thats a bit too much for me. i like a bit more of a innocent asshole. and it hurts my hand. i actually dont remember the first ass i fucked. it might have been for someone who paid me to do it. in fact i might only have gotten balls deep in a fuck buddys ass for the first time last year. i had a spell… Read More "…took an anal virginty"
i have attempted to write this story about four or five times now and i still dont know what tone i want to give it. maybe that is the point. it has to be both. it was fun, crazy, sexy, exciting but it was also boring, gross, unnerving and unsatisfying. as was my host. id met him on tinder two or so days before and had immediately got onto the idea of having a night of crazy sex. he was in a open relationship and likes playing with men and women. i had been searching for some bi MMF time and had been struggling to find what i wanted. the day before i had even swore off tinder as a waste of time at finding me good sex with good people. we clicked instantly and were planning how we could live out some of my fantasies. we decided we would… Read More "…used a glory hole"
id gone to vegas for the adult entertainment expo four years ago while i was still working in australa, making bank and feeling on top of the world. id been having a great time at the expo and a few nights before id partied on stage with diplo and went to a strip club to meet pauly d and diplo afterwards. i was fully in vegas mode. the first few nights id racked up a couple of additions to my list, and by that saturday i was at a total of 299. i knew i needed to make my 300 a good one. i wasnt sure i was gonna have another hundred so this might be my last big number to make the most of. numbers have always mattered to me. my list is my collection. ive already written about choosing someone for my 100. so, i was at the… Read More "…fucked Ron Jeremy"