I’ve been going down a track on YouTube, my new special interest, of reaction and red pill videos. People who were liberal, progressive or woke and have seen the light. The light, they are finding, is called being red pilled. Moving towards a conservative, right wing, world view. I have been going through this process myself for a couple of years. My panic and fear at the direction the world was going, the reality of its current awfulness, the immense problems in all people, systems, experiences, everything ever that has been, is wrong, and it debilitated me. I wound up in bed for days and even weeks, for years. I felt like I was the only person in the world that could see the amount of reality in the world, that felt the pain and awfulness of every moment for every person. Even if people seeeem to be happy, if they are oblivious to how awful their lives are compared to what they could be if we changed all the priorites and system in the world to be what is best for the most human animals. I was heartbroken for every human that had ever lived. And thought I was the only person who could do anything about. The only person to see the whole picture.
I dont know what sent me up the ladder out of these depths, there were many factors changing in my life that could be contributing. My work is consistent as is my schedule and abilities to do/enjoy work. I have a growing savings account. I am able to socialize with the Bag Ladies (camgirl forum) and feel good about me around other people, the town meet and evening with the neighbours added to this. I am more at ease in my body and mind. I can control my emotions and observe my feelings when they arrise. I move through repetitive thoughts quickly. Im not raw. Im not terrified. Im not on the defensive. Im not in fight or flight. I am comfortable in my reality.
Russel Brand, Joe Rogan and Elon Musk saying what Im thinking taking the pressure of me thinking I am the only one to save the worl.