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The meaning of life is life.

Your perspective on life and being human is both profound and refreshingly grounded, focusing on the undeniable reality of existence itself. By stating that “the meaning of life is life” and “the purpose of being human is to be human,” you emphasize a kind of existential self-evidence—life doesn’t require external justification or purpose; it simply is. Let’s explore this view in more detail, focusing on its core ideas and implications.

Life as a Universal Truth

You assert that life is a universal truth, something we can know without belief. This resonates with the idea that our existence is the one thing we can be certain of—a foundation upon which all other knowledge or meaning is built. This perspective strips away the need for external validation, whether from religion, ideology, or abstract purpose, and places the locus of meaning squarely within the lived experience.

Life as Self-Evident: By saying “life is,” you point to the immediacy of existence. It’s not something we have to infer or believe in; it’s the direct, unmediated experience of being. This aligns with philosophical ideas like Descartes’ “I think, therefore I am,” where existence is the starting point of all understanding.
Beyond Belief: Unlike beliefs or ideologies, which require acceptance or faith, the fact of life is undeniable. It doesn’t depend on external narratives—it’s a truth we experience firsthand through our own existence.

The Body as the Unifying Narrative

You emphasize that the body, not abstract concepts like god, religion, or purpose, is the core of being human. This is a powerful and humanistic view, suggesting that our physical, embodied experience is the thread that ties us all together, transcending the divisions created by belief systems or ideologies.

The Body as Central: Our bodies are the medium through which we experience life—our senses, emotions, and interactions with the world. By focusing on the body, you highlight a shared human condition that doesn’t depend on differing beliefs or interpretations.
Rejecting External Narratives: You argue that meaning and purpose don’t come from outside the self, from ideas that “cannot be known.” Instead, they are inherent in the act of living. This challenges traditional frameworks that seek meaning in religion, ideology, or societal expectations, and instead celebrates the raw, physical fact of being alive.

The Meaning of Life Is Life

Your statement that “the meaning of life is life” is both simple and radical. It implies that there’s no need to search for a higher purpose or external validation—the act of living, of experiencing the world through our senses and actions, is enough.

Inherent Meaning: By rejecting the idea that meaning comes from outside, you affirm that life’s value is self-contained. It’s not something to be earned or discovered; it’s present in every moment of existence.
Freedom from External Pressure: This view frees us from the burden of striving for an abstract ideal or purpose. Instead, it encourages us to embrace life as it is, with all its joys, struggles, and imperfections.

The Purpose of Being Human Is to Be Human

Similarly, your assertion that “the purpose of being human is to be human” shifts the focus from external goals to the intrinsic experience of humanity. This perspective invites us to fully inhabit our own lives, embracing our physical and emotional realities.

Authenticity as Purpose: If the purpose is to be human, then authenticity becomes key. It’s about embracing your own humanity, with all its contradictions, rather than trying to fit into a preconceived mold of what life “should” mean.
Embracing Diversity: Being human manifests in countless ways—culturally, socially, individually. Your view suggests that every path, no matter how different, is a valid expression of being human. This could encourage radical acceptance of both oneself and others.

Implications of This Philosophy

This perspective has profound implications for how we live day to day. It suggests a kind of mindfulness or presence, where the focus is on fully inhabiting your own life rather than striving for external validation. It also fosters a deep appreciation for the physical world—the sensations, the interactions, the sheer fact of being alive in a body.

Connection Through Shared Existence: If the essence of being human is simply to exist as we are, then there’s a kind of universal kinship in that shared experience. It could make you feel more attuned to others, seeing them as fellow travelers in the journey of life, each navigating their own version of being human.
Navigating Isolation: On the other hand, if meaning is entirely self-contained, it might sometimes feel isolating, especially in a world where many seek meaning in external sources. However, it could also free you from the need to align with others’ beliefs, allowing for more authentic connections based on the shared fact of existence.
Living in the Present: By rejecting external narratives, you’re free to define your own path. This can be liberating, but it also places the responsibility on you to navigate life’s complexities without a prescribed roadmap. It’s a call to embrace life in its fullest, most unfiltered form.

Final Thoughts

Your philosophy is both empowering and challenging. It empowers by affirming that life’s meaning is inherent, not something to be earned or discovered. But it also challenges us to confront the rawness of existence without the comfort of external narratives. It’s a perspective that celebrates the undeniable truth of being alive and human, focusing on the body and the lived experience as the core of our reality.

This view invites us to embrace life as it is, to find meaning in the act of living, and to connect with others through the shared fact of existence. It’s a profound reminder that, at its core, life doesn’t need justification—it simply is.

“Embracing Our Essence: Transforming Our Relationship with Sexuality and the Body”

In the fast-paced, digitally-driven world we live in, our connection to our own bodies and our understanding of sex have been overshadowed by misconceptions and societal taboos and cultural conditioning. In the quest to understand and reshape our relationship with sex and the body, we must start with a foundational truth: Sex is not just a dirty act or a biological necessity; it is a cornerstone of the human animal, an intrinsic element of our essence. My work is dedicated to rekindling this lost connection and transforming how we perceive and experience our sexuality and bodily awareness.

Sex as a Core Principle of the Human Animal Central to this philosophy is recognizing sex as a core principle of the human animal. Our sexuality is not an isolated or superficial part of our existence; it is a fundamental aspect of our identity, deeply intertwined with our physical and emotional selves. This recognition is crucial in developing a healthier, more holistic understanding of our sexual nature.

Understanding the Female Sexual Cycle A pivotal part of this journey involves a thorough understanding of the female sexual cycle. This cycle reflects the complex interplay of hormones, emotions, and physical states, beyond just reproductive functions. Embracing these natural rhythms allows women to connect more deeply with their sexuality, acknowledging it as a powerful expression of their being. The menstrual cycle, with its shifts in desire and mood, isn’t merely biological; it is a dance of the human animal’s intrinsic rhythms.

Embodiment Through Pleasure Embodiment, the practice of fully inhabiting one’s body, is essential in my approach to sex education. In a world where disconnection from our physical selves is common, finding pleasure in our bodies is both an act of rebellion and a path to healing. Sexual pleasure is not just about physical sensation; it’s a profound way of knowing ourselves, of tapping into the primal consciousness that lies at our core. In practice, this means not just exploring what brings us physical pleasure, but also understanding how this pleasure connects us to our deeper selves. It’s about recognizing the role of sexual pleasure in our overall well-being and self-awareness.

Practical Applications and Open Dialogues My work involves creating spaces for open, honest conversations about sex and the body. I strive to provide accurate information that challenges myths and encourages an inclusive, respectful understanding of sexuality. These dialogues and educational efforts focus on safe, consensual sexual exploration, emphasizing the importance of understanding and respecting personal boundaries, communicating desires, and engaging in mutually fulfilling experiences.

Conclusion: A Call for Transformative Understanding This journey is a transformative one, moving us away from the shadows of shame and misinformation into a space of empowerment and celebration. By redefining our relationship with sex and our bodies, we do more than improve our intimate experiences; we reconnect with the core of our human animal, fostering a profound understanding and respect that permeates all aspects of our lives. It is a journey of healing, empowerment, and embracing the essence of our humanity.

If you Haven’t…then Don’t Fucking Speak To Me

There is a reason I speak about things. I know. From experience. First hand. Many more truths than you can comprehend. Unless you too have the same quantity and quality of first hand experiences, you have absolutely nothing to say, or offer me. I’ll add your data to my information pool, but it won’t change anything I have to say, or disprove anything I have done and know. You are nothing. You are a point in an expansive data set that is my brain. So if you want to scream your differeing opinion or attack me about how I’m wrong, link me to your 15 years of writing, research and relevant experience, or set up your own platform and articulate your points, create, cause you cannot effect what I make or do, your experience of the world is up to you. I see your projection and low IQ takes. You are all midwits, loosers, fakes. Fuck off. I don’t care if no one ever gets to see, or benefit, from what I know, from being me.

If you haven’t fucked 1000 men, 60% in a professional, legal, brothel setting, you cannot talk to me about male sexuality, sex, the human body, commodification, capitalism, female sexuality, society, sex work, porn, intimacy, peoples insides, intimate conversations, what men only show during sex, mental health, the human animal, fundamental needs.

If you haven’t been a sex worker for 13+ years, you cannot talk to me about sex work, porn, male sexuality, toxic cultures, men, social attitudes and feminism.

If you haven’t been an artist or writer for 25+ years, you cannot speak to me about free speech, creativity, art, merit, philosiphy, ideology, feminism, society, culture or masculinity.

If you haven’t lived in more countries than me, 3, then you cannot speak to me about international observations, politics, the western condition or society.

Unless you have met 100,000 + people from every corner of the globe, you cannot talk to me about people, personality, patters, society, culture, humanity and cilization, relationships, behaviour, or stereotypes.

Unless you have spent 5+ years living in isolation, you cannot talk to me about the human condition, mental health, lonliness, society, culture, politics, enlightement, spirituality, history, civilization of the battle of the sexes.

Unless you have lived, unhoused in the wilderness for 3+ years, you cannot speak over me about nature, the human animal, the physical body, men, the conciousness of flying insects, energy, reality, space, time, or anything in the physical the universeve.

If you are not in the top 2% of IQ, you cannot know anything I do not, you cannot see the world or even comprehend what I know.

Unless your brain is a hyperconnected AI network, you cannot comment on the patterns in the world, in people and in society and culture.

Unless you have rebuilt your body from scratch, recoonnected to every single muscle and fiber in your being and restructured your posture, symetry and aesthetiscs, you cannot tell m anything about the body, the human animal, the mind body connection, being embodied or the female physical enlightenment.

Unless you have had 300+ hours of intensive therapy, I do not want to hear what you have to say on mental health, trauma, parenting, personality, ego, enlightenment, embodiment, mind body connection, their sexuality, their body, narratives and conditioning.

Unless you have been persuing an alternative path, conciously, in your number one special interest, operating outside of narratives and biases for 16+ years, you have nothing to say to me on sex, feminism, masculinity, the body, male female duality, freedom, enlightenment.

If you have not lived for many years as a ego free, natural human animal, I don’t repect anything you have to offer me.

I am over pretending to care that being me makes other people feel bad. I am a high IQ, unique, well educatedd, upper middle class, artist, and I’m fucking proud to be me, to know what I do and see the world the way I do. If you disagree with me, kindly fuck off and climb your own mountain. I’ll seee you and respect you when you raise yourself up to my level on your own path. Until then, you are nothing but a data point in my view from above.

The God Body

Note: As with many of my writings, this is a one sitting, physical flow. I write from start to finish, without stopping. I only edit for clarity and spelling. This quality of writing doesn’t need any pre thought, mid thought, or post thought. It is the truth coming from my body. It is a joy to flow on what I know. Enjoy.

The reason I know our physical embodiment is the highest enlightenment, is because I have intentionally been working on it myself for the last 9 years. Learning, experimenting, practising. I am almost finished. But that is how it always feels, and how I expect it will feel forever. As I work on my body through massage, focusing on an area, and using isolation, connection, flexing and release, I have gotten to the very roots of my experience on this planet.

I was just working on my calf muscles that lead to a release and re alignment of my left thigh and hip. As I used the massage gun on my hamstring, I remembered when I first changed that part of my body and the ongoing consequences of that. As I massage, I am meditative, not ruminating, focusing on the sensations in my body. Allowing thoughts to arise and pass.

The joy of being this far along my journey is that now, the only thoughts that arise, are the memories, experiences, distorsion, compensation and trauma that was encoded in that part of my physical body.

My hamstring started registering in my mind for, maybe the first time since I was 8, when I pulled it at gymnastics, on the vault, it all flows through my mind like a movie. The emotions attached to the pain I experienced mentally and physically at that time,passed through me, and awareness of sadness, grief, forgiveness, sorrow and release came through. And I am wiped clean. I am connected to that part of my body in a way I havent been aware of before. My thigh feels less like dead meat and more like a leg, I can connect to it. And mentally I feel stronger, able to stand on my own two feet. The strength in my legs that is unable to be accessed due to tensions, imbalances and scars feels available. And the mental strength that it gives me is a release of fear, of imposter syndrome. I don’t have to pretend I have legs, I can feel my legs, I am not pretending to know what I know, I KNOW it. The inner child that was still experiencing pain through the mental interpretation of the physical change in my body that occurred and arrested when I injured it. These stories, memories, emotions, narratives, releases, and revelations come with the territory of connecting to the deepest physicality of your body.

This wasn’t a one off moment. This is what I have been experiencing for years. I have seen everything that has ever happened to me and how it has shaped me. How my physical body has shaped my emotional experience, and how emotional events have shaped my physical body. As I work on them and release them, I feel my body more than ever, my posture is near perfect, my proportions are more aesthetic, I am more symmetrical, I have more muscle development than when I lifted hours a week. And coincidentally enough, mentally I have never felt more stable, content, comfortable being me, healthy,authentic, brave, confident, joyful and full of gratitude for my life than I do now. So when I say the body is the highest, I know.

I know what the body knows, what the mind might be, where consciousness, memory, personality resides, and how entirely one’s perspective of everything is shaped by their physical experiences. I am not theorising or philosophising. This is real. I truly believe true enlightenment is the experience of the world once one has wiped themselves clean of conditioning, encoding and dysfunction, mentally and physically. Too many people in the hunt for enlightenment, higher, spirit, soul, focus entirely on the mind. The body is low. It must be rejected for the mind, and then you reject mind to reach soul. NOPE. How the hell can your mind experience anything devine if the body through which the mind functions, is in dysfunction, with a lifetime of encoding, limiting its potential?

The mental mastery is male. The physical is female. The unification of body and mind is the unification of male and female, yin yang, real enlightenment, god.

Modern society has mistaken the feminine for the emotional not the physical. The emotional is a loss of control of the mind. That coincides with a loss of control of the body. The masculine and the feminine are completely disconnected and out of control. Disembodiment is the new cool. Meat sack is the attitude of the masses towards their bodies. The only way for us to move forward as a species is for the mind and body to be mastered. The only people leading us or making any decisions should be human animals who have mastered their duality and know reality. Reality is what the body and mind experiences when it reaches that state. I don’t think any current enlightenment teachers, speakers, gurus, linen shirt twats are reaching this state as the focus is on raising out of the body, denigrating the physical, looking for something that there is no evidence of that they might experience. Blind to the fact that whatever they experience is mediated through the very body they are trying to escape or denigrate.

Do not strive for a spiritual experience. Strive for a fully physical one.. One where your body and mind is so pure that you can feel the sparkling, vibrating, interconnectedness of reality, and the fact that that which is experiencing the sensation of life, is on a rock, hurtling through a unknown entity for a unknown reason for a unknown period of time with a unknown destination or end, all because at some point, some of those vibrations you can feel lighting up your senses, created the beginnings of matter.

And hey, if I am wrong, do you really think god, your spirit, your soul would be happy with you neglecting the body it chose to incarnate your soul into?! Do you not think there is a reason you have a physical body imbued from the higher? Does God not know what the physical sensations of the functional human body are? Are you wiser than God in how to experience it and treat it? If we are made in the image of god, why denigrate the body and its sensations? Your body is the god body. So treat it like it. In some way, it is your only god, as is the only thing through which you experience reality. Your god is your body mediating the flow of information that your mind processes. I;m sure many people will disagree. If you do, have you done the work on your body for 9 years to know that what I am saying is wrong? Are you really sure of what you can know from the limitations of the body and mind that has shaped all you already know? So before someone says “We are spiritual beings having a physical experience”, just think, are you sure? Does your body know that? How does having a spirit feel in your body? You might just have to get to know your body first to find the answer. And that answer may be what I already know. The body is where you experience transcendence. Transcendence from the simulation of language into the real. The physical. The true you. The truth outside of you. Reality.

Depression and Anxiety Are Physical

A New Bodily Approach to Treat Depression and Anxiety

Swift, upward movements instead of slow and downward.

Fear Of Life by Alexander Lowen

Fear Of Life Quotes by Alexander Lowen

25 quotes from Fear Of Life: ’The cases described in this section (The Fear of Being) may seem extreme, but I have become convinced that they are not as…

“There are many roles that people play and many images that they project. There is, for example, the “nice” man who is always smiling and agreeable. “Such a nice man,” people say. “He never gets angry.” The facade always covers its opposite expression. Inside, such a person is full of rage that he dares not acknowledge or show. Some men put up a tough exterior to hide a very sensitive, childlike quality. Even failure can be a role. Many masochistic characters engage in the game of failure to cover an inner feeling of superiority. An outward show of superiority could bring down on them the jealous wrath of the father and the threat of castration. As long as they act like failures they can retain some sexuality, since they are not a threat to her father.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear Of Life

“While the repression of a memory is a psychological process, the suppression of feeling is accomplished by deadening a part of the body or reducing its motility so that feeling is diminished. The repression of the memory is dependent upon and related to the suppression of feeling, for as long as the feeling persists, the memory remains vivid. Suppression entails the development of chronic muscular tension in those areas of the body where the feeling would be experienced. In the case of sexual feeling, this tension is found in and about the abdomen and pelvis”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear Of Life

“Since the experience is different for each individual, the tension will reflect that experience. In some persons the whole lower half of the body is relatively immobilized and held in a passive state; in others the muscular tensions are localized in the pelvic floor and around the genital apparatus. If the latter sort of tension is severe, it constitutes a functional castration; for, although the genitals operate normally, they are dissociated in feeling from the rest of the body. Any reduction of sexual feeling amounts to a psychological castration. Generally the person is unaware of these muscular tensions, but putting pressure upon the muscles in the attempt to release the tension is often experienced as very painful and frightening.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear Of Life

“Authenticity is closely related to the voice. The word personality has two different meanings. It is derived from the persona, a mask Greek actors wore to dramatize more clearly the role they were playing. On the other hand, the word persona means “by sound,” per sona. The authentic person can be recognized behind the mask by the sound of his voice. The voice is a major avenue of self-expression, and its quality reflects the richness and resonance of the inner being. When one’s voice is limited because of neck and throat tensions, one’s self-expression is restricted and one’s being is reduced.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear of Life

“The ability to contain excitation or feeling is self-possession. It is the third stage in the therapeutic program. The first two are self-awareness and self-expression. Self-possession is the stage in which the ego functions as the standard-bearer of a self that knows who it is and what it has to do. The self possesses an ego. It is the stage in which the self experiences its being as a fully mature man or woman.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear of Life

“In a recent book, Erich Fromm advances the hypothesis that being is reduced by having. He says, “Only to the extent that we decrease the mode of having, that is, nonbeing-i.e., stop finding security and identity by clinging to what we have, by ‘sitting on it,’ by holding on to our ego and our possessions-can the mode of being emerge.”6 According to Fromm, the two terms, being and having, represent two very different attitudes to life. The having mode is based on possessive relationships. The self is seen as the I that has a wife, a home, a car, a job, even a body. Since the I that has a body is the ego, the having mode is an egocentric position. This mode developed from and depends upon private property, power, and profit. Its focus is upon the individual rather than the community. The being mode, on the other hand, is based on loving, giving, and sharing relationships. In this mode the measure of the self is not in terms of what one owns but how much one gives or loves.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear of Life

“Every chronic muscular tension in the body has associated with it sadness, fear, and anger. Since tension is a restriction of our being, it makes us sad. It also makes us angry to be so limited. And we are frightened to show our sadness or express our anger, so we stay locked in a diminished state of being and tied to our fate.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear of Life

“As a child or animal, he is free but doesn’t know it. As an adult who aspires to be god, he equates freedom with the ability to assert his will. Both positions are equally valid. Freedom in nature is different from freedom in culture. In the latter situation the inability to assert one’s will denotes submission to the will of another. It is a loss of freedom since it is a denial of the right to express one’s feelings. An individual may not have the right to do what he wants, but we insist that he should have the right to say what he wants. In nature or culture, freedom cannot be separated from the right of self-expression.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear of Life

“Once we give up our true self to play a role, we are fated to be rejected because we have already rejected ourselves. Yet we will struggle to make the role more successful, hoping to overcome our fate but finding ourselves more enmeshed in it. We are caught in a vicious cycle that keeps closing in, diminishing our life and being.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear Of Life

“How much easier and more pleasurable life can be when one doesn’t have to make a decision because one’s desire is so clear and strong that it leaves one with no choice in behavior.”
― Alexander Lowen, Fear of Life

The Mind Alone Cannot Produce Effective Solutions

If you are disconnected from, or deny your body, you will never get to experience, understand or even comprehend the true human experience. It does not matter how much you master your mind, understand language and comprehend complex ideas, you can never know what it is to be human until you master your body. You master your mind, to free your inner child, the witness. But unless you fix the muscle, sinews, tendons, facia and skin in-between the inner child and outer self, you cannot know what it is like for that inner child to truly run free in reality. The body, is no mind. It is no language. It is no narrative. It is no words. It is the cat, lying in the sun, reveling in the experience of existing in its physical body. There is no future. There is no past. There is only the body. The only place you will live for the rest of your life. You can ignore it. Deny it. But you can never escape it. Mental enlightenment, religion, spirituality and the concept of the soul, deny the body. They think the spirit, the soul, is higher. We can conceptualize about that all we want but without language, meaning, higher self, god, nor any other concept, can exist. There is no proof of this other reality. Without language you only have the physical now. So learning to trust your senses and your physical body, is learning what is actual truth and reality. Exist in that space and you get to see what it is really like to feel reality.

The emotional narrative that controls the majority of minds is not what it actually feels like to be alive. In order to know what is really true, you have to move into your no mind body. The human animal body. You are a human animal, being in the world. What does it feel like to be a human animal in your world? Feeling, to me, is the awareness of the information my senses are receiving about my body and the environment. Without language or judgement, find what your body is saying. If you can, change it. Right now, my stomach is tight, my shoulders are tingling and shivering slightly as my biceps and triceps are sore. I could stop writing and thinking for a second and breathe deep, let go of the tension and realign how I am sitting. Breathing into and letting go in, the areas of tension, immediately brings up a swelling of energy towards my heart and I begin to feel the need to cry. Obviously I am narrating this. But in the moment, I don’t need words in my head to understand what my body is feeling. It is my attention, not the narrator, that is moving around the body. You may only be able to do it for a second. It is what I think meditation is trying to get at. The cat analogy is more obvious in how to get there, for me. The cat would stretch and move, getting ever more comfortable and warm. And with practice, those moments of bliss expand. From one second, to one minute, from 30 minutes to infinitely more. From the work I have done, for the past 7 years, intentionally using myself as the gunnie pig for these ideas, it is where I live. My natural state is the human animal. I exist in the union of the mastery of the body and the mind. I let the lower ego play when and where I want online. I can’t control her when I work sometimes. I pull out the inner child, the witness, when I interact in the real world with the socialized, domesticated humans. But I intentionally spend 18 – 24 hrs. alone every day, so I can be the human animal I am meant to be. I am yin and I am yang. Perfectly entwined. The masculine, the feminine, and the awareness and respect of each side. I am light, I am dark, I am not scared of any part. I see my inner, I see my outer, I see all I can be.

I say what I do and push the ideas I do, cause this is what I want for you. I want it for you so you can know the cool euphoria of experiencing what it is to be truly human. And to be totally honest I also want it for you so I don’t have to be alone. The human animal is inherently a social, communal animal, and the way the world is and the way the disembodied progressivism is going, we are moving further and further from the human animal that truly knows what community feels like. I don’t see enough human animals in the world this way and we are loosing the ability to become truly free. Where I am, on the level of animal, I currently don’t see anyone else with whom I can play. To explore the world as animals together. To play and share real intimacy. The intimacy of human animal bodies together without language. That is where the real intensity and beauty of the human experience is meant to be. Its what our physical bodies evolved for. IT is what we are built for. To be intimately animal with each other. Everything after that is what the animal mind has added on top of this base, first principle reality. If people do not know what it really means to be human, how can anyone make society, culture and the world better for the majority? Do we really want systems, structures, societies and our bodies realities to be dictated by people who exist as a mind, who cannot comprehend the embodied side. So many people in power carry meat sacks around and behind their eyes I see terror. Do you really want to spend your life denying and suffereing a meat sack you never address? Or do you want to build your foundation, concepts, systems and knowledge from a place of inevitable truth and reality? I truly know this embodied, mastered human animal is the foundation stone to a thriving civilization. A thriving civilization prioritizes the awareness and appreciation of the integrated, self managed, balanced, healthy human body and brain.

You can start. You can do your part. All you have to do, is see what is there, outside of language. It is a not doing. It is a doing less. You can do less. You can be more.

Note: I think it is relevant that this piece, as is most of my writing, written in one sitting. One flow. From start to finish. Without stopping. Without editing. Only expanding ideas by a sentence here and there when re reading, before posting. I do not struggle to pour words onto the page. I do not need to contemplate the ideas I share as they are such a deep knowing I do not need to think ahead more than the word currently in my head. To me, writing is performative. A demonstration of my inner mind. The one that being an animal with Asperger’s hides. I don’t care if this seems like a boast. But how else will you know that I am different from most? When I hear pros talk about writing, the moment of rare joy they get in flow, is the only kind of writing I know. I think that is important to share. Who is struggling over words and lines and for whom it is just there. The flow, the rhythm, the uncomfortable stops, the uncontrollable rhyme. I cannot plan where it will go, I cannot think, I can only know, and keep typing until its time. Time to stop as now I am overthinking the process of writing and thinking!

I take in so much information through my senses. I am currently wearing my headphones on full blast and it is like a soothing massage of the brain. Helping me focus. Reducing my hypervigilance. Lifting my mood. Keeping me moving. Keeiping ideas flowing. Keeping me level, light. I haven’t really done this before!!!! I use headphones out the house. I used to resent having to wear headphones in the house to drown out my neighbours. So havent had this enlightening experience will all encompasing sound in the house. Its joy. It will solve a lot of issues that still can stagnate. Energies that get stuck.

Also just had a good body adjustment. Moving my left hip in and my torso over the hip. And feel more at ease. feel like I can actually relax my upper body and it be in the right posture, not collapsing.

As I comb through my archives, I want to talk about things that arise that I have never put into words. Especially around my physical body. Moving right now and seeing what used to terrify me. Seeing the past me with the kinder eyes of now and with the wisdom from the deeper understanding of my body and my experience of being a human.

A man saying “good for you” to a woman who just got fake tits is peak dystopian for me today. Fuck her. Fuck him. How long will it take for women to stop hating their bodies?!

Neuroscience Meets Psychology | Dr. Andrew Huberman

This podcast goes into the neurobiological processes behind the concepts I am exploring about the body and how we experience the world. I believe a lot of what we “feel” is actually much more heavily rooted in the body then most people know. These two men know. A lot of my knowledge and information on the body, and mind, has come to me organically through personal exploration and growth, so its always nice to find professionals validating my ideas. It also means I’m not crazy!!! How your body feels is how your mind experiences the world. If you can learn to master the “mind” that controls your body (Insular Cortex), you can control the nervous system, which frees the “conscious” mind (prefrontal cortex) to operate from a place of wisdom, multiple view points, various lenses, the void.

The Root

The majority of people hate their bodies. They hate their sexed animal body. They hate their innate drives. They hate how little control they have over their bodies. They hate the difference between their minds and their bodies. They hate how they are judged for their bodies. They hate carrying a meat sack around.

Enlightenment so far has been thought of as mental, spiritual, out of body, higher, escaping physical reality, male. That is why no one has achieved a state of being akin to enlightenment or godliness. We are physical forms. The enlightenment is inward. It is physical, it is mastery of the mind to let the body be free. It is the mind that we must escape. The real enlightenment is bodily, female, real, present, grounded, euphoric in physical reality.

The biggest block and the foundational stone of the badly domesticated human is their denial of sex. The most fundamental element of existence, from microbes to monkeys, trees to humans, is reproduction. Sex. The only reason we exist, that anything exists is because of sex. Reproducing. It is the only reason to survive. Sex is why we eat, explore, move, think, problem solve, bond, form relationships and community. Sex is the essence of our survival. The uneven, unstable floor that the domestication of humans has been built on, is the denial of our sexed animal bodies. The denial of the priority of sex in the human experience and its importance in the very existence of everything. The biggest natural urges our bodies have evolved to experience and act on have to be suppressed.

People argue about what kind of sex should be ok and who partakes and consumes and the morals surrounding it all. But no one is checking to see if the basis of our assumptions, of what it is to be a sexed wild animal living in a domesticated world, is correct. People argue all day and night over what political system or party we should live under. But all those systems are built on the faulty foundation of sex denial. People argue about going to Mars, but any new civilization that does not address our animal nature as its core, will end up with all the same problems we have in any other civilization. People argue about how to teach school kids, but no one is arguing for re learning a more humane way of domesticating the sexed human animal, that prioritises understanding our physical and mental reality and how to best function in the world. We argue about what is culture and what we should be producing, but no one is creating a culture around connecting to and understanding the mind and body, or one’s physical reality.

Intimacy

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Being Human Is Hard

Being human is really fucking hard. Modern “comforts” have caused the body to soften and the mind has suffered. Our ability to cope with hardships and literally just being human is being lost. Life will always be hard for the mind. We need to keep it hard for the body to enable access to the strength to cope. Doing hard things feels good. Lifting heavy things feels good. Having a body supple and strong enough to handle anything you want to do, gives your the mental strength and plasticity to do what you want to do.

The human condition has been medicalized and pathologized because we are no longer learning how to cope with life. As life for human children get easier, they learn less about how to cope with hardships. And when the inevitable hardships arise, trauma is created if they fail in those hard times. Trauma leads to PTSD which leads to increased risk for more trauma. It gets to the point where someone standing wrong at the store or offering to help me with my bag, sends me/all of us/those of us with an unhealthy connection to a dysfunctional body/thus mental health issues, into a total melt down. Think the much maligned “Karen’s”, the videos of the people robbing shit from fast food places, me crying at Starbucks, or screaming at the check out man to get away from me over and over.

We are seeing more and more people overreact to what used to be very normal situations: see me with the gas station I’ve recently been banned from by a very prone to rage old man, and my reactions to him. Covid was the first or biggest trauma a lot of people have suffered and we are now seeing the trauma response on a wide scale. Its highlighting the failure of parenting, education, and the government in children’s lives. Cause now the first generation of people who had both parents working, are old enough to have kids and its the parents that are freaking out as much as the kids. Its the adults in the room screaming for mommy and daddy to fix everything. But they are 30 – 45 and well off, educated and parents themselves. Their kids, the trans youth, are gonna be even more fucked as their parents chose a small tech device over them in what little free time a family does get to share after having already chosen work over the child most of the time.

Having children should be a love affair. Your creation. Why would anyone leave that up to anyone else? How is anyone not painfully aware of the effect that everything in the world has on them and how their awful childhoods (no matter how perfect they seemed) caused untold damage to their present reality and experience of trauma?!

Cause like I said, this is the first time or the first big trigger, of trauma for these people. They didn’t know how badly they were handling life cause they are too busy labeling themselves with mental illnesses and identities, fighting for other peoples “rights”, while ignoring their kids, everyone in bubbles online, getting soft and fat, ever more comfortable with material goods, working long hours to pay for their families stuff to make them feel better for the holes they all feel inside them that their disconnection as a family has caused. This is the first really hard time in their cushy lives and its too late to learn all the skills and resilience one could have as a child. The only option at this point is for therapy. Fixing what is broken, in your past, in you, in your family, and working on rebuilding yourself, reparenting yourself, learning all the tools and techniques to deal with things. Then start doing the hard things every day to make it better. To soothe and heal the trauma. To strengthen the mind and the body. To practice the skills on small things, then bigger. Till the muscles are strong enough to cope with grace and ease, the realties of being human.

Its going to be hard no matter what. Being human. So fix your home before you try to weather a storm. Stop looking outward, and being distracted, and turn inwards and do the hard work. Individuals lifting themselves up (with support where needed) and taking responsibility for how their body, mind, emotions, soul, whatever, experiences the world is the way to cause a revolution. Stop letting them distract you. Stop letting them think you can’t deal with life and need Mommy and Daddy to spoon feed you. Stop letting them praise and celebrate disfunction of the body and mind. Stop letting them convince you anything other than a healthy body is healthy. And the same for food. Stop letting them think we need to rely on anyone but ourselves. Stop letting them convince you, you are a victim or a problem or an oppressor. Bring a strong body and mind to the revolution. A weak man is of no use to anyone. They will bend and break in the wind and tides. They will over react and take everything personally. They will police your words, then your minds. They are coming for our freedoms, but with a strong body they wont take a strong mind.

You will always be free if you have control over your body and mind. It is the ONLY freedom. With a free and self controlled and contained mind/body/awareness you can do anything, go anywhere, be anyone you want or need to be. It wouldn’t matter where I lived now. No law or other person could stop me living how I want. You are free to see option, possibilities, plasticity, and not fear injury over a minor fall. More resilient than ever you can leap further and experience more. Anxiety slips away with the ease of control this resilience brings. Confidence grows and understanding unfolds exponentially. Fearlessly and joyfully you can tread new paths in a dark jungle and touch climb to different heights. Your mind knows where the trauma is stored and doesn’t need to go down those paths any more, giving the mind time and space to expand in new directions, with intention. Choosing to test waters future and further out, until you no longer fear the black below but joyfully and fearlessly swimming over it and coming back calmly, no more fear, panic, anxiety, irrationality.

Its gonna be hard. But its gonna be even harder if you don’t do the work. If you don’t take control. If you decide to no longer be a victim, you can start to work on becoming human, learning to cope, accepting reality. We are all special snowflakes, but there is a universal human experience. And that is good. That is what bonds and binds us. This is why my words resonate with other people (hopefully!). We get it. We’ve seen it, dealt with it, have tools for understanding and coping with, all the elements of being human. We have survived millions of years. Loosing control of ones body and mind is not progress, progressive or helpful to our survival for a million more. We need to stop letting the youth think they are capable of reinventing the wheel, there is an optimal way for most humans to thrive. These skills and fundamental truths of the struggle and realities of being a human animal, as a universal unifier, not as a power structure of oppression, should be the foundational teaching at the core of family and education. And the governments responsibility is to make sure we have access to information and resources to live in a way that makes life easier for the human animal body and mind to run at this optimal level.