3/18/22
I have had a life of amazing things cause I collect times Ive been fully in the moment. If Im searching for something, somewhere, someone, outside myself, or get lost in my head, then I wont be collecting new amazing experiences. What make an amazing experience for me is when Im fully immersed in what Im doing. Not thinking outside of the moment, not analysing how I feel, being fully present. I can do that for everything. I dont have to wait for something big enough to demand my full attention. It is the attention to bring to everything I do so that even the smallest activity is an event.
I won’t collect new experiences by thinking about what to do. I will collect new experiences by being present in what I am doing.
Diary
Back to work today after Moms visit. Feeling a bit foggy brained. Had Patrick, spoke to Dad. Watching Andy Warhol Documentary while I get ready. Feeling artistic and inspired.
Karen
Is a slur to keep white women, who are sick of the patriarchy forcing them to be quiet about everything and finally got the balls to say something, in their place. In her rage at finally speaking, she is a woman who says the wrong thing and over reacts as most of the time, its a moment where the straw has broke the camels back, and she is speaking her mind for the first time. How dare she?! Fucking Karen. Women cant be angry, or aggressive when she is sick of shit. That’s not for white women. Women can’t have PTSD or trauma that gets triggered by some inconsiderate person invading their lives, especially if everyone else thinks she shouldn’t be triggered by whatever it was. Karen isn’t a light, playful meaningless term. It is yet another tool of the patriarchy to silence a woman who has the audacity to speak her mind, to get angry, to react authentically. Don’t normalize silencing women.
Sex Workers Aren’t Looking to Date
I make a point of letting them know this isnt a dating site and it doesnt matter where I am. Cause no way in hell will I be leading these people on and letting them think asking sex workers where they live is ok. Id rather kill boners and educate idiots that I dont even want paying me, than perpetuate problematic ideas in sex work.
