Sex Life

in the spirit of new motivation i thought id start by telling you about last night. ive even sat at a desk to write. i met this boy yesterday at the festival i was at, 192, we made out and then bumped into him when i was leaving the festival in the crowd. him and his mates were goin home my way so we decided to walk together. 192 and i were together and we were kissing and holding hands. when we got like 1/3 of the way home we were bored of walking and they decided to get a taxi back to theirs and asked me to come along. i decided to go, but turns out they didnt live where i did but were stayin at a hotel about half an hour in a taxi away. i was a little pissed off, but this did not compare to how pissed off i was after i got to his “apartment” that actually turned out to be a tiny twin hotel room with 5 boys staying in it. 192 took me into the bathroom and we quickly got naked. we me sat on he toilet he stood in front of me and i took his big cock in my mouth. he lay on the bathroom floor, and i bounced up and down on his cock, holding on to the sink and the door handle, before he stood me up and bent me over he toilet and fucked me from behind. i cant remember how it came about but he asked if i wanted to go out in the bedroom and fuck all of the boys. i had met two of them, but the other two were already in bed when i got there, so was a little hesitant. anyway i decided… Read More "…took three loads"

i am feeling very motivated, if a little tired right now. just spent the day with my flatmate and two girls and ended up sitting and pretty much being interviewed by them about my sex life and attitude towards sex. and now i am thinking this year i am going to do something about this. i am led to believe, from many people, that the way i am, the way i approach sex and men and conduct myself and buisness is very unique and i want to capitalise on this. i want to write more and explore ways i can get my story out there. my whole life has been pretty unique and have done and been part of things that dont happen to most people. i love my attitude to sex and men and want to find a way to make this public and profitable as well as interesting and empowering for other people. i had a stint, in my early twenties as a new wave feminist in art school and was set on creating a new kind of feminism, drawn from my own experience and attitude. in this motivated state, i am ready to give something a go. i know this is all very vague, but wanted to get this out there and wanted to make sure i start writing here more. this needs to be my home, my first port of call when something happens or when i think of something related to this venture. i am starting a plan. Read More "…started a plan"

so i find myself often playing along with boys that im not necessarily that interested in. texting them and tentatively discussing future plans, like meeting up later that night or another day. i love having a list of boys i can text or that are texting me. most of these boys are solid back ups. but rarely get to the top of my to do list. i meet new people who become priorities.. it might seem like i am letting a few boys who wouldnt otherwise stand a chance with me, get to play with me and think they are getting their way with me. but the reality is that i need their attention to bulk out list of potentials and keep my mind occupied. and these boys are chasers. that is another reason most will never rise to the top of the list. they make me feel good with their attention, but i dont generally hook up with chasers. if i dont want you immediately, chances are i never will. and pestering about that will just put me off. i dont really have a final point to make. was just sitting here on the bus thinking about it as i was texting a boy i kissed last night about how i was gonna meet him later tonight. ill probably be busy. i have two people above him on todays to do list. now that decision will be hard when it comes to it. the virgin or the smooth, confident, new 18 yr old. im quite a fan of letting fate take its path. so when i have a few lined up there will usually be a natural conclusion where fate aligns and leaves me with only one option. there was a night when this didnt happen. i will tell… Read More "…pondered potentials on the bus"

a couple of nights ago i saw a boy, 192, out in a club. he stood out. that is how i find all my boys. they just stand out to me. he was clearly very young an shy. we spent most of the night looking at each other with neither of us doing anything. i came over all 16 and shy and couldnt go talk to him, so in the end my mate got bored and went over and got him and handed him over to me. he asked how old  i was, i thought it was wise to ask him first, he replied 18 so i said, lets just say im 21. we talked very briefly before we made out. then we kinda just stood there. we didnt have much to say so i suggested we go outside to smoke. we sat on some stairs and ended up chatting for like half an hour. as the conversation was dying off, i said we should go back in somewhere. i had been talking about how i wanted to be a stripper, and we were sat opposite a strip club, so he said we should go in there. inside i sat on his lap while we watched the girls and chatted about them. he had his hands all over my legs and i was leaning back against his chest. i was so horny watching the girls with his hands on me and couldnt wait to get out of there. when we eventually left he very confidently said we should go back to mine. i live in an amazing apartment with a stunning view so we went up and sat on my balcony for a while chatting some more. we went into my bedroom and he sat on my bed, i sat… Read More "…took an 18 year olds virginity"

last week i left the town i had been living in for the past 4 months. i had a long list of people i wanted to do before i left and had planned on several nights of gangbangs in order to get them done. obviously you cant plan these things and had also found a boy who i was having such good sex with, i didnt wanna bother with anyone else. until my last night there. after a night spent dancing on a podium, i wandered down to the beach with a few mates and a boy i had been building up to fucking for two months. i hadnt swam naked at night the whole time id been there so it was my mission to do it on the last night. me and the boy, 175, got down to our pants and went in the water. my other 3 mates stayed on the beach and chatted and watched us, taking photos. his cock was hard despite the cold and we started kissing. he slid his hands down my body over my nipples that were rock hard and on to my pussy. after two months of waiting, i pulled his cock out his shorts and wrapped my hand round it, stroking him and kissing him. i sat down in the water and he stood over me and i took him in my mouth and sucked his cock for a little bit. then he pulled me deeper in the water and finally fucked me. it was surprisingly hard to fuck while floating about in the water. and our friends were still watching and taking photos. so it was a bit weird. and it was so cold. we decided to get out and go back to his hostel. the pool at his place… Read More "…left town"

so friday night i met a dude. he was hot, in a hipster way. an aussie model. anyway, i took him back to mine and he was a little awkward. it had taken hours of us talking in the first place to make out and get him to mine anyway.  we kissed a bit and he quickly got my top and bra off. i was laying on my back and he just started jiggling my tits. it was so wierd. it was like he had never seen or touched boobs before and was exploring how they move. after doing that for a bit he straddled my chest and tried to squeeze my boobs around his cock. in the position we were in it wasnt really possible so i took him in my mouth. he had quite a good cock, good lengh and rock solid. i pushed him on his back and started my best work with mouth. but after a few minutes he pushed me up, said stop and started pulling up his shorts. he jumped off the bed saying he cant do this. he was really sorry and said he knew it was a wierd thing for a dude to do, but that he had to leave. i just lay there an told him no worries. he told me to text him the next day and he would see me then. i made a mental note to make sure i did not do that and then he walked out.  i was a lil frustrated and apart from being pretty confused, which i still am, had a good nights sleep. it might seem particularly wierd but this, as you will find out, is not the first time i have been walked out on recently. Read More "…got walked out on"

so ive browsed my old favorite “dating” site since ive been hhere in aus but have not really felt the need or urge to follow through with any potentials. however, spending almost 2 weeks in bed pts a different outlook on things. i met 170 on the site about a week ago. i put him off the first few nights he wanted to meet as i was still a mess and not really up to it. after a failed night on fun on wednesday i decided i had to meet him on thursday night. he was going out and after i had finished on cam, first night back after the crash, i was a lil tired. i couldnt be bothered to sit and wait for him so went to bed. he called at 1.30am and woke me up. i didnt answer his first few calls cause i was a lil pissed off he left it so late. however in the end i answered. he has a really sexy voice and was trying to convince me it woul be a good idea to wake up and have him over. i was not convinced and we ended the conversation saying we will do it another night. by this point i was much more awake an after a couple of minutes thought, changed my mind and text him to tell him ill sleep when im dead and come over and fuck me. he was there within ten minutes. he wanst as cute as some of his pictures but by this point i hadnt had sex in a week an half. i didnt care. we made out a bit and pretty soon he was kneeling over my chest with his cock in my mouth while we watched in the mirror.  he was pulling on… Read More "…started internet dating again"

i am supposed to be working right now but i cant stop thinking about last night and havent had any mates to talk to about it yet. so im gonna write it here first! last night i had my first b/g/b/g/b orgy! i met this guy on thursday, 167 and fucked him on saturday morning. on sunday night, when i was working, two guys i had been flirting with all weekend bought a whole tray of shots off me. i sat down with them and 167 came over and joined us. they asked me if they could do them off my body if i lay on the table. after a little encouragement from 167 i agreed. they placed one shot between my legs, one between my boobs and one in my mouth and then took it in turns to do all 3. they bought 45 shots so this took a while. 167 was rubbing my pussy and one of the other guys, 168, was stroking my legs and kept kissing me every time he would do a shot out my mouth. i hung out with 167 and 168, for a bit after just chatting and kissing them both and we said we should all fuck when i finish work in an hour. they didnt know each other, but from that point they spent the next hour together waiting for me. when i finished work 167 said he wanted me to get another girl involved. i looked around but couldnt find one i was interested in, then just as we were leaving, one of the bar girls 169, came in with 167s mate. she is the hottest girl there on any night, so i went up to the two of them and asked if they wanted to come home with me… Read More "…had my first orgy"

so being away from london, away from phone signal, away from internet has got me feeling much more pensive. been thinking about exs and me and friends. i cannot get my last ex 105 out of my head. he was my last love and also the boy that locked me up for 5 days. it has never felt over with us. the first time, the second time, or now after he got back in touch the last time. maybe its cause im near his part of the country. i have to get the same train to the family as i did to his. what ever the reason him being out there, existing, living, and me not knowing about him, not able to care or help is on my mind. i have always loved having one that got away tho. i love pining. Read More "….monday bank holiday"