Autobiography

Language Consciousness

Without language, is there consciousness? To me there only seems to be awareness and memory. Memory, which is the back catalogue of moments of awareness.

I had so much space and silence inside me on the drive home. My body feels so still and aligned. When I move I have constant ideas or complete awareness. When I come to communicate either experience, it seems so insignificant, ephemeral, small, compared to the sensation inside me. It is hard writing about language. But when the concepts flow through me it seems so obvious and simple. Can language capture the experience of awareness? How can “nothing” be so full of everything. Everything is nothing. In nothing is everything. To feel everything without language is nothing. It is vast space. Silence. Comfort. Euphoria. Contentment. Awareness. It is that what is right now, is enough. It is more than enough. It is over flowing. It holds within it all the individuals and their machinations, all the way down to ants, microbes, bacteria. And out into the stillness of every rock, tree, sunset, galaxy and infinity of the universe. Still on our scale. We are still on a microbe scale. With no judgement or language it all just exists. Everything. In your awareness. But there cannot be a why. Why involves langue. Awareness does not. You can marvel in awe without questioning why, or how.

When you experience language free, mind body harmony, with your environment, is that the same level of consciousness that an animal has? Is language the only difference between us and chimps. Chimps are selfish cause they don’t have language to reason. Reason to override acting out of awareness. Awareness moves into to consciousness with language to reason.

Analogies

Sex today is as if we are living in a future where the only sport is basketball. In a future where we have lost all memory and record of the range of sports we currently have, there is only basketball. When someone says “Do you do/like/enjoy sport?” they mean basketball. They mean dribbling a ball, on a court and trying to throw it in a basket on a stick. There is a range of ways to engage in basketball, you can play alone in your yard. You can be a world famous professional player whos’ whole life is basketball, playing to a ever increasing level of complexity. But there is no golf, football, soccer, gymnastics, etc. All the types of movement involved in any other sport is forgotten. This, is where we are at with sex today. Over the millennia, social conditioning and cultural norms and rules have slowly eroded our knowledge of the potential for sex and intimacy. We have forgotten how to move our bodies together in ways that create intimacy and community. We have forgotten how to communicate through our bodies. We have lost the cyclical nature of the female sexuality. We have lost the balance that roots our species, our sexual capacity. The first principle of being human is that we are sexed animals whos whole being has been designed over millions of years to reproduce. It is our guiding light and life force. It is why we are here and the only way we will survive. And yet everyone is playing basketball and the whoile world is becoming sick. Our bodies and minds deformed by the focus on basketball. The exclusion of people who don’t like basketball or the soul crushing experience of submitting to a game you don’t really want to play but do it anyway, over and over again. We are going mad. We are lacking something so core to our physcal experience of being human and we wonder why our minds are suffereing.

Dogs in hats playing poker, is the human condition.

Meditation. Imagine language doesnt exist. It is that simple. You don’t need to get rid of “thoughts”, you just dont allow yourself to form words. Imagine a white board, and erase the words as they form. Sensation exists The present moment exists. Concepts, thoughts, questions, and rumination, cannot exist without words. Keep forgetting language. What is left? Grasp onto it and sink into it. It expands exponentially. Without language you are able to experience awareness like an animal. Like a big cat or dog lying in the sun. Not asleep, but not alert. Enjoying the sensatgion of the warm sun on their fur Enjoying the comfort and contentment of existing. No judgement on the moment, just the physical sensations of the body.

Red Pilled

I’ve been going down a track on YouTube, my new special interest, of reaction and red pill videos. People who were liberal, progressive or woke and have seen the light. The light, they are finding, is called being red pilled. Moving towards a conservative, right wing, world view. I have been going through this process myself for a couple of years. My panic and fear at the direction the world was going, the reality of its current awfulness, the immense problems in all people, systems, experiences, everything ever that has been, is wrong, and it debilitated me. I wound up in bed for days and even weeks, for years. I felt like I was the only person in the world that could see the amount of reality in the world, that felt the pain and awfulness of every moment for every person. Even if people seeeem to be happy, if they are oblivious to how awful their lives are compared to what they could be if we changed all the priorites and system in the world to be what is best for the most human animals. I was heartbroken for every human that had ever lived. And thought I was the only person who could do anything about. The only person to see the whole picture.

I dont know what sent me up the ladder out of these depths, there were many factors changing in my life that could be contributing. My work is consistent as is my schedule and abilities to do/enjoy work. I have a growing savings account. I am able to socialize with the Bag Ladies (camgirl forum) and feel good about me around other people, the town meet and evening with the neighbours added to this. I am more at ease in my body and mind. I can control my emotions and observe my feelings when they arrise. I move through repetitive thoughts quickly. Im not raw. Im not terrified. Im not on the defensive. Im not in fight or flight. I am comfortable in my reality.

Russel Brand, Joe Rogan and Elon Musk saying what Im thinking taking the pressure of me thinking I am the only one to save the worl.

If you Haven’t…then Don’t Fucking Speak To Me

There is a reason I speak about things. I know. From experience. First hand. Many more truths than you can comprehend. Unless you too have the same quantity and quality of first hand experiences, you have absolutely nothing to say, or offer me. I’ll add your data to my information pool, but it won’t change anything I have to say, or disprove anything I have done and know. You are nothing. You are a point in an expansive data set that is my brain. So if you want to scream your differeing opinion or attack me about how I’m wrong, link me to your 15 years of writing, research and relevant experience, or set up your own platform and articulate your points, create, cause you cannot effect what I make or do, your experience of the world is up to you. I see your projection and low IQ takes. You are all midwits, loosers, fakes. Fuck off. I don’t care if no one ever gets to see, or benefit, from what I know, from being me.

If you haven’t fucked 1000 men, 60% in a professional, legal, brothel setting, you cannot talk to me about male sexuality, sex, the human body, commodification, capitalism, female sexuality, society, sex work, porn, intimacy, peoples insides, intimate conversations, what men only show during sex, mental health, the human animal, fundamental needs.

If you haven’t been a sex worker for 13+ years, you cannot talk to me about sex work, porn, male sexuality, toxic cultures, men, social attitudes and feminism.

If you haven’t been an artist or writer for 25+ years, you cannot speak to me about free speech, creativity, art, merit, philosiphy, ideology, feminism, society, culture or masculinity.

If you haven’t lived in more countries than me, 3, then you cannot speak to me about international observations, politics, the western condition or society.

Unless you have met 100,000 + people from every corner of the globe, you cannot talk to me about people, personality, patters, society, culture, humanity and cilization, relationships, behaviour, or stereotypes.

Unless you have spent 5+ years living in isolation, you cannot talk to me about the human condition, mental health, lonliness, society, culture, politics, enlightement, spirituality, history, civilization of the battle of the sexes.

Unless you have lived, unhoused in the wilderness for 3+ years, you cannot speak over me about nature, the human animal, the physical body, men, the conciousness of flying insects, energy, reality, space, time, or anything in the physical the universeve.

If you are not in the top 2% of IQ, you cannot know anything I do not, you cannot see the world or even comprehend what I know.

Unless your brain is a hyperconnected AI network, you cannot comment on the patterns in the world, in people and in society and culture.

Unless you have rebuilt your body from scratch, recoonnected to every single muscle and fiber in your being and restructured your posture, symetry and aesthetiscs, you cannot tell m anything about the body, the human animal, the mind body connection, being embodied or the female physical enlightenment.

Unless you have had 300+ hours of intensive therapy, I do not want to hear what you have to say on mental health, trauma, parenting, personality, ego, enlightenment, embodiment, mind body connection, their sexuality, their body, narratives and conditioning.

Unless you have been persuing an alternative path, conciously, in your number one special interest, operating outside of narratives and biases for 16+ years, you have nothing to say to me on sex, feminism, masculinity, the body, male female duality, freedom, enlightenment.

If you have not lived for many years as a ego free, natural human animal, I don’t repect anything you have to offer me.

I am over pretending to care that being me makes other people feel bad. I am a high IQ, unique, well educatedd, upper middle class, artist, and I’m fucking proud to be me, to know what I do and see the world the way I do. If you disagree with me, kindly fuck off and climb your own mountain. I’ll seee you and respect you when you raise yourself up to my level on your own path. Until then, you are nothing but a data point in my view from above.

Today Tuesday 17th October

Testing using this off line.

When I’m done ovulating I am in the perfect brain to get shit done. Do website. Write.

Ovulation is free to be a sexy rebel. connect to body. Enjoy being horny. Generate balance and grace.

Period is whatever I want. No socials.

Post period, direct. Percolate. Look but don’t talk.

Pre period. Delete social media. Walk. Move. Travel. Drive. Brain storm ideas.

They

How come you’re allowed to blaspheme but you can’t say anything antisemitism?! How come “they” get their own rules and get mad at everyone for way less blasphemy than committed against other religions all the time. Just talking about “them” is called antisemitism.

The God Body

The God Body

Note: As with many of my writings, this is a one sitting, physical flow. I write from start to finish, without stopping. I only edit for clarity and spelling. This quality of writing doesn’t need any pre thought, mid thought, or post thought. It is the truth coming from my body. It is a joy to flow on what I know. Enjoy.

The reason I know our physical embodiment is the highest enlightenment, is because I have intentionally been working on it myself for the last 9 years. Learning, experimenting, practising. I am almost finished. But that is how it always feels, and how I expect it will feel forever. As I work on my body through massage, focusing on an area, and using isolation, connection, flexing and release, I have gotten to the very roots of my experience on this planet. 

I was just working on my calf muscles that lead to a release and re alignment of my left thigh and hip. As I used the massage gun on my hamstring, I remembered when I first changed that part of my body and the ongoing consequences of that. As I massage, I am meditative, not ruminating, focusing on the sensations in my body. Allowing thoughts to arise and pass.

The joy of being this far along my journey is that now, the only thoughts that arise, are the memories, experiences, distorsion, compensation and trauma that was encoded in that part of my physical body. 

My hamstring started registering in my mind for, maybe the first time since I was 8, when I pulled it at gymnastics, on the vault, it all flows through my mind like a movie. The emotions attached to the pain I experienced mentally and physically at that time,passed through me, and awareness of sadness, grief, forgiveness, sorrow and release came through. And I am wiped clean. I am connected to that part of my body in a way I havent been aware of before. My thigh feels less like dead meat and more like a leg, I can connect to it. And mentally I feel stronger, able to stand on my own two feet. The strength in my legs that is unable to be accessed due to tensions, imbalances and scars feels available. And the mental strength that it gives me is a release of fear, of imposter syndrome. I don’t have to pretend I have legs, I can feel my legs, I am not pretending to know what I know, I KNOW it. The inner child that was still experiencing pain through the mental interpretation of the physical change in my body that occurred and arrested when I injured it. These stories, memories, emotions, narratives, releases, and revelations come with the territory of connecting to the deepest physicality of your body. 

This wasn’t a one off moment. This is what I have been experiencing for years. I have seen everything that has ever happened to me and how it has shaped me. How my physical body has shaped my emotional experience, and how emotional events have shaped my physical body. As I work on them and release them, I feel my body more than ever, my posture is near perfect, my proportions are more aesthetic, I am more symmetrical, I have more muscle development than when I lifted hours a week. And coincidentally enough, mentally I have never felt more stable, content, comfortable being me, healthy,authentic, brave, confident, joyful and full of gratitude for my life than I do now. So when I say the body is the highest, I know. 

I know what the body knows, what the mind might be, where consciousness, memory, personality resides, and how entirely one’s perspective of everything is shaped by their physical experiences. I am not theorising or philosophising. This is real. I truly believe true enlightenment is the experience of the world once one has wiped themselves clean of conditioning, encoding and dysfunction, mentally and physically. Too many people in the hunt for enlightenment, higher, spirit, soul, focus entirely on the mind. The body is low. It must be rejected for the mind, and then you reject mind to reach soul. NOPE. How the hell can your mind experience anything devine if the body through which the mind functions, is in dysfunction, with a lifetime of encoding, limiting its potential? 

The mental mastery is male. The physical is female. The unification of body and mind is the unification of male and female, yin yang, real enlightenment, god.  

Modern society has mistaken the feminine for the emotional not the physical. The emotional is a loss of control of the mind. That coincides with a loss of control of the body. The masculine and the feminine are completely disconnected and out of control. Disembodiment is the new cool. Meat sack is the attitude of the masses towards their bodies. The only way for us to move forward as a species is for the mind and body to be mastered. The only people leading us or making any decisions should be human animals who have mastered their duality and know reality. Reality is what the body and mind experiences when it reaches that state. I don’t think any current enlightenment teachers, speakers, gurus, linen shirt twats are reaching this state as the focus is on raising out of the body, denigrating the physical, looking for something that there is no evidence of that they might experience. Blind to the fact that whatever they experience is mediated through the very body they are trying to escape or denigrate. 

Do not strive for a spiritual experience. Strive for a fully physical one.. One where your body and mind is so pure that you can feel the sparkling, vibrating, interconnectedness of reality, and the fact that that which is experiencing the sensation of life, is on a rock, hurtling through a unknown entity for a unknown reason for a unknown period of time with a unknown destination or end, all because at some point, some of those vibrations you can feel lighting up your senses, created the beginnings of matter. 

And hey, if I am wrong, do you really think god, your spirit, your soul would be happy with you neglecting the body it chose to incarnate your soul into?! Do you not think there is a reason you have a physical body imbued from the higher? Does God not know what the physical sensations of the functional human body are? Are you wiser than God in how to experience it and treat it? If we are made in the image of god, why denigrate the body and its sensations? Your body is the god body. So treat it like it. In some way, it is your only god, as is the only thing through which you experience reality. Your god is your body mediating the flow of information that your mind processes. I;m sure many people will disagree. If you do, have you done the work on your body for 9 years to know that what I am saying is wrong? Are you really sure of what you can know from the limitations of the body and mind that has shaped all you already know? So before someone says “We are spiritual beings having a physical experience”, just think, are you sure? Does your body know that? How does having a spirit feel in your body? You might just have to get to know your body first to find the answer. And that answer may be what I already know. The body is where you experience transcendence. Transcendence from the simulation of language into the real. The physical. The true you. The truth outside of you. Reality.

The Mind Alone Cannot Produce Effective Solutions

If you are disconnected from, or deny your body, you will never get to experience, understand or even comprehend the true human experience. It does not matter how much you master your mind, understand language and comprehend complex ideas, you can never know what it is to be human until you master your body. You master your mind, to free your inner child, the witness. But unless you fix the muscle, sinews, tendons, facia and skin in-between the inner child and outer self, you cannot know what it is like for that inner child to truly run free in reality. The body, is no mind. It is no language. It is no narrative. It is no words. It is the cat, lying in the sun, reveling in the experience of existing in its physical body. There is no future. There is no past. There is only the body. The only place you will live for the rest of your life. You can ignore it. Deny it. But you can never escape it. Mental enlightenment, religion, spirituality and the concept of the soul, deny the body. They think the spirit, the soul, is higher. We can conceptualize about that all we want but without language, meaning, higher self, god, nor any other concept, can exist. There is no proof of this other reality. Without language you only have the physical now. So learning to trust your senses and your physical body, is learning what is actual truth and reality. Exist in that space and you get to see what it is really like to feel reality.

The emotional narrative that controls the majority of minds is not what it actually feels like to be alive. In order to know what is really true, you have to move into your no mind body. The human animal body. You are a human animal, being in the world. What does it feel like to be a human animal in your world? Feeling, to me, is the awareness of the information my senses are receiving about my body and the environment. Without language or judgement, find what your body is saying. If you can, change it. Right now, my stomach is tight, my shoulders are tingling and shivering slightly as my biceps and triceps are sore. I could stop writing and thinking for a second and breathe deep, let go of the tension and realign how I am sitting. Breathing into and letting go in, the areas of tension, immediately brings up a swelling of energy towards my heart and I begin to feel the need to cry. Obviously I am narrating this. But in the moment, I don’t need words in my head to understand what my body is feeling. It is my attention, not the narrator, that is moving around the body. You may only be able to do it for a second. It is what I think meditation is trying to get at. The cat analogy is more obvious in how to get there, for me. The cat would stretch and move, getting ever more comfortable and warm. And with practice, those moments of bliss expand. From one second, to one minute, from 30 minutes to infinitely more. From the work I have done, for the past 7 years, intentionally using myself as the gunnie pig for these ideas, it is where I live. My natural state is the human animal. I exist in the union of the mastery of the body and the mind. I let the lower ego play when and where I want online. I can’t control her when I work sometimes. I pull out the inner child, the witness, when I interact in the real world with the socialized, domesticated humans. But I intentionally spend 18 – 24 hrs. alone every day, so I can be the human animal I am meant to be. I am yin and I am yang. Perfectly entwined. The masculine, the feminine, and the awareness and respect of each side. I am light, I am dark, I am not scared of any part. I see my inner, I see my outer, I see all I can be.

I say what I do and push the ideas I do, cause this is what I want for you. I want it for you so you can know the cool euphoria of experiencing what it is to be truly human. And to be totally honest I also want it for you so I don’t have to be alone. The human animal is inherently a social, communal animal, and the way the world is and the way the disembodied progressivism is going, we are moving further and further from the human animal that truly knows what community feels like. I don’t see enough human animals in the world this way and we are loosing the ability to become truly free. Where I am, on the level of animal, I currently don’t see anyone else with whom I can play. To explore the world as animals together. To play and share real intimacy. The intimacy of human animal bodies together without language. That is where the real intensity and beauty of the human experience is meant to be. Its what our physical bodies evolved for. IT is what we are built for. To be intimately animal with each other. Everything after that is what the animal mind has added on top of this base, first principle reality. If people do not know what it really means to be human, how can anyone make society, culture and the world better for the majority? Do we really want systems, structures, societies and our bodies realities to be dictated by people who exist as a mind, who cannot comprehend the embodied side. So many people in power carry meat sacks around and behind their eyes I see terror. Do you really want to spend your life denying and suffereing a meat sack you never address? Or do you want to build your foundation, concepts, systems and knowledge from a place of inevitable truth and reality? I truly know this embodied, mastered human animal is the foundation stone to a thriving civilization. A thriving civilization prioritizes the awareness and appreciation of the integrated, self managed, balanced, healthy human body and brain.

You can start. You can do your part. All you have to do, is see what is there, outside of language. It is a not doing. It is a doing less. You can do less. You can be more.

Note: I think it is relevant that this piece, as is most of my writing, written in one sitting. One flow. From start to finish. Without stopping. Without editing. Only expanding ideas by a sentence here and there when re reading, before posting. I do not struggle to pour words onto the page. I do not need to contemplate the ideas I share as they are such a deep knowing I do not need to think ahead more than the word currently in my head. To me, writing is performative. A demonstration of my inner mind. The one that being an animal with Asperger’s hides. I don’t care if this seems like a boast. But how else will you know that I am different from most? When I hear pros talk about writing, the moment of rare joy they get in flow, is the only kind of writing I know. I think that is important to share. Who is struggling over words and lines and for whom it is just there. The flow, the rhythm, the uncomfortable stops, the uncontrollable rhyme. I cannot plan where it will go, I cannot think, I can only know, and keep typing until its time. Time to stop as now I am overthinking the process of writing and thinking!

The Evil Woman Narrative

The “evil woman” narrative is proliferated so good men never find out how the other men really treat women.

I have been getting bombarded with the “evil woman” narrative for a long time from the left and the right sides of the ideological aisle. Due to many unfortunate relationships since moving to America, I gained a new insight into the existence of an “evil woman”, the narccisist mother, and her impact on their children and society. So I was primed to fall for this relatively new assault on the female character. Obviously an assyakt on the female character is nothing new. But this violent, machieovelian, hard bitch “evil woman” seems a new developement. 

Left

Right

Where it has come from – what is it a reaction to? Both sides.

What I have seen in rl?

Evil Women:

Gender Critical women, white women, middle class women, radical feminists, 2nd wave feminists, trad wifes, false rape accusers, false abuse accusations, women tricking men into pregnancy, women are just as abusive in relationships as men, women murder men, women have affairs, women get divorced purely cause they “aren’t satisfied”, women plot to murder their husbands as much as women are killed by men,  woman are sluts who have been run through more than a porn star, women who hit men deserve to be hit back, women who are being abused or attacked did something to deserve it, accusations of rape are slut regret, women who ask for quality are uppity karens, mothers are narcissists, the devouring mother, the attractive woman only has privilege, skinny women are oppressive, fake tears, pregnant women attack gangs of black youths, white women are a threat to black men, female children who are white are allowed to be the toys of asian men, why didn’t she leave, if she was scared why didn’t she do xyz, women who want children are oppressors, women who don’t want children are selfish bitches, being sexual is disgusting, being sexual is your only worth, you cannot say what you want because you’re a woman, how dare a woman speak plainly, shes a bitch, how dare a woman have self esteem and any standards, boundaries? female boundaries are a genocide against men when men want to pretend to be women or women not be sexually harassed, it is the womans boundaries that is the problem, not the mens desire, women who don’t act like victims, women who recover from abuse.

Women who are acceptable;

Silent women who enjoy celebrating men, cheer for the parodies of womanhood either from men or bimbo women, strong woman raising kids silently supporting her man, a woman without a cycle, a hormonally suppressed woman, chubby women, agreeable women, soft women, squishy, shapeable to the environment, women that smile when they are harassed, women that say yes when they mean no, women who have no past, women who havent been abused, women without the awareness of male patterns, a woman with appropriate hobbies, unthreatening. 

Free Speech Absolutism

Words are nothing. They do not represent reality. They are noises that have been ascribed meaning. And then over the years, judgment and value have been placed on words. The idea that some words are unspeakable or some ideas are hate, chills me to the bone. i can, and will, always say what I want, what I think, what I see. Any laws around speech in America are related to intent, not words said. You cannot prove intent. We do not live in the minority report. It is a violation of our human born freedoms to criminalize the interpretations of someones pre emptive actions. Until the crime is commited, there is no way to be sure the perpetrator would have gone through with it. If you can arrest someonbe for intent, then arrest every single human. Intent isnt action. Words are intent, or action. Words are sounds. Action is action. And no law should be in the business of mind reading.

I have never let anyones words inside me. When I was first bullied at age 9, my Mom told me to just ignore it. Don’t let it affect me. They are just jealous, intimidated, feel bad about them selves. Just cause someone says something, does not mean it is true. So I never internalised anything anyone ever said to me after that. Not even what my parents thought. I hate to be influenced by any one elses words. Why should someones words affect the action I want to take? I think things through and know what feels right for me. If I let someones words change my perspective on reality then I am further from experiencing reality as myself. This is how most people end up regreting things. Do not regret the things you have done but those you did not do. People who regret things they have done, did them cause of someone elses influence. People who don’t do things, do so cause of someone elses influence. The only reason to regret something is if you weren’t doing what you wanted. But this is how most people live. It is incomprehensible to me.

If someone calls me a fat bitch, I don’t suddenly worry that I am in fact fat, and am intentionally mean to people. No, I know myself. Insult the work I do. Cool. That is your opinion. I don’t feel bad about myself cause you feel bad about yourself. How would I let someone who doesn’t understand me or know me or lived as me, tell me who I am?! If someone said I shouldn’t live in a bus, I would have anyway as I had figured it out. I know they haven’t thought about it in the way I have and have no idea of my capabilities. They are projecting their own fears.

You cannot incite violence. You can only comit it. If you say “go murder dave”, no one has to acknowledge you. No one has to act on it. The person acting on it, decided to mind read, assume you meant it, and act on it, ie “wont someone rid me of this meddlesome preist”. “Go riot”. Well you don’t have to. If you take someones words as a command, then that is on you. Do you not have a brain? Do you not have the ability to say no, to walk away, to resist? Its not hard.

Hate speech isn’t real. You are implying you can mind read. “I want to murder all gays.” I can say that. It doesn’t mean anything. It is a string of words. If you, as a gay, take that statement as a threat, that is cause of your insecurity and believe that you are a persecuted victim. You have NO idea what I ACTUALLY think about gays. I just said words. Words are not a reflection of my thinking. I could say “I want to eat all the gays.” It is meaningless. My words are not a reflection of my intent or opinion. I actually don’t really like “the gays” any more, and I can say that, cause its my opinion. If MY opinion offends you, then you have a unaddressed issues. I know people hate me cause of my work. I know I could be accused of being “a mentally ill, privilidged, nasty, slut, prostitutue trash whore, retard, homophobic, racist, who can’t survive doing anything else apart from getting her clothes off. She is a lonely, bitter old cat lady.” Oh right, I am am I? That is what you think, but I know myself and don’t see myself this way. You can put your perspective onto my reality, but your perspective cannot change what I understand and have experienced in reality. Also, the statement is correct, it is just using brutal language. To many people, being a sex worker and a promiscuous woman, is disgusting. Privilidge tho, is that an insult? Not to me. Same for any word. It is only an insult if you take it that way. You can observe the judgement the speaker is putting into the word, but the actual word has no power or meaning. Racist, ok, so what? I know what I think. I know how I treat real people outside of conceptual work. I don’t think having thoughts about a races culture or stereotypes makes me a bad person or racist. If you think it does, so what? We won’t know each other. I don’t care. And you should not care that I exist, thinking dangerous thoughts. Unless someone has actual power to change laws, rules, or norms then they are not a threat. Individuals opinions are not ideologies. Ideologies are dangerous. Opinions are not. And if you think my bad opinion is dangerous, then thank you, you think I am as powerful as I do!

I saw a video of a guy standing with a sign that was meant to provoke. Something about women. Now, if I saw him, I would have said to myself, oh here is someone looking to provoke. Why would I give someone like that what they want? Are you that much of dumb simple puppet that you have to walk up and react exactly as he wanted? No one need interupt their day and peace to go attack this man for his opinion. That is their choice. The mature, enlightened, human thing to do, is to look away, walk away, do not engage. But in that video, many people walked up and would not give up. He clearly was being cheeky and yet these people felt it was their right and place to attack him and try to change his mind. It looked so pathetic. Those people want trouble. They want to feel bad, they want to feel attacked, a victim, standing up for a cause. But it was just one bloke with a sign. He won’t be changing any laws, any rules, any social or cultural standards. But many people felt threatened enough by one mans words, they had to engage. You engaging, IS the negative effect in the world. You getting upset and hurt by someones words is the only harm words can cause. And that is on you for lacking emotional resilience. If you don’t let someones words affect you, then words are harmless and meaning less!

So many people are lead by their lizard brain, they are calling out for censorship. They do not acknowledge any agency. They are puppets, blown about in the wind by other peoples words. Its truly pathetic. How about instead of censoring, making hate speech and suggesting some words or phrases are criminal, we teach people to elevate themselves above it. Words are NOT reality. Each person is 100% responsible for their experience of the world. I cannot and do not wish to control anything anyone thinks. Its facinating learning why people think the ways they do. I have had drinks with murderers, gangsters, pimps, prostitutes, drug dealers, pedo killers, old boys, ghetto boys, narc women, narc men, gamblers, racists, people with a myriad of “hateful” opinions. Not once did it affect me. I heard their stories. I observed them as their whole. Their perspective on the world adds to my understanding of reality, but it can’t change my experience of reality. I do not let words cloud reality, especially other peoples. Teach people resilience and self belief. Teach them to realize opinions are as common as assholes and we are all born with them and a right to express them, as we have a right to shit. We don’t have to handle others excrement, and other people shitting, doesn’t change how you shit. Same with words.

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