he has thrown his wedding ring at me 6 times (about once every 2-3 weeks, the argument and recovery last 3-7 days) and told me he is calling the lawyers for a divorce. but only once has he left the house for more than an hour when he has said he is leaving. he packed all my stuff and loaded it in the car twice, to move me out. i havent once threatened to end it or said i dont want to be with him forever. everything he does is like he hates me. but he wont leave me or even leave me alone. he just pushes and pushes and pushes me to leave but doesnt want me to go and he doesnt want to end it. i dont know how to help him or stop this cycle cause he doesnt even think he has done anything wrong. he used… Read More "March 5th 2015"
“Daniel Bergner reveals surprising information about women, sex and lust”
Daniel Bergner reveals surprising information about women, sex and lust There is a common belief that most men would like to have sex all the time, but is this really the case? Research shows that women want sex much more than we are led to believe. In my practice, I see almost as many women who complain their partners don’t want sex as much as they do, as I see men. By Matty Silver Read More "“Daniel Bergner reveals surprising information about women, sex and lust”"
…wanted to tell you my fantasies
hmm my fantasies. i have a few. detailed role plays i want to act out. but i never want to tell someone i want to do it cause it would go against the fantasy. its a hard line to figure out how to tell someone to rape you and to feel like you are being raped. i guess that gives away one of my fantasies. there are so many rape scenarios that i would like to try out. bound, gagged, reluctant, fighting, screaming and crying gang rape is a pretty exciting option for me. having my body used and abused for many mens pleasure with no regard for my feelings or my own sexual satisfaction. i most like the idea of someone taking advantage of me when they think i dont know it is happening. this fantasy has so many forms. sleep rape. being drunk or drugged to a point… Read More "…wanted to tell you my fantasies"
…had a footy team
this story is about a really full on night where I did some fairly bad things. i should say im not proud of my actions. but. i am. i had a lot of fun. and ultimately the only person who was wronged in this story broke my heart and changed my life. i had a fuck buddy who i had fallen in love with and was spending all my time with. but he refused to take it further and make it a relationship. he didnt want to sleep with anyone else. but didnt want a girlfriend. to me, if you want me to only fuck you, youre my boyfriend. so it was while involved in this stupid situation that this story occurred. i had gone to bar one for sunday session to meet up with the fuck buddy cause i thought we were hanging out. earlier that weekend i had… Read More "…had a footy team"
…did what you wanted
so i am gonna behave and do what you all want…write another post. i need to write a list of what i have been up to so i know what stories to write. maybe i can do that here. ill write all the titles and you can vote here for which i should write. i am a genius. here we go. This One Time I… …started with my personal trainer …had a record weekend …got broken by two pros …left england with a bang …had a threesome with a fan …did a footy team …played 3 boys …had an affair …played dares with boys …got whipped for the first time …thought you should know about my vegas chaos …lived my own private revenge on my ex …wanted to tell you my fantasies …let something bad happen to me …took a customer home …got paid to have my pussy licked ok,… Read More "…did what you wanted"
April 18th 2013
So Im finally bored enough but also awake enough at work to start writing! My nails are too long so i cant type as fast as I want. And I dont know what to say.I only ever want to write to people about what im doing on chat. I like getting an immediate response. The idea of writing so much with no response or reaction seems really hard. So to get stated im gonna write like i talk! I talk to my freind kate about most things. Tonights been pretty shitty comparatively. I have so far only made $620 but its 4am and no one has been in for 2 hours. Read More "April 18th 2013"
March 19th 2013
So I am back in the game. I am at my new house. I have travelled to a different town to do it, as I am way to well known where I live and do not wanna risk being spotted any more than I already have at home. It is my second night here but I was feeling too lazy to write last night. It wasnt like I had much to do but houses are really draining. You are basically sat or lying in a lounge room for up to 12 hours waiting to see people. All I wanna do is eat and watch TV. Most girls who work here and in general in this job end up putting on weight. I have in the past. The old house used to provide bread, que eating 6 slices of toast with butter and honey a night. Read More "March 19th 2013"
October 22nd 2012
Aus – Cairns – Talking about Bohden and dunno who the dude was, maybe that bar manager dude i fucked So I tried to start this becoming a writer thing on Saturday, but I ended up curled into a ball on the sofa crying because I saw my ex making a joke with his friend on facebook about having “bitches errywhere”. Let me expand on this a little though. By saw, I mean stalking through other peoples profiles to find what shreds of him I can find as I have unfriended him and his profile is hidden. And by ex, I mean fuck buddy for 6 weeks that went terrribly wrong, think cliched movie, without the happy ending. So now i am trying again to start something. Not that that was a very good first impression. I sound like a neurotic teenager. And I’m not really going to be able… Read More "October 22nd 2012"
…told a friend about a boy
this is another transcript from a chat with a mate i had online a few weeks ago. thought you might like to know how us girls chat sometimes. i met him like 2 days before i came to the farm we met and fucked AMAZINGLY he is rele intense gets my legs up and fucks me rele deep and hard and startes in my eyes then he fucked me in the ass, while i said no and cried a bit i sucked his cock while his mates hung out in the room then we went down the road to go to my place, and stopped off for brekkie and got on so well we had the best banter we were like, “no date, but nice date brekki” “no i dont like you like that, but we are gettin married and i love you right?” then we went back to mine… Read More "…told a friend about a boy"
…had to be very quiet
i wrote this in chat with my friend when i was on my second farm. i have edited out their responses but thought you might like my story. the formats a lil different to usual. but it was a fucking good time. ill tell you about the other night i went out with these boys, 3 had gfs, dan was arguing with his on the phone when i got there and 2 others, that through the night, became apparent that both wanted to fuck me after a long night out and lots of other stuff that would take me hours to write so i will omit we were all walking home and i was pissed off cause they had made my random fuck i had found, leave me. they scared him off i was talkin to dan about it and how i want sex etc, talking to him like a… Read More "…had to be very quiet"
…posted about peen
so i posted this on Amber Cuties Forums the other day. thought you guys might like it. i have a picture to add too when i find it and upload it! i have a real thing for peen. i LOVE a beautiful cock. and damn i know one when i see one or feel one. a beautiful penis can do anything to me, go anywhere and the owner be treated like a king. the best thing about a beautiful peen is that i just want to rub it all over my face. i want to hit it on my cheek, rub it on my lips and tongue and generally just use it as a face massager. i cannot get close enough to it. now as to what actually makes me weak at the knees, it would have to be, a weighty cock. about 7-8 inches long and with its girth… Read More "…posted about peen"
…got paid for sex
hmm, there is a pre story to this, as usual, which i could go in to now, but i think im gonna save for a separate story. lets just say this came out the first night i was stripping. at the very end of the night i met two boys who decided i was their favorite girl there, but there was no time for a dance with them. when i came off stage they asked me if i would go home with them. they were both very cute and i was keen. they then asked me if $500 would be enough. i was pretty excited cause i had been thinking of just goin for the fun anyway. i asked if they meant for the both of them and they said if i was ok with that then yes. i told them it sounded good and they should meet me outside… Read More "…got paid for sex"
…got gangbanged by 9 guys
so i know you have all wanted this story for a long time. this is my third attempt at writing it. it is a long story. so this one time i was recently single and had not got laid in about a week and that night i was very horny. i started the night saying i wanted to fuck everyone in sight. at the first bar i almost immediately got picked up by this aussie footy player. after about 20 minutes of dancing he said we should go back to his. it was only 11.30 so i wasnt keen to end the night. i said we could leave, if we were back in the club by 1. he was up for that, so we ended up back at his hotel, me on my knees, sucking his cock, naked on the balcony overlooking the esplanade. he dragged me into the bedroom… Read More "…got gangbanged by 9 guys"
…did a little update
so i have a big change coming up in a few days. im leaving the town i live and moving to a farm in the outback to become a nanny for a month and earn my 2nd year visa. hang on, yeah, i said im gonna be a nanny. i will be sharing my room with a 3 year old boy and be living with the family 24/7. what does this mean for me and camming i hear you ask. well they boys nap a few hours in the afternoon and i will be trying to jump online then and when everyone has gone to bed. so expect a fair few outdoors show, a lot of whispering and some quick endings. in preparation i am making as many videos as i can this week so you have something a little bit more naughty to see while i am away. its… Read More "…did a little update"
…went older for the first time in a while
so it is widely known that my usual victims are in the 18-22 age bracket and that sometimes is pushed to 24. well in Vegas there seemed to be a lot less younger guys. one night after a night out partying with a local cam girl, we ended up in a casino playing blackjack. a rather attractive man, 199, joined our table and i told the girl that i was gonna have him. he was clearly out of my usual age range but he had a great face. after several hour of blackjack and a 4am burger and shake we ended up at mine on the bed watching tv. we were just chatting then he kissed me. and it was good. he already had his shirt off and he pulled me on top of him. after a fairly large amount of dry humping, which i love, i sat up and… Read More "…went older for the first time in a while"
…nearly got married
so this story isnt as boring as it sounds. it is pretty much the almost perfect vegas holiday romance. i had had a pretty crazy evening already. id met two dudes who were shopping and they took me to dinner with 20 of their concreting co-workers. i then went out with two camgirls to see thunder from downunder, a male strip show. we went partying at a club after that where i ended up smoking a houka pipe with the promoter and dancing on the stage with the two girls. i was about to go home when one of the guys i met earlier called me and said i should come hang out. i taxied over to meet him and we sat at the bar gambling an chatting for a while. he decided i was good at blackjack and so we went to a table and he gave me $100… Read More "…nearly got married"
…took three loads
in the spirit of new motivation i thought id start by telling you about last night. ive even sat at a desk to write. i met this boy yesterday at the festival i was at, 192, we made out and then bumped into him when i was leaving the festival in the crowd. him and his mates were goin home my way so we decided to walk together. 192 and i were together and we were kissing and holding hands. when we got like 1/3 of the way home we were bored of walking and they decided to get a taxi back to theirs and asked me to come along. i decided to go, but turns out they didnt live where i did but were stayin at a hotel about half an hour in a taxi away. i was a little pissed off, but this did not compare to how… Read More "…took three loads"