Autobiography

so as i type, i am sitting here waiting for confirmation from the boy that it is officially over. i have actually been waiting on this for nearly a week now and have lost patience and am feeling a little over it all. so to occupy me over the past week i have started lining up my new to do list which will be put into effect as soon as the confirmation email/call has been received. i’ve attempted to prioritize them and then i can also keep a tab on where i stand once it has all kicked off.

i have dissapeared for a few months cause i thought i had found the one. it wasnt actually the first time i had found this boy. my previous post told you, i heard from the boy that locked me in his room for 5 days. well we met up and not long after that we fell totally in love, again. we had a lovely semi normal relationship for the past 3 months. he was perfect. he didnt even freak out when i acted totally insane. and obviously we had constant and amazing filthy times. we fit together perfectly sexually. no-one has done things with me like he has. everything about him and us was perfect, apart from me being shit. a useless girlfriend, treating him like shit. but i really thought i wanted to spend my life with him and that it would be perfect and would get better forever. turns out though he is leaving the country in 6 months and doesnt want a relationship before he leaves and that i am just too horrible for him to want to be with me. awesome. awesome. so i now cant move, or breathe or even want to fuck anyone else, cause all i want is him. so unless that changes this will become very boring!

i had an amazing 4some with 3 boys at the end of january. it wasnt technically a full on 4some, but i had 3 guys in me in one sitting. 27 was out with mates from back home, one of them, 22, i had fucked a few times before when i was younger, around the time i fucked 27 for the first time. 22 was always really filthy. one time when i had my period he went down on me and while he sucked on my clit he fucked my ass hard with his fingers for hours on his living room floor.

so back to january, i spent a lot of the night with 27 on one arm and 22 on the other, making out with them in turn. i met the rest of their friends and they were hot. 27 always asks me to come back to his, but i generally have more interesting offers, or cant be bothered to travel that far, but this time i wanted in an i wanted all of them. 27 and his mate, 102, had to get a cab at 5am to catch a flight, so shortly after we got back 22 turns to me and says, right i have to leave in an hour an i wanna fuck you now. i asked 27 if that was all right, if i could go to his room an fuck 22 an he sent me away to enjoy myself. me and 27 started to kiss and undress each other but soon gave up the pretense of any romance and just got up and stripped naked. after playing with each other for a while an me sucking on his cock he thought it would be a good idea to get 27 involved. he came in and i was fucking 22, me on top. 22 told 27 to fuck me in the ass, but 27 said he had me for the rest of the night after they leave an i had to wait to fuck him. he stayed there watching me and 22 fuck for a while then decided to help out. he got behind me and used his fingers and tongue on my ass. it was incredible. we moved around so i could suck his cock while 22 fucked me. after a while he just started watching us again. we had left the door open and as time moved on all of thier mates kept coming in to tell us to hurry up and that they didnt have much time. at first we covered up a bit an stopped fucking but after a while we didnt care an just carried on while all the boys came in and watched for a bit. 27 kept coming back for some more blow jobs and to stick his fingers in my ass while i kept fucking his friend. it was all really laid back and fun. when 102 came in for about the tenth time, he stayed for a while and shut the door behind him. 27 left the three of us in there cause he knew that 102 wanted to get involved. 22 called him over and told him to come and touch me. i was blowing him with my ass up in the air over the side of the bed and 102 came over and started playing with me an then just said fuck it, i wanna fuck her now. he got his cock out for me and i sucked on it while playing with 22, i then turned back around and sucked 22 while 102 fucked me and then 27 came in to watch. pretty soon 22 came in my mouth. their mates started coming in again saying the cab was coming in 5 minutes. 22 left me and 102 to it and we fucked until he came in me, making the cab wait. 22 and 102 then ran off to catch their flight. i got back up and hung out with everyone in the living room again, but after a while me and 27 wanted to go back to bed. we fucked for the rest of the night and morning and i came 4 times. it was an incredible fun night and we all got a lot of what we wanted. next time i wanna get air tight but for my first foursome it was more than all right.

that time is now. i have had a really high sex drive the past few months. and that being me, means it has got pretty intense. a few days without a fella kills me. i can make myself cum as much as i want but nothing compares to someone just sticking it in me. it isnt even for sexual gratification, it is just the enjoyment of naked boys and the feel of a cock in me, of someone fucking me. i have been getting easy repeaters with my top 5 favourites and havent been out as much as usual, as it has been so easy getting sex without going out, so there hasnt been many, or any, i cant think right now, new ones.

my one new favorite is 101. getting with him has been a bit more of a whole experience rather than a sex orientated thing. it started out promising with some text flirting and the night after he came home with me. however after sitting around my room for about 3 hours and it getting to 6am without anything happening i was starting to doubt the wiseness of this choice. he started the whole thing anyway so i felt it was his place to take it to the next level. after we got into the pretence of going to sleep, we eventually started getting it on. gently making out, undressing each other and feeling his cock for the first time, which turned out to be a little disappointing. im not saying it was small, but it was just average. pretty soon we got into it and it turned out to be the worst sex i have had in ages. and im not just blaming him. i did not have a clue what to do with him, i could not read him at all. it was like fucking a piece of paper. i got no feedback, we were all out of sync and i just didnt know what he was enjoying or not. its not like i had to worry for long, it was all over pretty quick. we started seeing each other several times a week. a lot of the time was spent cuddling and having little kisses. we did have more sex and it did get better. one time we even came together. that is always cool. me on top of him, grinding away, slowly, firmly. i could feel him building up and i just kept going as he started to cum, it totally set me off and we collapsed in each others arms happy. he is the best at cuddling. it didnt take long for me to realise though that there was not as much excitement and desperation and sexuality coming from him as there should be from a 20 year old boy. it turns out that he isnt very sexual. i think he is quite inexperienced and in one email conversation he stated that based on what i had on numerous occasions mentioned about my history, felt he could not compensate my needs and i should look for satisfaction elsewhere. we moved past this and managed to spend several more nights mostly just cuddling and being semi rejected, to the point of such extreme frustration, that one morning i shouted at him to just stick it in me. he didnt. he seems very confused and the whole situation is not easy. its like we are trying to have some sort of relationship but it is so frustrating cause we arent doing all the fun new thing stuff. i just want to jump all over him and make out for hours and stay in bed fucking for days. we seem to have fallen out again at the moment, so i might not have to worry about it anymore. he just leaves me needing someone to stick it in me.

i have gone to bed for only the second night since tuesday, on my own. and now i cant sleep. so i thought now would be a good time to outline my current situations. i thought it would be good to put down where i am at the moment with everyone as it might not be clear where i am coming from with all of this. some of the stories on my blog are from my past and some are from my present. all are one hundred percent truth. these arent fantasies. i have done all these things. i am currently sleeping with 8 different guys and lining up 3 others. not all of them are as regular as others and some might actually be over now but they are all still present in my current mansphere. i think i will break it down by the rough order of most recent to last. and they can have their own posts.

42 – he came over last night and we had a few hours of pretty great sex. he gave me an amazing orgasm on the second of the 3 fucks that night. i was riding him on top and he was grabbing my ass and grinding hard into me, my clit rubbing against him and his cock rubbing firmly against the front wall in my pussy. it lasted for ages and as my orgasm eased i bounced really hard an fast, sitting up, squeezing my nipples. he has a beautiful cock and is very nice and very handsome. i first met him back in the home town when i was 19. we shared a taxi home from a club, as strangers, and we ended up fucking at his. i had to sneak out in the morning so his parents didnt catch me. fun. since then we have really randomly fucked 3 or 4 more times, me visiting home town and staying at his, or him coming over to mine now.

100 – he came and met me at 7am on new years day at a party and we went back to mine a few hours later and hung out and managed to wake up enough to have really energetic, interesting and orgasmic sex. he spent the whole of new years day here with me and we fucked a couple more times. he has such a beautiful thick cock and is stunning.

miso – he came over earlier this week. it is only the second time he has stayed over. the first time we just made out all night as i was on my period and also i didnt want to fuck him the first opportunity i had cause our situation is so complex that i wanted to make sure it wasnt going to be a one off drunk thing. he is a really taboo person for me to fuck. under no circumstances should we even ever have thought about each other that way and because of that he will remain a code only ever briefly referred to and not really expanded on here.

31 – i have been fucking 31 for 4 ½ years pretty sporadically. he is one of my old best friends exs. and i have also since become very good friends with his last gf too, 81 from the night i played filthy spin the bottle. the first time we fucked his first ex walked in on us fucking in their living room. they werent together properly any more but were still living together. we pretended to be sorry and upset, but when she walked out we ended up fucking again. i think the next time we fucked wasnt till about a year or two later when we were living in the same part of town and hanging out in the same group of people randomly. then we ended up fucking quite a few times, spending nights and days doing lots of drugs and fucking. i really really liked him from the first time i met him when he started seeing his first ex about 7 years ago. i always felt we had a bit of a connection and felt like it was more than just fucking every time we ended up together. the last but one time i went home with him, half way through, me sat on top of him, he just looked at me and asked, why does this always happen? quite soon after that we were talking on chat and we finally admitted that we both loved each other and felt like we should really end up together and we didnt know why we hadnt tried anything more before. since then, things between us have been really fucked up. we were really great friends and the sex was a good, fun and relaxed extra. now we can barely talk to each other. the last time i went to his it was really nice and we watched tv and chatted and cuddled and kissed a lot but didnt mention the fact we had said, i love you, the last time we talked. he has a really long cock and a beautiful, thin, pale body. he loves to watch when we fuck, either in the mirror or in the window or just watching his cock slide in and out of my wet pussy. it really turns me on, knowing he gets off from watching us together. i dont know where we can go next after everything we have said, but we will definately be spending more time with him inside me very soon.

60 – i fucked 60 a few weeks ago for the first time in about 4 years. before that we fucked a couple of times at squat parties, he is actually the guy in the story about ending up in hospital. he came out one night on his own and met me. after following me around like a puppy, it became clear he was there to go home with me. there was loads of foreplay and he went down on me for ages then by the time he finally fucked me, he was so turned on he lasted about a minute. i quite like that tho, i enjoy it when they cum quickly as it feels like they really enjoy it. we said we were gonna be each others back up, but as we live opposite sides of town and dont go out in the same places it hasnt really happened.

27 – i first fucked 27 7 years ago back in the home town, on the night i got with 4 guys. after he moved closer to me again, we had an incredible 3some, which i am yet to write about. the most recent time i fucked 27 was on the night when i had two lame ducks. pb is so horny i could have him whenever i see him. he is usually such a great fuck, and has an incredible body and cock. hopefully next time i see him, i wont have already lined up anyone else.

87 – he is the manager of one of my local pubs. i always thought he hated me. turns out he quite likes me now. or did. we had a couple of nights together and he is pretty impressive with his hands and we did some amazing 69s with fingers in my pussy and ass and his cock deep in my throat. but he has an inability to cum. it is a widely discussed fact about him, an that doesnt make for very satisfying fucking. however on the first morning i thought id wake him up with a cheeky, luby, hand job. it did the trick and he seemed very suprised when he came all over my hand. i found out after about him not beng able to cum, so have since been very proud. he did the whole, i like you, we have a connection, there is something here thing, but in typical boy style he went wierd afterwards and barely talked to me. all i wanted was to add another fun, casual fuck to my list and to fuck him in his office, but by being all wierd he has pretty much put an end to all future fun. however, i know that he knows he still can have it and there have been a couple of times we might have if i hadnt lined up someone else. so maybe there is time for more wierd sex.

96 – he was my original secret. his gf broke up with him and he was really heartbroken. we were mates but neither of us would say we were close. i had heard that he thought i was really hot and wanted a bit of me, so i got talking to him on chat and offered him wise words on his broken heart and gave him a distraction by talking filth and texting him dirty pictures of me for him to wank to. we hung out a couple times after then and one night he got pretty drunk and when he left he text me asking if i wanted to go back to his. he said there would be definately no sex and he just wanted company. i said i was fine with that and wouldnt let anything happen. so back at his, in bed, we had a good chat and a laugh and were having a nice cuddle and he fell asleep. now despite what i said, this guy was hot and i really couldnt waste this opportunity, so i got up to go to the toilet so he would wake up. it worked like a charm and when i got back in bed he was definately more perky. it was the slowest moving, most tentative time ive really ever been with anyone. it was amazing. we lay there for ages with our faces super close together, talking, knowing that one move and we would be kissing. eventually it happened, but it was still quite a while before we got confident enough to kiss with real passion and then he totally lost it. he couldnt get enough of my body, grabing every inch, putting my breasts in his mouth, rubbing my aching pussy through my clothes. then he would sort of realise what he was doing and calm down and try and stop himself from wanting to fuck me. a little stratigic wiggle from me tho and it would all start again. this kept happening, building up and stopping, getting a bit further each time. we got as far as me being naked, on my knees, sucking his cock and i think we actually did a bit of 69 too, before it got too much for him again and his pain and guilt took over. boring. we fell asleep, but at some point that amazing night fucking happened where neither of you know who woke up who and how you ended up like it, but we were back at it again and this time he wasnt going to let anything stop him. he has a really big and beautiful cock and it felt so good streatching my little pussy. i bounced around on him for ages and made sure he could see his cock slipping in and out of my soaking wet hole. it was really great knowing that no matter what he had said about not fucking me, that he just couldnt help himself and pretty soon he came deep inside me. in our still sleepy state we were finally able to fall asleep satisfied. when he went to work in the morning he let me stay at his and sleep till whenever which was nice. since then we have hung out loads, several times a week and have often talked about fucking again and had lots of nice dirty online chats, but we have come to the conclusion that regular sex would be a bit complicated as we were already starting to feel like dicks for gettin with other people in front of each other and neither of us want to get too invovled so we are going to leave it. but maybe just fuck once or twice more cause we both really want to get each other naked again.

one of my other favorite things to do is line people up. i love taking things to another level with friends by chattin dirty on facebook chat. at the moment i have 3 people i am lining up. 2 are from the home town an are a bit different from the usual lining up.

one, ka, i met when he was djing at a club. i wanted him to dj for me so we swapped numbers. he text me as soon as i left saying he thought i was beautiful and wanted to meet up soon. a few days after christmas we went on a short mid day date in the home town. it was nice, a bit interview vibes as we didnt know each other. after he text me sayin he wanted to see me again as soon as possible. he was meant to come to meet me on saturday but his mom was ill so couldnt. he will come visit at some point soon and we will stay at mine, so that is gonna be one of my next ones.

my other home town boy, sailor, i first met 7 years ago and we used to make out. he is so stunning, nose ring, loads of tattoos and i love making out with him. we have found each other on facebook recently and he now lives near . we have chatted loads and a week before christmas we met up in my ends. was great to see him and we thought it would be funny to go out in the home town together over christmas. we did and ended up making out all night like when we were teenagers. i invited him to mine but he said he had to be home cause of parents and christmasyness. we arranged to meet after christmas. i would love to finally, 7 years later, get him in to bed. i bed he looks so good naked. he is back in two days so we will see.

i think the one who will be my next one i get from the ones im lining up is jowe. we have been chatting loads recently and swapping dirty pics and trying to arrange a meet up. he is just a mate of a mate who i have known for a couple of years. i could tell he always had a bit of a crush on me and always seemed a bit shy about it. but for some reason recently he has been really forward about wanting to fuck me and see me naked. he has send me amazing pictures of his cock and films of him fucking his ex gf. i am actually chattin to him while i am writing this. he is telling me he wants to fuck me in the ass while he puts the vibrator in my pussy. so exciting. he might come over later. he has a girlfriend and both him and her are quite famous so this is pretty secret too. he better come over at some point soon anyway. i want to be double fucked.

so that is where i stand. i have been having other one night stands between these, but they dont really matter and i know they are one offs. I really really want some sex now.

this has happened before and since, but this time was a particularly intense memory loss. my dad had gone away for a few weeks when i was 18, so i moved into his flat. not a clever move on any parents part. but lots of fun for me. so i woke up one morning after a big wednesday, pretty out of it, facing out of the bed. after a minute i realized that there was another body in my bed. i racked my brains about where i had been and who with last night, but came up with nothing. the last thing i remembered was pretty early in the night and i had a memory of being disappointed with the quality of a boy i had kissed. as that was the last thing i remembered, the ugly fear set in and i lost the ability to turn over and find out who this person was. i lay there for almost half an hour, trying to think and trying to delay the ugly shock i was gonna get. after a while i could tell he was awake too, so i slowly turned over and realized, this guy, number 15, was hot. i was so surprised and relieved. i definitely had never seen him before in my life and had no idea who he was. so we exchanged mornings and when he asked me if he could stay for a bit and hang out and fuck more, i was happy to oblige, but i told him on one condition, that he tell me who the fuck he is and why he is in my bed. turned out to be a mates older brother, who i met randomly and decided to take back with me. we spent the whole day in bed making me some new memories and we ended up seeing each other for a few weeks. so who ever said not to accept rides from strangers, was definitely wrong.

there is a guy on my list, dance boy, number 24. i don’t really remember anything about him apart from we had a dance off a few times at this club i used to go to back home. i thought he was gay, but obviously not. one night he got hold of me and we ended up running about the city center together at 3am. we took all our clothes off and jumped into the big fountain, then we rolled out into the neighboring flower beds, where we tried to fuck. it was a bit too public, in the middle of the square, so we went off into an alley, but as we got into each others pants a massive flood light went on and we had to run off. not sure how, but we ended up on the scaffolding on the side of a building down another alley. i held onto the scaffolding in front of me while he fucked me from behind. i remember his brown corduroy coat. that is the last thing i remember. but that isn’t the only time i got it on in the streets of my home town.

so last night an old favorite 27 was out again. he didnt pester me as much as last week where he was rubbing my pussy in front of everyone and pretty much fucking me at the bar. but come the end of the night he was after a bit again. we made out for a while, and i was gonna send him home with just that, as i had another boy waiting to go home with me in the other room. but i thought fuck it, he wont know. so we went down to the toilets. he felt some need to get me naked, which i guess wasnt hard as i only had a dress on with tights and no other underwear. i could here people outside clearing up and someone tried to come in, so i was like, erm lets leave it. but he got his cock out an rubbed it agains my pussy from behind, picked me up and pushed me against the sink and started fucking me. this was great, apart from the fact he was clearly wasted and couldnt keep his cock hard. we carried on for a while, but it just seemed like a waste of time. i got off and told him it would be best to leave it now, slapped his ass and walked out. just down the corridor was my other boy for the night, 60. while we were gettin ready to leave 27 kept calling me and texting me asking me over, but i hadnt seen 60 for 4 years and wanted to take him home. when we got home i was so tired i just wanted to pass out, but he made quite a romantic effort at undressing and kissing me. his kissing was a bit intense, all tongues and biting, which i like, but i dont need my whole face licked. also what is it with boys wanting to kiss every inch of my body atm? i quite like it, but i find it a bit wierd and boring. anyway after teasing me for ages he went down on me, he is really good at it. after quite a while, he came back up and started fucking me, but after about 30 seconds he came. he tried carrying on fuckin me, but obvs he was too soft by then. i didnt mind as i was tired and i much preffer someone to cum quickly than take ages or not at all. i find it a compliment. i will definately be seein more of him now he is back in the city. but hopefully i wont end up with two lame ducks in one night again.

you see this bullshit on the telly an films and shit, like oooohhh i write a blog, its a secret, oh no, someones found out about it, oh its ruined a relationship. well as i have a big mouth when i had only just started this blog and needed to tell someone about it. so i told this boy i had just met. we had spent a good couple of nights together. he really turned me on an i havent laughed so much in ages just hanging out. at first he was cool with the blog. he even wrote a mini one for me. then one night he said he couldnt handle the blog and wouldnt be seeing me again. i was pretty gutted, i didnt expect my blog to affect my real life, especially so soon after it had started. anyway after a couple of weeks and some tentative texts he came over one night when i was ill cause i needed a cuddle. yeah im not just all about sex, i like a good cuddle and hang out too. we spent a couple of nights together and we had a really good time. he wouldnt let me fuck him the first night, cause he was still reading the blog and knew what id been doing. by the time we did fuck, it was so good i came in about 5 seconds. he really turns me on and makes me cum more than i usually do. an he is so much fun to hang out with too. he came back to mine on friday night after we had been out and we had a lovely day fucking and chattin an eating on saturday. i came more that day than i have in ages. i went out that night and got too tired so came home and decided to write about my 100 and generally play on the blog. i knew he was still reading it, but this is my baby and i dont wanna stop, i love it. i got woken up on sunday with a text from him saying, i hate you and that blog. so i think this blog might have ruined a good thing. i love being made to cum so much and laugh so much by the same person and i really hope this blog doesnt affect that. or now i have writen this, that it does actually affect it, in a good way.