Note: As with many of my writings, this is a one sitting, physical flow. I write from start to finish, without stopping. I only edit for clarity and spelling. This quality of writing doesn’t need any pre thought, mid thought, or post thought. It is the truth coming from my body. It is a joy to flow on what I know. Enjoy.
The reason I know our physical embodiment is the highest enlightenment, is because I have intentionally been working on it myself for the last 9 years. Learning, experimenting, practising. I am almost finished. But that is how it always feels, and how I expect it will feel forever. As I work on my body through massage, focusing on an area, and using isolation, connection, flexing and release, I have gotten to the very roots of my experience on this planet.
I was just working on my calf muscles that lead to a release and re alignment of my left thigh and hip. As I used the massage gun on my hamstring, I remembered when I first changed that part of my body and the ongoing consequences of that. As I massage, I am meditative, not ruminating, focusing on the sensations in my body. Allowing thoughts to arise and pass.
The joy of being this far along my journey is that now, the only thoughts that arise, are the memories, experiences, distorsion, compensation and trauma that was encoded in that part of my physical body.
My hamstring started registering in my mind for, maybe the first time since I was 8, when I pulled it at gymnastics, on the vault, it all flows through my mind like a movie. The emotions attached to the pain I experienced mentally and physically at that time,passed through me, and awareness of sadness, grief, forgiveness, sorrow and release came through. And I am wiped clean. I am connected to that part of my body in a way I havent been aware of before. My thigh feels less like dead meat and more like a leg, I can connect to it. And mentally I feel stronger, able to stand on my own two feet. The strength in my legs that is unable to be accessed due to tensions, imbalances and scars feels available. And the mental strength that it gives me is a release of fear, of imposter syndrome. I don’t have to pretend I have legs, I can feel my legs, I am not pretending to know what I know, I KNOW it. The inner child that was still experiencing pain through the mental interpretation of the physical change in my body that occurred and arrested when I injured it. These stories, memories, emotions, narratives, releases, and revelations come with the territory of connecting to the deepest physicality of your body.
This wasn’t a one off moment. This is what I have been experiencing for years. I have seen everything that has ever happened to me and how it has shaped me. How my physical body has shaped my emotional experience, and how emotional events have shaped my physical body. As I work on them and release them, I feel my body more than ever, my posture is near perfect, my proportions are more aesthetic, I am more symmetrical, I have more muscle development than when I lifted hours a week. And coincidentally enough, mentally I have never felt more stable, content, comfortable being me, healthy,authentic, brave, confident, joyful and full of gratitude for my life than I do now. So when I say the body is the highest, I know.
I know what the body knows, what the mind might be, where consciousness, memory, personality resides, and how entirely one’s perspective of everything is shaped by their physical experiences. I am not theorising or philosophising. This is real. I truly believe true enlightenment is the experience of the world once one has wiped themselves clean of conditioning, encoding and dysfunction, mentally and physically. Too many people in the hunt for enlightenment, higher, spirit, soul, focus entirely on the mind. The body is low. It must be rejected for the mind, and then you reject mind to reach soul. NOPE. How the hell can your mind experience anything devine if the body through which the mind functions, is in dysfunction, with a lifetime of encoding, limiting its potential?
The mental mastery is male. The physical is female. The unification of body and mind is the unification of male and female, yin yang, real enlightenment, god.
Modern society has mistaken the feminine for the emotional not the physical. The emotional is a loss of control of the mind. That coincides with a loss of control of the body. The masculine and the feminine are completely disconnected and out of control. Disembodiment is the new cool. Meat sack is the attitude of the masses towards their bodies. The only way for us to move forward as a species is for the mind and body to be mastered. The only people leading us or making any decisions should be human animals who have mastered their duality and know reality. Reality is what the body and mind experiences when it reaches that state. I don’t think any current enlightenment teachers, speakers, gurus, linen shirt twats are reaching this state as the focus is on raising out of the body, denigrating the physical, looking for something that there is no evidence of that they might experience. Blind to the fact that whatever they experience is mediated through the very body they are trying to escape or denigrate.
Do not strive for a spiritual experience. Strive for a fully physical one.. One where your body and mind is so pure that you can feel the sparkling, vibrating, interconnectedness of reality, and the fact that that which is experiencing the sensation of life, is on a rock, hurtling through a unknown entity for a unknown reason for a unknown period of time with a unknown destination or end, all because at some point, some of those vibrations you can feel lighting up your senses, created the beginnings of matter.
And hey, if I am wrong, do you really think god, your spirit, your soul would be happy with you neglecting the body it chose to incarnate your soul into?! Do you not think there is a reason you have a physical body imbued from the higher? Does God not know what the physical sensations of the functional human body are? Are you wiser than God in how to experience it and treat it? If we are made in the image of god, why denigrate the body and its sensations? Your body is the god body. So treat it like it. In some way, it is your only god, as is the only thing through which you experience reality. Your god is your body mediating the flow of information that your mind processes. I;m sure many people will disagree. If you do, have you done the work on your body for 9 years to know that what I am saying is wrong? Are you really sure of what you can know from the limitations of the body and mind that has shaped all you already know? So before someone says “We are spiritual beings having a physical experience”, just think, are you sure? Does your body know that? How does having a spirit feel in your body? You might just have to get to know your body first to find the answer. And that answer may be what I already know. The body is where you experience transcendence. Transcendence from the simulation of language into the real. The physical. The true you. The truth outside of you. Reality.
