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…blogged on the loo

so today im on the toilet blogging. it is too late reallly and i wanted an early night and i didnt do anything i planned this evening. i cancelled 123 so i could have a quiet night in preparing for christmas. but instead i went to a gig and kissed another boy. came home and been chatting and texting, eating cheese and facebooking for two hours and now its 2am. chattin to f2 and 118. i have stuck to my 100% record of pulling while out at work. so happy. just had 123 texting asking if i was back on with 117. stupid 117 told him we met up the other day. what is with boys needing to tell everyone everything. jeez. 117 wants to come over now too. but im saying no. did a lil skype with f5 but i was too tired and he is a tease. the boy i snogged, f6, has been textin all night since we left the gig too. he is very cute. may see him on saturday.

woke up this morning with 122. he came over last night and we were both cold, tired and cuddly so we didnt have sex. which was nice. i slept well with him and we did it this morning. but our hearts werent in it. we lay chattin for hours and i missed all my work this morning. we talked about sex so much we ended up doing it 3 times before he left and i got on with work. 125 text again being an arse about not textin him tonight cause he would be with his gf. i mean jeez, if he told me in the first place he had a gf maybe he could be pissed off. but i didnt know better. i should be pissed off with him.

123 and 117 are still texting me and 122 is out so i suspect he will call later. but its phone on silent time now.

…got let down

tuesday
today was tuesday. i woke up late cause last night i was up late chatting to boys on line! 122 was meant to come over but he dissapeared. so i entertained myself with thai food, tv and chat. boring end to what started as a promising day. today has also been a bit dry. was gonna go see f1 again but a meeting got canceled so couldnt justify being in that part of town. so i had 3 hours to kill. i tried 119, 120, 122 and 125 and none of them were free. gutted. so i had to please myself with 66 on skype. 66 was someone i was sleeping with for two years. but he got married and we havent hooked up in 2 years. his marriage is not workin out any more, so he is back on me. after some work tonight 122 texted and wants to hang. so i am just waiting for him bringing dvds and good times. cant wait to feel his powerful hands on me. woop. bit tired tho. oh and i nearly forgot. when i was gettin the bus home just, who should walk up but 111 and his gf. they are back together. she confronted me the other week when we were out and tried to start something but i held it down and she ended up walking off. at the bus stop just, she walked up to me stared, wide eyed and walked off. my heart was racing and thank fuck we got different busses.

…wrote about today

so after the drama of the weekend. it has been catching up a bit today. me and 117 chatted this morning and he told me he doesnt like his gf any more and has been broken since me and is sleeping with another girl too, but cant leave his gf cause its christmas. also said he has a really public relationship with her to make me jell. what a dick. but pretty funny. he left at like 12 to go to work. my best friend called me and told me this skank girl he’d been hangin with last night told her i had been trying to fuck another of their mates f3 and that i was being ridiculous and to leave their group of friends alone. it is pretty funny, 93, 117, 123, f1 and f3 are all like best friends. 123 has been texting me about the situation and asking to see me in secret again. we are gonna meet on wednesday. 120 has been texting again too. he is definitely my hottest boy at the moment. so glad to hear from him. need to see him asap. 122 text as well to apologize for having to go home. and we are making plans for the week. also talking to n1 and n2 and lots of other people on the net. but i think i might have a night in on my own today. catch up on sleep, get work done and give the lady a rest. let see how all this plays out.

ps i have been thinking about this as my diary and it is definitely the best idea cause i cant really tell anyone all this any more. no one understands and its all a bit insane. also no one can know im fucking their friends boyfriends or my exs friends or a friend or whatever. like new format. happy. now someone read this. think its amazing and give me a job reviewing men.

…started having sex with too many people to keep a track of

the past few weeks i have been sleeping with more people than ever. i am also meeting more people than ever, off the internet and in real life. so i have decided to use this blog to keep up to date with what i have going on. i havent been able to write much, anywhere near as much as i would like, on here cause i am so busy with work, so i wanna try and use this as a bit more of a diary. i litterally cant remember who i had sex with this time last week.

i have also been racking my brains as to how i can turn the amount of people i sleep with into a money making business. yes i know what comes to mind first, but a large part of what i do is find good people to have sex with. i dont want to be the one picked for sex, i want to still be the one in control and some how earn money. also the sex wouldnt be like it is if the boys were paying. so i need an external way of making money from this.

anyway i am going to be referring to each person by their number now. i also need a way of keeping track of who i am planning to meet and who i am liking off the interweb, but it might evolve naturally.

so this weekend –
friday night – i had a good sleep after a hard days work.

saturday – did a bit of tidyin an some nice stuff in my flat. went out to my old local on my own to meet f1, and bumped into my exs friends. saw f1 but he failed again to get away from his friends to see me. (we arent supposed to hook up). spent the night talking to 123. hes been tryin to get with me for a few weeks and is my exs best friend. he is really nice and we got on well and kissed really well so i couldnt really say no. we went back to mine, but i had to go out to do some work at 3am and wanted to meet 122 after so i made him leave. it wasnt great anyway. while i was out working i met f2 and kissed him. he wants to take me on a date. then i met 124. he kissed me, badly, but got really turned on and into me and 122 was gonna come over on sunday anyway so i let 124 take me home. he was some american guy. and had an incredible cock. and definately satisfied me. he stayed over.

sunday – 124 woke me up at like 8am to have more sex and then left at like 10am. which was good, cause i didnt really wanna hang out with him. i was really looking forward to 122 coming over. which he did at 2pm. we had a couple of rounds of awesome sex. i usually get bored of long sex but with him it just feels amazing and i loose my mind to him. he really knows how to handle me and hold me too. also we eat chips and chocolate and snooze on the sofa together watching movies. and he is a sex addict too. he unfortunately had to leave at like 8 to look after his dad. he was meant to stay so that was rubbish. but in some twist of fate, just as i was gettin bored, my ex 117, called me off 123s phone to tell me he knew about us. i was busy watching x factor so didnt wanna talk to him. he txt me later saying “you fucked my best mate”. he actually has a girlfriend now, who is an old friend of mine, ridiculous. so i said it shouldnt matter. in the end i phoned him and he said he missed me etc. so i told him to come over. he was out so had to go but we carried on textin each other and he left straight away and came over. i thought he might wanna talk or something, but as soon as we walked in we started kissing and he took me in my room and we fucked all night. Good job I dont get on with his gf anymore!

busy weekend and think that made it 4 in 24 hours. my new record!

…took someone’s virginity

well actually i didnt just take one boys virginity. as far as i know, it has been two. one was a little boy who was 17 when i was 22. due to too much booze i dont remember what happened or how it was, but i did think he was mysterious an exciting. i went out on my own that night and made friends with this group of 4 boys that i was teasing for being so young. one put in loads of work with me, trying to get with me and another, 44, sat moodily away from us and didnt speak to me all night, until he just came up to me and said to leave with him, now. he was very beautiful and now he is some kind of uber successful male model, which is cool. but being lectured at 9am about how an arts degree is pointless and how learning a real job, like finance is more important, by someone still doing their A levels. then being told all about Jew Camp. then having to walk him to the train station in the rain cause he couldnt figure out my directions, kind of took a shine off him. it wasnt until more recently that i found out that that memorable night was his first time.

the other cherry i popped was a when i was 23. he was 23 too. not sure how he got that far in life like that. and why he ended up with me. he was number 69 ironically. we were seeing each other for a little while then he sort of disappeared. well i think thats what happened. anyway he is a really successful photographer now. so that is a good track record for creating beauty and genius by taking virginities. cause im sure banging me first is the reason they are now successful.

…had birthday fun

it was my 19th birthday at a club in my home town, when it turned midnight, onto my actual birthday i decided i wanted to celebrate with some sex. i walked to the toilets and found the cutest boy nearby, number 25. i walked up to him, took his hand, and without saying anything, i took him into the girls toilets and fucked him. i told him i would be wanting more of that and that i would come and find him later. he was only about 17 and too scared to say anything. i found him and fucked him two more times that night and i didnt say another word to him the whole time. i never knew his name and wouldnt recognise him, even if he spoke to me. but it was a great start to my birthday.

…started using internet dating sites

i dont know why i did it, or what prompted me to start on it, but i know i wanted to push my sexual boundaries and expand my potential horizons. so one night at the end of july i signed up to an online “dating” site. within 5 minutes of being on the site i had already received 20 messages from guys wanting to talk to me, meet me, or go on cam with me. they all told me how stunning they thought i was and how much they wanted me. it didnt take long, i was hooked. sometimes all it took was a glance at their profile pics to tell me to steer clear, but there were defiantly more than one or two guys who took my fancy. i found myself logging in more and more, checking to see if any hot guys had messaged me. a few times i swapped msn details and spent my nights in doing everything you can imagine on camera, with them doing the same. i really got on well with two of the guys. one, number 107, lives about 15 mins away, so after having msned a few times, we text all week, and then after the most important step, swapping our real facebook details, he came over. it was pretty relaxed, we watched a movie and talked all the way through and didnt even get to the end before we were in my bedroom fucking. he was really fun and has the really awesome ability to stay hard, no matter how many times he cums. this ensured i was fully satisfied. he stayed over and we did it more that night and in the morning. and that sealed the deal with internet dating sites. they work for me!

the second guy i really got on with was not such a positive experience. a sniper in the army, who after sending 400 texts over 3 days, i was determined to know even more about him. i found him on facebook but what i didnt expect to find at the same time, was his wife and kid. he reassured me he was separated, which from her statues about missing him so much, i knew wasnt true. but i liked the attention he was giving me. after a month of constant texts and calls, that by then, i wasnt so excited to receive and often ignored, he informed me he would be back in the country soon and the first thing he would do was come and see me. living in ireland with his wife and kid i doubted this. but he stuck to his word and we met up. number 114 was so hot in his pictures and really into me and i couldnt have been more disappointed. he was not hot, short, edgy, awkward and i had no idea why he was even there. we spent the night watching shit tv and eating pizza. i couldnt bring myself to go out in public with him and his boot-cut jeans. i did end up fucking him, but it was so boring and long. i was so glad when he left the next day. despite him trying to get in touch since, i have not replied and thank god he hasnt been too persistent.

despite this painful experience i knew there was more fun to be had. i met a guy through a mutual friend on facebook and when he came over it was incredible. he was really hot, really good in bed and really fun. he would make a perfect regular but unfortunately he doesnt live in my town so i just have to wait till he comes back on another trip here. since him i have accepted adds on my facebook from a couple of hot guys that i havent met but have friends in common with, so have a couple more lined up. but again, location is a hurdle with them. for now though there is always skype.

i was asked to write a little article on my experiences of the best places to find sex online. someone told me the most popular “dating” site, so in the name of research i signed up. this has taken my addiction to another level. that was a week and a half ago and since then i have received 1212 messages from guys who want me. i check the site constantly and when i am not out i spend my nights finding new people to chat too. i have swapped a lot of pics and done a lot of chatting but the sheer amount of people getting in touch means i am getting to be really picky. i have unfortunately found one guy who is perfect and we are so into each other. he is exactly my type and me his. we have chatted for hours and been texting each other. but he lives in scotland. so rubbish.

i keep trying to use these sites to push my boundaries and hook up with guys i wouldnt usually, but id rather be safe than sorry, so i do take my time to get to know guys first. even the slightest sign of pestering and they are off my potentials list and i make sure i have checked out their real facebooks before i would meet them. obviously there arent hundreds of hot guys out there on these sites but when you do find someone you know they are going to have a like minded attitude to sex and be really open to experimentation. it has added a new dimension to my sexploits and hopefully will provide me with plenty more stories.

…had a boyfriend holiday

this week i have discovered a brand new and exciting experience that i have thought would be a good idea. and worked really well. i had a boyfriend holiday. i was away at a festival the other weekend DJing and stage managing, and met a boy there, 113, on the first night. he was working on the stage we performed on. after the show we had some amazing tent sex and he did things to me that no one should do in a tent. it was really fun and he knew how to wind me up and turn me on in equal amounts. i moved to a different festival site in the morning and he stayed at this one for the weekend. he asked me to take his number before i left. we texted and called each other for the rest of the weekend and we arranged for him to come to mine when he was finished working.

he got back on monday afternoon and i met him at the tube station and brought him straight home to mine. he collapsed tired and hungry on my living room floor and he pulled me down and lay there making out for a while. i put him in the shower and ordered us some curry. we then spent the rest of the night eating, watching movies and fucking. in the morning i got up and made coffee and pancakes and then we spent the whole day doing the same again, eating, watching tv and fucking. it felt like we had been doing this for months and it was totally normal that we were holding hands and kissing and generally being wrapped around each other. that night he went out with his mates and then came home to me, where id ordered a pizza and gave him blow jobs on the sofa. he was going to leave on the wednesday night as i was going to go out. but when it got to about 8pm we decided another night in with food and fucking would be much more fun.

we talked about how and why this wierd little boring married life we were having was working. we are both really similar in our feelings and attitudes to sex and know that just cause we were acting like this, didnt mean we wanted to be together or do this any longer than we were. we liked the comfort and cosy funness of this gf/bf time but didnt want any more from each other. so when it came time for him to leave on the thursday we said our goodbyes and that we may see each other soon. since then we havent called or text each other. i think we both got everything we needed from our 4 days together and rather then being led on or leading someone on after one night of fake fun, our conscious decision to take a boyfriend/girlfriend holiday has left me feeling all warm and satisfied inside.

…had a big weekend

my sex drive is going sky high at the minute and i cant stop getting insanely horny no matter how much i am fucking. case in point, now. i have had a big weekend of it. thursday i got a new one, 109, very hot, has a gf, older, amazing in bed. we stayed up all night fucking. i love it when i look back on a night and realise the first person i saw and thought was hot, ended up in my bed. did that again on friday night. saw a total cutee, 110, at the pub, who was definitely a new face. later there was a room full of girls preying on this boy who was from out of town and staying at the place we were partying. he went to bed and i really wanted him so after about 10 minutes i went into his room and told him i was over the party and we should watch a movie. we both knew it was bullshit and i ended up just blowing him and fucking him for ages, while he just lay back. he kept saying, you fucking love sex dont you? after we were done i got straight up and told him id leave him to get some rest before work in 3 hours and left. im pretty sure i had just used him to get exactly what i wanted. but unlike the reverse, when a girl uses a boy, at least he gets to cum. i went home to bed, but when i woke up at 4pm i was insanely horny. luckily 107 was online and feeling the same way. so he came straight over for some fucking and take away pizza. pretty ideal. then i left him to go out with the girls. 109 had already text again and was super eager to meet later. so we sent each other dirty messages all night until we couldnt wait any longer. obviously that wasnt that long as thursday night was so hot. i picked him up on the way home and we started fucking pretty much as soon as we got in. he is so good. despite loving and having a lot of sex, fucking him makes me realise what sex really is and how is should feel. we stayed up till about 6am doing this and after some sporadic sleep he left this morning. quite excitingly i realised i had got 3 in 24 hours. i think that is a joint record with a couple of other days. now its sunday lunch time and im planing how to end my big weekend.

…updated my to do list

just in case you were wondering how i got on with my single plan to do list i thought id update it. not sure i have many ambitions now though. im kind of getting everything i want.

100 – yep. did. done twice since then. but i think its nearly over. 9 months.
30 – blew him in the woods. then he ran off with another girl. total douche. still wanna fuck tho. need to win.
91 – yep. banged. didnt like it. wont do again.
Pirate/95 – yeah did that again. and yep he is still a dick.
Pfm – he kissed me a week or so ago. and likes coming to mine for food. so not much longer till i get him naked.
AS – still not been in LDN when im free. but will soon
DRM – got a gf and is really gay about it!
WB – he would be a bit of a last resort now.
Jowe – dont really wanna do.
LR – realistically, as i no longer work there, will not be seeing again.

so i have had 4, am on my way to my fifth, lost one to gf bore, dismissed 2 and still have my eye of 2. not bad numbers. thinking about it now. there are still a few more new ones i want to get.

1. cc – a friend i have never banged, but think we both would. so should.

2. dcc – ccs friend. was actually seeing him a few years ago. always wanted to go back.

3. bl – fit boy from town. mutual friends. i want.

4. am – the guy that is married with a kid in the army. maybes next weekend.

5. tm – met on facebook, cause i thought i knew him and didnt. apparently coming to visit this week.

and am currently banging a few good ones. these are my new regulars.

1. 109 – totally hot an the best sex in ages. he has a gf. but whatever.

2. 97 – had before but has got hotter, thiner and better at fucking.

3. 107 – met on some sex website. actually really nice and cute. and he makes me cum.

oh and there is another guy who i am in love with and have spent weeks fantasising im married to. but that is another story.

…decided honesty is not the best policy

cheating is the new monogamy. i have started sleeping with a few guys with girlfriends. one guy ive been getting to know is married with a kid and is coming to see me in two weeks. one is the best sex ive had in ages and is incredibly hot and is hilariously over eager. all my best girls, well the single ones, keep finding themselves falling for or gettting with guys who then reveal are “kind of seeing someone”. ultimately boy code for “in a very serious long term relationship”. thier facebook status even says, in a relationship with…. not that we have been checking. my theory is that i would never cheat on anyone and if anyone cheated on me, i would cut thier dick off. however, if someone wants to cheat and they are hot, well that is their problem. its their responsibility and decision. my friend has unfortunately fallen for a guy with a live in girl and asked for my advice on how to cope with the potential fun and pitfalls of an affair. i wanted to share my advice to her, because remaining guilt free, maintaining deniability and knowing that you are winning is most important to survival and i found it quite empowering. this is a guide for deciding and preparing for entering into such a situation.

1. you are doing nothing wrong. you are not kissing or fucking him (or any other inappropriate behavior) no matter how much you may be doing it in real life. convince yourself of this and you will be fine and will not falter if someone questions you. you have to genuinely believe it your self and believe you are doing nothing wrong.
2. if you manage to get your self in that mind set. then you are pretty much ready to do anything. you have deniability!
3. however. if you think you will get much too into him to your detriment, then it might not be wise to pursue it too much, cause you will get hurt and feel rubbish every time he sees her, talks to her, and every minute he isnt with you.
4. but, when you really like someone none of that matters, an the pain is worth the good times. till the weight of the pain does not balance the fun.
5. so once you have weighed up if the pain is worth it, and have got total self belief in your deniability. then have fun! nothing beats a secret affair.
6. one point to note would be to find out his intentions. for you to do this he has to be up for throwing caution to the wind when he is with you alone. you dont want all the emotions and pain for no banging!!! he has to bang you, or dont do it!!!!
7. you have to be strong and take silent pleasure that he picked you and you have the power (convince yourself of this) despite the fact he wont leave her and will ultimately choose her, you still have the upper hand cause you are the fun, bit on the side, dirty secret, and he would risk everything for you, the mistress! even if that is all you ever are.
8. enjoy it.
9. when it hurts to much, stop it. and be aware that might mean having to change part of your life where your lives intersected.
10. and finally. be prepared that people might find out. you have deniability. but if that fails you could also be hated. but that will be by a girl you dont know and her boring friends. oh and judgmental people. and probably a few more besides. so make sure you can handle that. your real friends wouldnt ever hold it against you though. unless it is one of their boyfriends. and that might have needed a few more points to cover surviving that!

yes i am a mega bitch. sorry. maybe honesty is not the best policy, in all ways.

…did 3 best friends

back when i was more messy and more involved in our little local community i ended up fucking 3 guys who were best mates and were all major players in the scene. one night we were out at dinner, the four of us, and they were talking about girls they had fucked and when one guy had fucked a girl another of them had, the third guy would take the piss and they thought it was gross. the whole conversation i was just sat there smiling to myself and laughing. then i asked if anyone fucked all three of them, and they were like, no way. they were all pretty sure of this, running through possible girls who they had and discounting them, till i pointed out that i had. that made the conversation for the rest of the night much more interesting. all three were totally different situations. one was filthy, once we had a threesome and another time i pissed on him before he fucked me and filmed it in our mates toilet at a party. the other was a bit of a regular and we kind of liked each other. and the other was a total mistake. he was at mine wasted, we were just hanging out doing poppers, as you do and the next thing we know we were fucking. it has always been a proud achievement to have been the only girl, out of the many, many, many between them, that got 3 all of them.

…realised i am everyones dirty secret

so after a particularly traumatic experience last night, that i will write about later, i have come to realise that i am everyones dirty secret. as ex 1 left last night he kept repeating over and over, please dont tell anyone, lets just keep this between us, i dont want anyone talking about this or asking me if im fucking you again. he went on so much that i ended up shouting at him till he left. now i am as big a fan as anyone of secret little affairs, subtle flirtations, taboo relations and being only one of two people that know what is really going on. however there is something totally different about someone paranoidly repeating dont tell anyone, dont tell anyone, like some kind of mantra, after they have cum. and last night was not the first time this has happened.

pirate, number 95, was, and still is a big fan of this technique of anti flattery. he texts me and chats to me all the time, teasing the idea of fucking, then freaking out about anyone finding out and then not doing it in case anyone finds out. 30 is already doing it about the chats we have, let alone the fucking. and there are at least 4 more, that in recent times have done the same. 81 freaked out so much she was texting me like 10 times a day till i ended up shouting at her and we fell out, an then she made me tell everyone i had made it up an was just a big lie and that i was pretty much mental, just so no one would know.

i think the worst part is the post sex freak out. they got what they wanted, but then they are more worried about what other people would think about them fucking me than about just enjoying it. not that it stops them, in most cases, doing it, or wanting to do it again. it would be great if everyone was open, relaxed and found fucking just a fun and casual activity. but the reality is, most people aren’t like that and more importantly, are hung up about what other people think. its a shame cause everyone could have much more and much better sex, and much less emotional stress and pressure if we could all, guilt free, just do what we want. i do that, and its awesome. however i often forget that other people see me being so open about sex and having so much sex with lots of different people, differently to me. some love it, some people dont care, some people hate it and it makes some people think of me as a guilty pleasure. they dont want other people knowing they would do something with someone like me. or dont want the gossip that surrounds it, or they dont want to be another one of my stories, but they do want to fuck me. i guess if it is the choice of me being like i am, or me being like them, then i am more than happy to be some peoples dirty little secret.

…started a to do list

so as i type, i am sitting here waiting for confirmation from the boy that it is officially over. i have actually been waiting on this for nearly a week now and have lost patience and am feeling a little over it all. so to occupy me over the past week i have started lining up my new to do list which will be put into effect as soon as the confirmation email/call has been received. i’ve attempted to prioritize them and then i can also keep a tab on where i stand once it has all kicked off.

100 – obviously
billy – we have been lining each other up for over a year and for some unknown reason we havent got it on yet. ive already been hardcore skyping with him this week. oops.
91 – we split up about a year ago. dont think we’ve seen each other since, but have been texting the past few days and we really wanna fuck each other. it sounds like he has turned into a dirty little boy in the past year.
Pirate, 95 – I have written about him before and we have been lining each other up this week
Pfm – I have to work around him an we have been flirting insanely for months. i want him more than anything.
AS – I went out with his mate almost a year ago an pretty much the whole time we have been chattin, texting and skyping. we really wanna fuck, but he doesnt live in ldn, but goes out here an is moving soon. phew.
DRM – Fit DJ. We talk alot but have never actually met. but we have said we want to soon, for fucking.
WB – I fucked him a couple of years ago by mistake, but we always talk dirty and i lined him up this week.
Jowe – I’ve talked about him pursuing me before. he still has a famous gf but still really wants to fuck me.
LR – He manages a venue in another town. spend 2 an half hours with him last night tellin each other how much we wanted to fuck if only we were both single.

100 just text me about meeting up tomorrow, so that will be good. and that means i will get him first. nice to ease back into single sex with an old friend. i have to loose any nerves i have cause from now on, i dont say no, and i dont let any opportunity pass me by.

…found the one

i have dissapeared for a few months cause i thought i had found the one. it wasnt actually the first time i had found this boy. my previous post told you, i heard from the boy that locked me in his room for 5 days. well we met up and not long after that we fell totally in love, again. we had a lovely semi normal relationship for the past 3 months. he was perfect. he didnt even freak out when i acted totally insane. and obviously we had constant and amazing filthy times. we fit together perfectly sexually. no-one has done things with me like he has. everything about him and us was perfect, apart from me being shit. a useless girlfriend, treating him like shit. but i really thought i wanted to spend my life with him and that it would be perfect and would get better forever. turns out though he is leaving the country in 6 months and doesnt want a relationship before he leaves and that i am just too horrible for him to want to be with me. awesome. awesome. so i now cant move, or breathe or even want to fuck anyone else, cause all i want is him. so unless that changes this will become very boring!

…had my first 3 boy foursome

i had an amazing 4some with 3 boys at the end of january. it wasnt technically a full on 4some, but i had 3 guys in me in one sitting. 27 was out with mates from back home, one of them, 22, i had fucked a few times before when i was younger, around the time i fucked 27 for the first time. 22 was always really filthy. one time when i had my period he went down on me and while he sucked on my clit he fucked my ass hard with his fingers for hours on his living room floor.

so back to january, i spent a lot of the night with 27 on one arm and 22 on the other, making out with them in turn. i met the rest of their friends and they were hot. 27 always asks me to come back to his, but i generally have more interesting offers, or cant be bothered to travel that far, but this time i wanted in an i wanted all of them. 27 and his mate, 102, had to get a cab at 5am to catch a flight, so shortly after we got back 22 turns to me and says, right i have to leave in an hour an i wanna fuck you now. i asked 27 if that was all right, if i could go to his room an fuck 22 an he sent me away to enjoy myself. me and 27 started to kiss and undress each other but soon gave up the pretense of any romance and just got up and stripped naked. after playing with each other for a while an me sucking on his cock he thought it would be a good idea to get 27 involved. he came in and i was fucking 22, me on top. 22 told 27 to fuck me in the ass, but 27 said he had me for the rest of the night after they leave an i had to wait to fuck him. he stayed there watching me and 22 fuck for a while then decided to help out. he got behind me and used his fingers and tongue on my ass. it was incredible. we moved around so i could suck his cock while 22 fucked me. after a while he just started watching us again. we had left the door open and as time moved on all of thier mates kept coming in to tell us to hurry up and that they didnt have much time. at first we covered up a bit an stopped fucking but after a while we didnt care an just carried on while all the boys came in and watched for a bit. 27 kept coming back for some more blow jobs and to stick his fingers in my ass while i kept fucking his friend. it was all really laid back and fun. when 102 came in for about the tenth time, he stayed for a while and shut the door behind him. 27 left the three of us in there cause he knew that 102 wanted to get involved. 22 called him over and told him to come and touch me. i was blowing him with my ass up in the air over the side of the bed and 102 came over and started playing with me an then just said fuck it, i wanna fuck her now. he got his cock out for me and i sucked on it while playing with 22, i then turned back around and sucked 22 while 102 fucked me and then 27 came in to watch. pretty soon 22 came in my mouth. their mates started coming in again saying the cab was coming in 5 minutes. 22 left me and 102 to it and we fucked until he came in me, making the cab wait. 22 and 102 then ran off to catch their flight. i got back up and hung out with everyone in the living room again, but after a while me and 27 wanted to go back to bed. we fucked for the rest of the night and morning and i came 4 times. it was an incredible fun night and we all got a lot of what we wanted. next time i wanna get air tight but for my first foursome it was more than all right.

…got told i am going to do what im told again

last night i heard from the dream boy from the time i got locked in a boys bedroom for 5 days. when i woke up i thought it was a perfect dream. i was ready for reality to kick in and to realise it was only a dream, but i realised he had infact messaged me on facebook last night. after 3 years. it might all start again.

you’re going to do what i tell you again.
you’re going to send me your address and your number along with your bra, cup, waist and hip size. if you’re a good little girl you’ll be getting a visit from me soon. you’ll be over my lap, in a pretty little dress that’s been bought just for you. you’re going to do what i say and you’re going to be my little girl.

im going to do exactly what i am told.

…just needed someone to stick it in.

that time is now. i have had a really high sex drive the past few months. and that being me, means it has got pretty intense. a few days without a fella kills me. i can make myself cum as much as i want but nothing compares to someone just sticking it in me. it isnt even for sexual gratification, it is just the enjoyment of naked boys and the feel of a cock in me, of someone fucking me. i have been getting easy repeaters with my top 5 favourites and havent been out as much as usual, as it has been so easy getting sex without going out, so there hasnt been many, or any, i cant think right now, new ones.

my one new favorite is 101. getting with him has been a bit more of a whole experience rather than a sex orientated thing. it started out promising with some text flirting and the night after he came home with me. however after sitting around my room for about 3 hours and it getting to 6am without anything happening i was starting to doubt the wiseness of this choice. he started the whole thing anyway so i felt it was his place to take it to the next level. after we got into the pretence of going to sleep, we eventually started getting it on. gently making out, undressing each other and feeling his cock for the first time, which turned out to be a little disappointing. im not saying it was small, but it was just average. pretty soon we got into it and it turned out to be the worst sex i have had in ages. and im not just blaming him. i did not have a clue what to do with him, i could not read him at all. it was like fucking a piece of paper. i got no feedback, we were all out of sync and i just didnt know what he was enjoying or not. its not like i had to worry for long, it was all over pretty quick. we started seeing each other several times a week. a lot of the time was spent cuddling and having little kisses. we did have more sex and it did get better. one time we even came together. that is always cool. me on top of him, grinding away, slowly, firmly. i could feel him building up and i just kept going as he started to cum, it totally set me off and we collapsed in each others arms happy. he is the best at cuddling. it didnt take long for me to realise though that there was not as much excitement and desperation and sexuality coming from him as there should be from a 20 year old boy. it turns out that he isnt very sexual. i think he is quite inexperienced and in one email conversation he stated that based on what i had on numerous occasions mentioned about my history, felt he could not compensate my needs and i should look for satisfaction elsewhere. we moved past this and managed to spend several more nights mostly just cuddling and being semi rejected, to the point of such extreme frustration, that one morning i shouted at him to just stick it in me. he didnt. he seems very confused and the whole situation is not easy. its like we are trying to have some sort of relationship but it is so frustrating cause we arent doing all the fun new thing stuff. i just want to jump all over him and make out for hours and stay in bed fucking for days. we seem to have fallen out again at the moment, so i might not have to worry about it anymore. he just leaves me needing someone to stick it in me.