Day 10 on the sex drought. The last guy i rejected has cursed me. The failed date I drove to pick up and then just didnt like. I had such high hopes. And such blue balls. And I havent had a release since. Well Ive cum alot. Just only by my own hand. And that isnt what i need. I need some weird, kinky, extreme, exciting sex. I now have over 200-250 emails. And a offer from the cutest boy on my Tinder. But its STILL not happening. So I guess it is me now. Am I being picky? Ive emailed with a few of them, but nothing has progressed. When it works, it just works, with all the people i meet. Craigslist isnt helping me either. It cock blocked my last two posts about the specific kinks i want to explore right now. More specifically, soomeone now keeps flagging… Read More "Another Day, Another Collection of Thoughts."
i often stop writing half way through what i was saying. I get bored of the story so I dont push it. yesterday my obsession with sex took over. i spent the whole day looking up people online, messaging a couple of people on t/b (gonna have to abbreviate that shit or come up with a universal name for them that isnt “dating apps” maybe DAs). I even ventured on to craigslists casual encounters section. I expected it to be filled with adverts for massage and escorts, but instead there were mostly just posts from people looking for certain sexual experiences, right now. the more i read, the more i was thinking it might work for me if i posted what i wanted. my frustration was building so much that by about 5pm i posted my first ad on craigslist. 19 hours later i have nearly 150 replies and I’m… Read More "Craigslist Personals: Desperate Times."
I want Sex. I can’t find any. I am talking to a fewwww guys on tinder and bumble but nothing is jumping out at me. No one I can really be bothered to have a conversation with, let alone suggesting a swinging from the rafters type session with! I get frustrated at times like this. Cause it should be easy but it’s not! I wish I could approach someone in public if I wanted them. I have giant balls. But not when it comes to approaching men. I’d love to walk into Walmart (I’m parked here, it’s not part of the fantasy) and see a hot guy and just tell him I wanted him to come back to the bus and fuck me. I guess I’ve done it in nightclubs and pubs a lot. Just never in daylight! And not for a very long time. Also. I’m bussy now. Hairy… Read More "I Want Sex"
The last day or so has been eventful. I was in bed on Saturday night, about 10.30, gettin high, relaxing and tindering when i found this amazingly hot dude who had too many pics with his kids. normally that is a automatic swipe left but this dude was just too hot….and he also looked a little too much like a older Tyler, so i swiped right. we matched. and pretty much straight away he messaged saying he thought we were meant to hang out. then i realized it was a guy id matched with like a month ago and spoke to a little on snap but i wasnt sure, he only had one pic and looked a bit rough. but it turns out i was wrong. he was stunning. so almost immediately i took the bus from my cosy spot in the walmart parking lot, over to his house. it… Read More "…nearly missed a 10"
im already way behind on what ive been up to. thursday night i had a threesome with step brothers. we roleplayed me being their older sister and i controlled my naughty little brothers and used them to satisfy myself in every way possible. much dp was done. and then friday and saturday night i spent being alpha to a beautiful boy who is normally dominant but wants me to control him and use him for my pleasure. i bought a strap on especially for him and for the first time got to properly fuck someone. it was a quick learning curve for me and i spent the weekend having the best sex in the best company. i havent had that much sex with one person in such a short amount of time in years. normally i get bored after a couple of times of them cumming. or im just done.… Read More "…couldnt keep up!!"
this week has already been one of the best for personal growth and sexual growth i have had in years. i feel like everything i know, am, and have been is all coming together and making me stronger, more confident and happy. the sum of my parts is greater than the different people i have been through the years. i no longer feel disjointed. i feel like i am everything i have ever been, not a wisp, bending and changing and moving on from past experiences. this strength and confidence in my self, my abilities and experience has led me to take the bull by the horns when it comes to my sex life. i have always identified as a “pleaser”. i like to make men happy. to make their bodies and dicks feel good and to act in the perfect porn way for them. but this does NOT get… Read More "…started my own sexual revolution."
im wide awake again and just had another mind blowing sexual experience. i am so glad i am settling into my sexuality and enjoying being the real me. 2 just left. we planned to spend the night rimming each other and playing with each others asses. which is basically what happened. i let myself loose on this perfect butt and used my mouth from the tip of his cock round to his asshole for almost an hour. i didnt hold back and buried my face deep within his cheeks, using my tongue, gently, tickling his hole, plunging it in as deep as i could, suffocating myself on his ass, i sucked and tongued and kissed his gooch and balls, stroking his cock when my lips werent tickling the shaft. i did everything with my mouth that felt great. i have already lost track of what happened when and how. i… Read More "…buried my face in a peach"
i know for sure, 100% i just had the best sex of my life. with a stranger. i met him on the swinger site yesterday. he likes a woman in control and i have been wanting to flex my alpha muscles. we decided upon tease and denial, fluffy dom shit. he was really hot and lean, which is why i chose to see him first this week. he was gonna lie there and let me tease and edge him as long as i wanted and use his body for my pleasure. and that is exactly what i did. now, time out, this is now the time i come clean about all the times ive acted out, or been in, scenarios where i am using someone for my pleasure, but have in fact been putting on a act as the porn version of my sexuality, to make sure the men i… Read More "…had the best sex of my life"
im not going into sexual detail right now cause what i need to do is schedule the rest of my week to fit in all the fun im trying to have! i only have two nights or days can i do things. so im planning a variety of sneaky fun. this is who im trying to fit in: Bo – wants to be controlled. i want to tease and edge him for as long as i see fit. Ben – has a beautiful butt and body and wanna bury our faces in our butts Bill – just has a massive cock. it looks so amazing. i want to just be left to play with it how i want! Con – is hottt. we wanna try some kinky roleplay, currently deciding what exactly! Mr P – he came over last time and ate a strangers cum out my pussy before cumming… Read More "…joined a swingers website"
i have been back in england for a month now and im finally settling in again. ive had 3 tinder dates and i am in extremely horny week. and the last one made me giggle. so as several of you joined me yesterday, i thought now was as good a time as any to start my writing again. i have a whole book to write so i might as well get on with it. the most incredibly perfect boy, 320, just left my apartment, after what can only be described as a fairly awkward 12 hours. i still get wildly shy around a lot of boys. especially when i find them hot. and even more especially when i feel they are hotter than me by anyones standards, even if they dont agree. anyway. my nervous reaction is to talk too much. mix that with me getting high and wanting to… Read More "…came back to my blog"
hmm my fantasies. i have a few. detailed role plays i want to act out. but i never want to tell someone i want to do it cause it would go against the fantasy. its a hard line to figure out how to tell someone to rape you and to feel like you are being raped. i guess that gives away one of my fantasies. there are so many rape scenarios that i would like to try out. bound, gagged, reluctant, fighting, screaming and crying gang rape is a pretty exciting option for me. having my body used and abused for many mens pleasure with no regard for my feelings or my own sexual satisfaction. i most like the idea of someone taking advantage of me when they think i dont know it is happening. this fantasy has so many forms. sleep rape. being drunk or drugged to a point… Read More "…wanted to tell you my fantasies"
this story is about a really full on night where I did some fairly bad things. i should say im not proud of my actions. but. i am. i had a lot of fun. and ultimately the only person who was wronged in this story broke my heart and changed my life. i had a fuck buddy who i had fallen in love with and was spending all my time with. but he refused to take it further and make it a relationship. he didnt want to sleep with anyone else. but didnt want a girlfriend. to me, if you want me to only fuck you, youre my boyfriend. so it was while involved in this stupid situation that this story occurred. i had gone to bar one for sunday session to meet up with the fuck buddy cause i thought we were hanging out. earlier that weekend i had… Read More "…had a footy team"
so i am gonna behave and do what you all want…write another post. i need to write a list of what i have been up to so i know what stories to write. maybe i can do that here. ill write all the titles and you can vote here for which i should write. i am a genius. here we go. This One Time I… …started with my personal trainer …had a record weekend …got broken by two pros …left england with a bang …had a threesome with a fan …did a footy team …played 3 boys …had an affair …played dares with boys …got whipped for the first time …thought you should know about my vegas chaos …lived my own private revenge on my ex …wanted to tell you my fantasies …let something bad happen to me …took a customer home …got paid to have my pussy licked ok,… Read More "…did what you wanted"
this is another transcript from a chat with a mate i had online a few weeks ago. thought you might like to know how us girls chat sometimes. i met him like 2 days before i came to the farm we met and fucked AMAZINGLY he is rele intense gets my legs up and fucks me rele deep and hard and startes in my eyes then he fucked me in the ass, while i said no and cried a bit i sucked his cock while his mates hung out in the room then we went down the road to go to my place, and stopped off for brekkie and got on so well we had the best banter we were like, “no date, but nice date brekki” “no i dont like you like that, but we are gettin married and i love you right?” then we went back to mine… Read More "…told a friend about a boy"
i wrote this in chat with my friend when i was on my second farm. i have edited out their responses but thought you might like my story. the formats a lil different to usual. but it was a fucking good time. ill tell you about the other night i went out with these boys, 3 had gfs, dan was arguing with his on the phone when i got there and 2 others, that through the night, became apparent that both wanted to fuck me after a long night out and lots of other stuff that would take me hours to write so i will omit we were all walking home and i was pissed off cause they had made my random fuck i had found, leave me. they scared him off i was talkin to dan about it and how i want sex etc, talking to him like a… Read More "…had to be very quiet"
so i posted this on Amber Cuties Forums the other day. thought you guys might like it. i have a picture to add too when i find it and upload it! i have a real thing for peen. i LOVE a beautiful cock. and damn i know one when i see one or feel one. a beautiful penis can do anything to me, go anywhere and the owner be treated like a king. the best thing about a beautiful peen is that i just want to rub it all over my face. i want to hit it on my cheek, rub it on my lips and tongue and generally just use it as a face massager. i cannot get close enough to it. now as to what actually makes me weak at the knees, it would have to be, a weighty cock. about 7-8 inches long and with its girth… Read More "…posted about peen"
hmm, there is a pre story to this, as usual, which i could go in to now, but i think im gonna save for a separate story. lets just say this came out the first night i was stripping. at the very end of the night i met two boys who decided i was their favorite girl there, but there was no time for a dance with them. when i came off stage they asked me if i would go home with them. they were both very cute and i was keen. they then asked me if $500 would be enough. i was pretty excited cause i had been thinking of just goin for the fun anyway. i asked if they meant for the both of them and they said if i was ok with that then yes. i told them it sounded good and they should meet me outside… Read More "…got paid for sex"
so i know you have all wanted this story for a long time. this is my third attempt at writing it. it is a long story. so this one time i was recently single and had not got laid in about a week and that night i was very horny. i started the night saying i wanted to fuck everyone in sight. at the first bar i almost immediately got picked up by this aussie footy player. after about 20 minutes of dancing he said we should go back to his. it was only 11.30 so i wasnt keen to end the night. i said we could leave, if we were back in the club by 1. he was up for that, so we ended up back at his hotel, me on my knees, sucking his cock, naked on the balcony overlooking the esplanade. he dragged me into the bedroom… Read More "…got gangbanged by 9 guys"